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Poly Bakusquad Part 10 (SFW ish) 

- Bakugou was the last person Shinsou kissed.

- It didn’t happen for almost two months after Shinsou joined.

- Shinsou’s insomniatic self was downstairs at 4 in the morning, drinking sleepy time tea(it wasn’t working).

- Bakugou came downstairs to get some water.

- The two of them nodded at each other.

- Bakugou joined Shinsou on the couch.

- They were quiet for a long time.

- “I bet you’re a terrible kisser.” Shinsou broke the silence.

- “The fuck did you just say, eyebags?”

- “You’re probably a terrible kisser.”

- “I’m the best kisser.”

- “Oh yeah? Prove it.”

- Shinsou hates to admit it, but Bakugou was, in fact, an amazing kisser.

- The kiss soon got more aggressive.

- It was very unlike all the others.

- Definitely something he expected from Bakugou.

- Despite all the friction between the two of them, one thing they could agree on, their make out sessions were intoxicating.

- They happened often.

- The others were completely unaware.

- They just assumed the two didn’t get along enough to kiss, let alone make out.

- Sometimes Shinsou and Bakugou would disappear for an hour just to make out as a form to relieve tension from a stressful day.

Poly Bakusquad Part 9 (SFW)

- Shinsou kissed Jirou three days after he kissed Kirishima.

- Jirou was kneeling on the kitchen counter, reaching for a cup.

- Shinsou came behind her and got it down after watching her struggle to reach it for a minute.

- She smiled and thanked him.

- They just looked at each other for a painfully long time.

- Shinsou’s hand on the counter on either side of Jirou.

- It was slow, but eventually their lips met.

- “2 down, 4 to go” Jirou said with a smirk.

- “Actually, 3 down, 3 to go. I kissed Kiri a few days ago.”

- “How was it?”

- “Sharp and manly.”

- Jirou framed a crumpled piece of paper that said  “sharp and manly” and hung it up in Kiri’s room as an inspirational quote.

- No one understood what it meant.

- Except Shinsou(and jirou duh)

- One day Shinsou caught Mina sulking about losing her favorite sparkly blue gel pen.

- “Would a kiss make you feel better?” Shinsou asked.

- Mina lit up.

- Then she leaped into Shinsou’s arms and kissed him.

- After that, they went to the store and Shinsou bought her a new set of 40 sparkly gel pens.

- The look on his girlfriends face was worth every cent.

- Shinsou, Kaminari, and Sero got really high one night(shh, don’t tell dadzawa).

- Kaminari passed out after eating an entire pizza to himself.

- Sero and Shinsou drew cat whiskers and a pink nose on him.

- And ofc took pictures.

- Blurry CatKami was now both of their lock screen pictures.

- “What if *giggle* we… kissed?” Sero asked.

- They both laughed maniacally for several minutes.

- Unable to contain their smiling, their first kiss was less of a kiss and more of a pressing their teeth together because they couldn’t keep a straight face.

- The next morning Shinsou asked for a proper kiss.

- It lasted for less than a second before they started a laughing fit all over again.

- It woke Kaminari up.

- The spazzy little guy jumped up and Naruto ran out of the room yelling about needing to take a fat shit after eating all that pizza.

- The two were left in a laughing fit on the floor.

Poly Bakusquad Part 8 (SFW)

- Jirou was the one who Shinsou warmed up to in the Bakusquad first(after Kaminari).

- He started thinking it wouldn’t be such a bad idea to join their relationship.

- Much like Sero, he didn’t kiss everyone right away.

- And Kaminari didn’t insist he did.

- He knew Shinsou got sensory overload very easily.

- So he encouraged Shinsou to take his time.

- Jirou played with his hair as often as he’d let her.

- It helped him get used to the sense of touch.

- Whenever Shinsou got nervous being with the whole group, he’d pull Kaminari into his lap and rest his head on his shoulder.

- One day, Shinsou and Kirishima have a day to themselves, because the others were off training.

- The two really needed a break though.

- Kirishima was ecstatic that Shinsou agreed to hang out with him, having wanted to get closer to the newest member of the relationship.

- They held hands for a while so Shinsou could loosen up.

- Then they watched cat videos for a while.

