#i’m kind of scared void

I’m 26 and I was just diagnosed with neuropathy.

For perspective: the average age for this is people being in their 60’s.

My legs tingle all the time. There’s electricity buzzing through them, there are flashes of pain & my lower back is always killing me. Sometimes to the point where I feel like I can’t fucking breath. My legs give out on me; I’ve fallen down the stairs twice now & I’ve gotten up had a horrible shock of pain as my legs gave out & fell into a table.

My doctor talked to me about possibly treatments and mentioned that spinal surgery might be an option if everything else doesn’t work, but I can’t. I don’t think I can do that. Too many risks. I’d rather have tingles and pain then not be able to walk.

I feel like I’ve exhausted a lot of the possible treatments though. I’ve done PT, I’ve done heat/ice therapies, I’m in regular therapy. The only things I haven’t done are medication management, epidurals & surgery. 2/3 I’m weary of

I just want them to feel normal. I don’t think they’ll ever feel normal again. This happened and now it’s just happening.

It fucking sucks. I just want to have a normal 26 year olds body.