#listen my other fic currently is just domestic fluff
The idea that has had an absolute vice grip on me lately is a skk fic where they can’t actually kill each other. Call it soulmates or just something inherently inexplicable, but if they kill each other, whoever was killed will just regenerate at their side immediately. Of course, once this is discovered, it’s a fantastic tool in Port Mafia’s favor and Mori is absolutely insistent that they keep working together.
Which would be fine if it didn’t mean having to repeatedly kill the person they’re secretly in love with.
It makes sense, of course. It’s a ruthless strategy, but it works. If either of them is ever captured, the other simply has to sneak in, kill them, and get the hell out. It’s much easier to sneak out one healthy person than to try to free someone who is likely injured from torture and drag their half dead ass out. Just kill him and go, he’ll be back at their side before they even make it out the front door. They gain a reputation, of course. They’re tricksters with a strategy that nobody understands because no matter how many times the enemy has seen them kill each other, they’re both always alive.
But the thing is, nobody understands why they can do this and nobody knows if there’s a limit to how many times they can kill each other before the timer runs out and that final death becomes permanent. The toll of repeatedly killing the person you love without knowing if their blood is going to permanently stain your hands really starts to wear on them both. (Especially since the whole “person you love” thing is a secret because the stakes are too high for either of them to confess). So Dazai does what he does best: he pushes Chuuya away with the good intentions of protecting Chuuya’s heart.
But it doesn’t work because Chuuya loves him fiercely and loyally and whatever it is that ties them together isn’t at all broken by their distance. If anything, when the other one is in trouble, they’re filled with this unspeakable dread and a sense of where they absolutely must go, no matter what. The only thing that makes them feel worse is trying to ignore that feeling when it hits. So they meet up every few weeks or months when one of them gets in too deep and the other has to come to their aid. And it certainly doesn’t hurt less to see each other every time— it hurts more.
But they don’t know how to navigate this— how to protect and love each other without being a burden to each other (or becoming even bigger pawns for Mori or someone else to exploit). But no matter what happens, they’re drawn together, racing against the clock and both wishing for a happy ending that neither one thinks they deserve.
It’s going to be angsty, of course. And unbearably painful in the only way that repeatedly losing your lover can be, even if they always come back. It will have a happy ending because everything has to have a happy ending.
But yeah, I’m gonna write this. It already has a title, too. So be on the lookout for “The last thing I want to do is hurt you (but it’s still on the list)”.