- After an hour Shinso asked if he could touch Kirishima’s teeth.

- Ofc Kiri says yes.

- He wasn’t expecting Shinsou to be so enthusiastic about it.

- Almost all of Shinsou’s fingers were in Kirishima’s mouth at one point.

- Shinsou pulled his fingers out and several strings of saliva followed.

- Shinsou wiped his hands on Kirishima’s shirt.

- Kirishima found it very endearing.

- And then they kissed.

- Several times.

- Shinsou just really wanted to feel Kirishima’s teeth on his lips.

Poly Bakusquad Part 7 (SFW)

- Shinsou was the last to join.

- He replaced Mineta in the hero course.

- Kaminari shamelessly hit on him every chance he got.

- Kirishima and Mina hyped up Kaminari for perusing his mysterious crush.

- Shinsou was hesitant about joining a poly relationship.

- Because affection from one person already seemed like a lot.

- So he started with just Kaminari.

- Everyone else was happy for the two of them.

- None of them had bitter feelings about Kaminari having a relationship on the side.

- Shinsou and Bakugou would butt heads and threaten each other to treat Kaminari like a king because he deserves nothing less.

- They loosened up around each other when they both saw how the other made Kaminari happy.

- Shinsou was not a fan of PDA.

- Kaminari got his fill of PDA with Kirishima and Mina so he was able to easily restrain himself from getting too affectionate with Shinsou in public.

- Their affection outside the bedroom was limited to eating lunch together and holding hands in the empty hallways.

- Shinsou loved how Kaminari’s hands were so small in his.

- But once they’re behind closed doors, Shinsou’s affection levels sky rocket.

- Tickle fights.

- Cuddles.

- Kaminari crawling into Shinsou’s sweater so they can share it.

- Back scratches.

- Kaminari curling up on Shinsou’s lap like a cat.

- Lots of kissing.

- Until their first date.

- Shinsou initiates hand holding.

- IN PUBLIC!

- Kaminari was so happy he started tearing up.

- Shinsou panicked, thinking he’d done something wrong.

- He pulled Kaminari aside and hugged him.

- Kaminari explained they were happy tears after a minute… or five.

- He didn’t want the hug to end.

Poly Bakusquad Part 6 (SFW)

- Mina and Jirou like taking baths together so they can wash each other’s hair and get tough to reach spots on their backs.

- The guys always suspect they’re doing other things in the bath.

- But they aren’t.

- They just enjoy peaceful bath time together.

- Sero makes a tape hammock.

- All of them pile on at the same time.

- Mina, Sero, Kirishima, and Bakugou sitting directly on the hammock.

- Kaminari laying across Mina and Sero.

- Jirou snuggled up in Kirishima and Bakugou’s arms.

- Jirou, Mina, and Kaminari planned a coup to sneak into Sero’s room and steal his hoodies.

- He had exactly three.

- Sero has to steal one of Bakugou’s.

- It fit like a crop top with ¾ sleeves.

- He was too much of a string bean to get the proper boyfriend sweater experience.

- He still wore it though.

Poly Bakusquad Part 5 (SFW)

- Sero took his time getting around to kissing.

- Aside from Mina who he kissed before the two of them joined others.

- It was Bakugou first.

- He pinned Bakugou during a sparring session.

- Bakugou blurts out “I wanna kiss you so bad right now.”

- “So being pinned down is what does it for you, Blasty?”

- “You better kiss me right now before blow you up for calling me that.”

- Sero kisses him.

- They end up making out for 20 minutes until Kaminari finds them and insists Sero kiss everyone else now so no ones left out.

- “We scheduled this training room until 7, so he’s mine for the next 40 minutes. But don’t worry Pikachu, I’ll make sure he does his rounds when we’re finished.”

- Kaminari begrudgingly nods to Bakugou’s answer.

- Bakugou and Sero spend the rest of their time making out.

- He kisses Jirou next at the end of their lunch date.

- She’s standing on a sidewalk curb.

- But still has to go up on her tippy toes to reach.

- Sero is bent at the knees because she still can’t reach.

- Kaminari’s next.

- It’s a surprise kiss.

- Kaminari accidentally sends a shock through Sero.

