me online: haha ronsey is so funny the jokes abt ronan being his dog “they went and got some orange juice” how sweet lol teenagers
my brain, constantly: “while i’m gone dream me the world” “he couldn’t say it, there were a thousand reasons why he couldn’t say it” “this was home: henrietta, the pig, ronan” “twice ronan got a phone call from his ganseyfriend […] both times after this ronan went and lay down […] and cried a little without making any sound” “not tonight, please don’t let it be tonight” “i remember when you used to smell like this” “ronan had loved richard c. gansey iii far more than he loved himself at that point” [the only time ronan cried in all 4 books is when he thought gansey had died] “it was his smile that buried ronan” “i’ll be sitting right here, waiting to go where you tell me” “i’ve dreamt him a box of epipens. i dream cures for stings all the time. i carry one. i put them in the pig. i have them all over monmouth.” “why do you drive out here to dream? / sometimes i dream of wasps.” “this would hurt him more than that” “it was on its knees in the rye grass and the creeper, and he saved it” “the pain in ronan’s voice meant he couldn’t have any in his” “tell me i’m doing the right thing with ronan. tell me i’m not ruining him” “you promised me / i know what i did”
