#kai the raven

It has been quite some time since I’ve posted here.

School has kept me very busy and it’s even kept me from having the energy to really do anything related to my religion. I feel bad about it, but I know the Gods are forgiving about it.

But, I did take a huge step forward in my shadow work and healing. I’ve had a ring on my left ring finger for six years and it has some traumatic memories and feelings attached to it. I tried to cleanse it and mentally separate it from the association. I tried for many years but I couldn’t.

Thursday, I was encouraged by friends to finally let go of it. I’ve been wanting to replace it for a few months and finally, finally had the courage to get rid of it. I was at the beach, a place that used to be my healing and comfort place until after what happened, and I stepped into the water on the opposite coast of where I came into possession of the ring.

I took a deep breath, said my goodbye, and threw it as far as I could into the ocean. Immediately, a weight lifted from my chest and shoulders and I could’ve cried. My friends said that I looked lighter. Carefree.

I have a replacement coming. A little Raven with a garnet. A friend to replace the one I lost. I’ll miss my turtle ring, but it was only holding me down and keeping me stuck in the past. It was time to let it go.

In other news, I got a beautiful Lovers tapestry for my apartment and hung up some of my art around my altar that used to sit on it. A cypress and moss candle for Hades that he adores. I have a new necklace as well from a friend for my birthday back in January and it’s of Cerberus. I wear it often. And Kai, my Raven companion, has finally stopped audibly harassing me in class. He was testing my possible Clairaudience and I told him to knock it off. The little trickster.

It’s been awhile, yeah?

I started school and have been really busy. But that’s not why I’m making this post.

I was doing an entity identification reading and it got hijacked instead.

Apparently, I have a familiar.

His name is Kai. He’s a Raven. Remember that dream I had awhile ago about a talking Raven named Kai? Yep. That’s him.

According to him, and Melinoe who also slipped in during the reading, the entity I was trying to speak with is malevolent and they wanted me to stop for the night and try again with better protection and a better plan.

A strange evening indeed. But I guess I have Kai as a familiar now. That’s cool :)

I had a dream last night. Met a raven named Kai. I was talking to someone else in the dream about the differences between ravens and crows and I spoke to Kai in hopes that he would call back.

Instead, he said: “Hello.”

We had full on conversations and now that I look back and try to imagine him, I see a person rather than a raven. Sometimes I see a raven, depending on which part of the dream I’m focusing on.

Now I’m just trying to figure out wth that was