- He apologizes for days.

- Sero insists he’s fine.

- Finally, he walks into Kirishima’s room.

- He’s sitting at his desk.

- Looks up and beams at Sero.

- “Hey man, what’s up?”

- “I’m just making my rounds.”

- Then he kisses Kirishima, who responds with a giggle.

- Then kisses him back.

Poly Bakusquad Part 4 (SFW)

- Mina and Sero were in a relationship for a few days before joining the other four at the same time.

- Mina made quick work giving everyone an enthusiastic kiss when they confirmed their relationship.

- Jirou was taken aback.

- Kirishima and Kaminari both accepted the kiss and eagerly returned it.

- Bakugou was scowling.

- Not because he didn’t like the kiss.

- He did like it.

- He just didn’t know how to return the enthusiasm.

- So he wore his default scowl.

- Mina forced everyone to take cutesy relationship pictures.

- And join cuddle piles.

- Mina, Kirishima, and Kaminari LOVE PDA.

- Sero was super chill.

- He was the most casual and low key with his affection in the whole group.

- Mina and Jirou often have girl dates where they’d go shopping or get their nails done, just the two of them.

- The guys use that time to just sit back and do dude things.

- Like arm wrestle.

- Kaminari sitting on Sero’s lap while arm wrestling Kirishima, who’s on Bakugou’s lap.

- Rotating laps with each wrestling match.

- Kaminari would spread his legs for them to sit between.

- It was Bakugou who made the rule that none of the guys could sit on Kaminari’s lap(only between his legs).

- Because he was significantly smaller.

- And they didn’t want to squish him beyond repair.

AU:X
Ship: Poly of Eijiro Kirishima, Izuku Midoriya, Katsuki Bakugo, Shoto Todoroki, Denki Kaminari, Hanta Sero, and Hitoshi Shinso (This was easier than typing out all the pairings)
Prompt:X
Requested by:X
Warnings: Internalized Acephobia, mentions of sex, non con like elements (Nothing happens though it is mentioned), insecurities and fears of breaking up.If I missed any please let me know!
Summary:Eijiro loved his partners. He loved them more than life itself. They were more than accepting of any eccentricities of each other, which is to be expected from a poly of seven different personalities.
But he didn’t know if they would accept him when they realized he was broken.
F/A/H-C:Hurt/Comfort
POV:3rd, following Eijiro.
Word Count:3,735
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Side Note: Hi, I’m finally back to writing fics, even though it’s for a different fandom now, it’s still something lmao. I may come back to writing Sanders Sides eventually but we shall see. Let me know what you think of it! And I hope you enjoy! 

They are all 3rd years and about to graduate UA! I wasn’t sure if that was considered an au or not but theyareof legal age!

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Eijiro knew there was something about him that was different from his other classmates. Originally he had just blamed all the weirdly delayed interest in any girls, moreso any talk of ‘hooking up’, on him being gay once he finally figured that out. 

But then the thoughts he thought he should have about guys, about doing things with guys never came either. He knew that he found guys attractive, obviously, he developed the biggest crush on two of the most powerful students in his class incredibly quickly after seeing both of their strengths, but whenever he thought about them, about being with them. Nothing sexual came from it. He’s a teenagerheshouldbe having these thoughts right? 

He heard Denki talking about some of the guys in the class at one point, saying how hot a few of them were. And, well, Eijiro could agree, however when Denki started going into more detail about what he saw in the locker room, the redhead went silent. He couldn’t see anyone like that, not even two of his most prominent crushes. Was there something wrong? 

He was not able to figure it out until their third year of high school. Now in a relationship that consisted of seven total. Polyamory was a thing introduced to him by Izuku once they had started dating and Eijiro realized he still had feelings for Katsuki after quite some time. He was overjoyed that Izuku had shown him that, moreso that he and Katsuki both agreed to it. 

Not too long later, Izuku realized his feelings for Shoto, and Denki. Eijiro came to these realizations himself later. Denki then had feelings for both Hanta and Hitoshi. After quite a while of this, everyone in the poly was dating everyone. Which made things both a little less complicated and a little more complicated. 

Eijiro loved his partners. He loved them more than life itself. They were more than accepting of any eccentricities of each other, which is to be expected from a poly of seven different personalities. 

But he didn’t know if they would accept him when they realized he was broken. 

He didn’t start off thinking like that. He just thought he was taking longer than everyone else to develop these kinds of feelings towards the others. Denki and Hanta using obviously suggestive flirting with one another while the group was together was to be expected. Then Hitoshi joined in, then Katsuki, Shoto, and eventually Izuku was making remarks that can and were meant to be taken in a not so innocent way. 

Eijiro laughed along with these jokes, he understood them and was fine with them. So he thought there was nothing wrong with him. It wasn’t until the words turned into actions that he came to the realization about himself. 

Katsuki and him were both incredibly physical with their fighting styles. So it’s only natural that every once in a while, their very playful spats would turn into wrestling matches in one of their rooms. 

It was later into the night, a majority of the students were either asleep or down in the common area. Eijiro smirked as he managed to pin Katsuki down onto the floor, his hands grabbed his wrists keeping them pinned beside his head, using his quirk to ensure they stayed there. Both of the boys were a little out of breath panting in eachother’s faces. 

Eijiro wasn’t thinking about what position they were in. The fact that he was on top of Katsuki, kneeling on either side of the others lower body was lost on him. Until he realized Katsuki wasn’t continuing to struggle. As the pairs of red eyes met one another, Eijiro noticed the look in his partner’s. They were slightly darkened yet hazy. A look that he recognized instantly. 

The same look he had given Denki before he had pinned him against the wall, marked up his neck so much that the bruises were left for at least two weeks. There was probably more to that story that he hadn’t quite heard, or had subconsciously tuned out due to the nature of it. 

A sickening feeling of panic bubbled up in his stomach, along with a feeling of near disgust. The second he realized it, he jerked away, scrambling off of his boyfriend with a nervous laugh. “Ha! Gotcha, man!” He prayed Katsuki wouldn’t pick up on the tremble of his voice. Katsuki’s expression immediately changed from the look he had before, to one of confusion. He was silent as he seemed to examine the redhead. 

Eijiro had gotten really good at reading Katsuki’s expressions, but there was one he was never able to quite pinpoint. Katsuki’s blank expression. None of his normal anger that seemed to constantly reside on his face, no annoyance, no smugness, absolutely nothing. That was the expression most of his partners tended to worry about when it showed up, just because it was so unreadable. 

That was the expression Kirishima was met with after the confusion seemed to fade. 

“Right.” Katsuki mumbled. 

Eijiro glanced around the room quickly, looking for anything to change the topic or clear the awkward air around them. His eyes caught his bookbag and he grinned, “Oh hey, would you mind uh, helping me study again? I’m getting a little hung up on how some of the equations work.” Please work, please work, please work. 

It did and it didn’t. 

Katsuki hummed, the annoyance finally reading on his face once again. He knew something was up, but he knew that Eijiro was trying to hide it, he could tell. But despite that, he nodded, “Fine. What is it?” 

There was going to be a talk later. It was going to be asked, Eijiro could tell. But now it wasn’t happening. He could only hope that he would have some explanation once the talk did happen. 

—- 

He did come to an explanation. A much worse one than he hoped he would come to and in a much worse way. 

He thought he had it figured out. That he was just awkward about it since he had never tried it, the position he had gotten Katsuki in was weird and that’s all it was. Maybe it would stop being like that once he was prepared to take that step with his partners. They had all waited for one another to be ready before trying anything at all so he figured it would be fine.

That’s all he thought it was. 

Like Katsuki and Eijiro’s playful wrestling matches, Denki and him had something very similar. Only, they were often brought on by Kirishima winning in whatever game they were playing, and Denki tackling him, which led to more of a tickle fight than anything. Both laughing and giggling as they rolled around on the floor. 

Golden eyes met red ones once they calmed down, the electric boy was now above him. Easily Eijiro could push him off, but he was still too giddy from the childlike roll around they had just had to even think about it. Denki leaned down once he caught his breath, placing a small chaste kiss onto Eijiro’s lips. Another small laugh leaving him before he repeated the process. 

Eijiro was fine with this, this was sweet. He returned the kisses gladly, not at all complaining even when it progressed to a full makeout session. This didn’t make him feel uncomfortable. This didn’t make him have that feeling of panic and disgust. Maybe he was better now! Maybe he’s finally over whatever that was! 

He should have known not to be so hopeful. 

He leaned up on his elbows a little, feeling like he couldn’t get enough of his boyfriend’s kiss. He didn’t stop Denki when the other’s hands began to wander down his chest. This felt okay, this felt nice. This was just Denki being touchy. He was used to it. 

Until it wasn’t just that. 

Denki’s hand wandered down, down further past Eijiro’s stomach, as it made its way closer and closer, that feeling came back. Bubbling up much worse than last time, the thought came too quickly, the thought of any of his partners touching him like that, made him immediately tense up. Finally he was getting those thoughts he thought he should have been getting, but now instead of getting aroused by them, all he felt was that gross, uncomfortable and panicky feeling. 

He finally snapped out of his own thoughts when he felt a small shock course through him. He blinked a couple times, feeling hot tears falling down his face. His body was shaking, and in front of him, he saw those golden eyes again. Looking at him with so much worry. 

Eijiro drew his hand away from Denki’s wrist quickly. When had he grabbed him? “Eijiro!” He managed to register that his boyfriend was talking to him. It took him a moment longer to gather his voice enough to respond, “w-wh… what happened?” 

Denki looked even more confused, “You tell me! I-dude I would’ve stopped! You were just suddenly shaking and crying and you jerked my arm away from you! Are you okay?” 

Eijiro nodded after a moment, “Yeah, Yeah sorry, I just kinda freaked out I guess?” That was the only way he could explain it, though it was obvious enough that Denki knew that much. Denki’s expressions were much easier to read than Katsuki. Which only made it that much easier to see the confusion and worry now be joined by hurt. 

“Did… Did you not think I’d stop?” He sounded just as petrified as Eijiro felt currently. Eijiro shook his head immediately, “No! No! I mean-Yes! I knew you would have stopped! I trust you! I just wasn’t thinking, I guess…? I don’t really know.” 

Denki nodded, seemingly content with that answer. “Okay, dude. Uh, do you wanna keep playing?” Gesturing over to the forgotten Switch. Eijiro smiled a little and nodded, “Yeah! Can’t wait to kick your ass again!” He said hitting his fists together. 

The blonde grinned, immediately returning back to his normal happy self. “Oh whatever! That last round was a total flub! Doesn’t count!” 

– 

That night, Eijiro rested his head against his pillow, his mind racing through the events of the day. Something that hadn’t quite clicked in his head finally did. “I trust you” was what he had said in reassuring Denki. Which was true, he trusted all of his partners, he couldn’t have a relationship if he didn’t. 

But, if he couldn’t even bear the thought of the people he trusted with his life, he loved with all of his heart, to touch him like that… Then that wasn’t the problem. Being awkward and nervous wasn’t the explanation. Not being ready wasn’t the explanation. 

Finally he accepted it as tears came to his eyes. “I’m never going to be ready for it…” he murmured to himself. “I’mnever going to want that.” 

It made sense, he had never liked the idea before, never thought about it before, and now that it was almost thrown in his face (On accident, Denki of course didn’t know he felt like this and Eijiro couldn’t blame him). He panicked. He wasn’t afraid of it. It didn’t make him nervous. It made him uncomfortable. 

He had a sinking feeling in his stomach, as a sob left his mouth. He wasn’t like any of his partners, he wasn’t like anyone in the class, hell he didn’t even know if there was a possibility of anyone like him being at the school. He’s Broken.

Quickly remembering that Katsuki was right next door, he grabbed a pillow, biting it in order to muffle himself. 

He was broken, he didn’t feel the things he was supposed to. He didn’t want the things his partners wanted. What most people consider a crucial part of a relationship he couldn’t even think about without feeling sick. 

It hurt, it hurt and ached every part of his being. His partners were all accepting, but they’ll want that. He’d be a horrible partner to deny them something that they’d consider important in the relationship. Why would they bother sticking with him if he wasn’t enough? If he couldn’t make them fully happy what was the point? 

How vividly he could imagine their faces made it so much worse. Izuku would smile softly, try to let Eijiro down slowly, probably even apologizing. Katsuki would be annoyed, thinking he wasn’t tough enough to handle it. Denki would think it was funny and ridiculous. Hanta would be confused, who wouldn’t want to have sex with their partners? Shoto wouldn’t really have any glaring expression, just a simple sigh of dissatisfaction, and Hitoshi would just roll his eyes, like Eijiro had been a waste of time. 

He was pretty sure he had torn open his pillow at this point, but he couldn’t bring himself to care. He never wanted to see them like that. He never wanted to lose them just because he was broken. He was supposed to be unbreakable after all! He needed to fix it. There had to be some way to keep that from happening. 

A terrifying thought crossed his mind.

‘If I just force myself through it once, with one of them, and then it’ll be fine after that.’ 

It made him feel sick again, thinking about it. He wouldn’t want it, and he knew his partners would stop and question if they noticed how uncomfortable he was. He sniffled as he continued to debate on it, it would make him feel disgusting, gross and uncomfortable, but it would only be for a little while, and then after that, he could keep his partners, and make sure they’re happy. 

That’s what was most important. 

— 

He made out a little plan, to try to get himself to go through with this. In his mind it was like training. Trying to think of what he thought of that day with Denki without tensing up. Or at least learning how to hide it. Trying to convince himself that ‘it’ll feel good. It’ll feel good.’ The shaking he wasn’t able to get under control, he could blame that on nervousness though, right? 

He knew which partner he was going to try to initiate this with. The one he had been with the longest. Izuku. He was so sweet, gentle and kind, but was incredibly strong and determined. It would feel safe, comfortable, right? It had to, it was Izuku. 

If Izuku said no, he would go to Katsuki, who he knew would have no problems taking the lead if he teased a little, he would be a lot more to deal with than Izuku though, but if it’ll work then he had to do it. If that didn’t work he would go to Denki, then Hanta, then Shoto and then Hitoshi. Hopefully, Izuku would say yes. He loved and trusted all of his partners, but it would be easiest to handle with Izuku. 

—–

It started off a lot like the other two mishaps. Just some playful roughhousing ending with Eijiro pinning Izuku. Eijiro tried desperately to hide any hint of feeling off, looking up to Izuku’s eyes quickly before kissing him. 

Izuku returned the kiss, and he was both a little surprised and not surprised at all that Izuku was the one to push it to a makeout session. He was hesitating a little and Izuku seemed to be enjoying this. Good. Good. He was doing good. 

He remembered what Denki did with his hands, how he touched him and tried to mimic that on Izuku as best as he could. The memory however, caused that feeling to bubble up again. As he began tracing Izuku’s thighs through the shorts he was wearing, an arm on his own stopped him. He swallowed and looked up to meet his boyfriend’s eyes. 

“Ei…?” His voice was so soft and gentle. 

Eijiro pulled his hands away immediately, “S-sorry, was I-do you not want-I didn’t mean to-” Everything was crumbling. He could feel the barriers he put up beginning to crack and break. The feeling was only getting worse. He’d have to go to Katsuki. 

Izuku shook his head, “No! I-I do, want that! Just… you’re shaking…?” 

Eijiro gave a little fake laugh, “Ah! I’m just, kinda nervous, don’t wanna mess this up.” He lied through his teeth. Izuku smiled so gently again, “Don’t worry too much, it’s okay, I’m here.” he murmured comfortingly, the hand that had grabbed Eijiro’s forearm moved down to hold his hand. 

The redhead let out a sigh of relief, “Thank you.” The sickening feeling only bubbled up once more once he continued. Now placing kisses down Izuku’s neck, while his hand went back to tracing up and down his boyfriend’s body. 

He could feel the trembling get worse. He tried to swallow down the panic that was trying to force itself through him as he scraped his teeth against Izuku’s neck. He reached a spot right where his neck and shoulder meet that made Izuku breathe heavier, and whine, right next to Eijiro’s ear. He had no chance. 

Hearing the sound was so different than just the touch. With the touch he could try to think of something else to keep from breaking, but with that noise it shot him right back. Making him realize exactly what he was doing. Exactly what he was about to force himself to do. It was too much. It was all too much. 

The barrier broke. 

The tears and sick feeling he had been trying to hold back now came in full force. He withdrew his hands from Izuku but kept his face in his neck for a moment as he let the tears fall. Izuku tensed under him. Strong arms immediately came to wrap around him. “Ei?” he asked again. His voice sounded so much more panicked than before.

Sounded like Denki did, concern, worry and panic.

Eijiro shook his head, “I-I’m… I’m so sorry, Izuku. I tried, I really did. But I can’t.” the words managed to get choked out between sobs. “I can’t do it, and I’m sorry. I’m sorry I’m broken.” 

He couldn’t see Izuku’s face, but with the silence he could only imagine what he had thought of when he first came up with this plan. The soft smile, ready to let him down slow. To end things with him. He deserved it anyways, for not being enough. He shut his eyes tightly, not wanting to see it when he felt Izuku start to pull away.

Suddenly he was being picked up, and placed on the bed. “Ei… Look at me, please.” Izuku’s voice was shaking, that he wouldn’t pick up until later. But he didn’t need to. Once he finally managed to open his eyes and look at Izuku’s face. The thought of Izuku letting him down slow with that smile vanished instantly.  

Izuku had tears in his eyes too. He looked like he wanted nothing more than to hold him more at that moment. “Please, just breathe, okay? Then we can talk, I’m just confused.” He was more than confused. Eijiro could see it. But he accepted that for now. And slowly worked through calming himself down from the panic attack. 

He looked back at Izuku and nodded, “‘m okay to talk now…” 

Izuku smiled at him, genuinely luckily, and nodded back. “Okay, please tell me what you meant by that…?” 

Eijiro looked off to the side, not wanting to meet those sad green eyes again as he gathered his thoughts to explain. 

“I never, ever really, felt anything likethat towards anyone. Whenever I’d get a crush, I couldn’t even imagine anything like that with them… This is just how I’ve been. And I just thought that eventually, I’d get those feelings. They didn’t come. And when I fell for all of you, I thought, okay maybe once I’m comfortable with them, maybe it’s just because I’m nervous at the thought of it that it was like that… But I am comfortable with all of you, I trust all of you.” 

He sniffled, rubbing at his eye as he could feel more tears threatening to spill. 

“I realized that I probably won’t ever want to do anything like that. Or be comfortable with it. Even when it came to you guys, any thought of that I felt… Gross and uncomfortable and panicky. But, I know a lot of people, most people say that that is an important part in a relationship. And-And I didn’t… Didn’t want to be a bad boyfriend. I want you guys to be happy and satisfied and content and… all of that… and if you all wanted that to be happy, then… you wouldn’t want me…” 

“Eijiro…” Izuku’s voice was barely above a whisper, in more shock than actually wanting to get his attention or stop his talking. 

“So I thought, maybe. Maybe if I can just bare it once. Then I’d stop feeling that way. But, I-I couldn’t… so…” He finally let the tears fall as he shrugged. That was the end, he was expecting Izuku to agree with him. But when he looked up at Izuku’s face.

There were tears falling at a rapid pace down his pretty freckled cheeks, his mouth was slightly open in shock. “Eijiro… Can-Can I hug you?” Eijiro barely let him finish his sentence before he practically lept at Izuku. Holding him tightly, Izuku held him just as tight. 

“You don’t have to do anything that makes you feel like that, it doesn’t matter. Noneof us will think any less of you for that. We love you. It isn’t about sex or anything! We love you. Please, pleasedon’t force yourself, if one day you do feel okay to try then that’s okay! If not? Then that’s also okay. You aren’t broken, Eijiro. You’re perfect.” 

Eijiro sobbed as Izuku spoke, murmuring ‘Thank you’s and ‘I love you’s between breaths and sobs. They stayed like that until both of them fell into a comfortable silence. Cuddling and holding one another, perfectly content. 

That night Izuku introduced him to a new term. One that meant exactly what Eijiro had thought was him being ‘broken’. The term was ‘Asexual’. He wasn’t broken, he wasn’t wrong, he’s Asexual. 

Now, many years later, as a pro-hero that is married to his partners, Eijiro wears that label with pride.