#masako
2020 is proven to be a weird year for me, although during January I said to myself to embrace this year as it is an even year – twenty twenty, my preference on odd year is low. I celebrated my brother’s birthday too at Angke after I got back from visiting physical inventory observations in one of the hospitals in Cikarang.
In February, I still managed to celebrate my mom’s birthday and had a lunch at Plaza Indonesia and order her the money bouquet. Haha, you know how our parents always told us that bought a fresh flowers is a waste of money. So I bough her few roses with money in it and made it as bouquet.
Soon after that, March comes up. Still busy with peak seasons (Remember my careers – as auditors) – I still visit some of my clients and then I had a strangest feeling as I want to have lunch with Ci Mel and ignore my lunchbox on that Friday in mid March and soon after that there is an email to have mandatory work from home to minimize impact of Coronavirus spread in Jakarta.
Usually, I find solace or comfort by going somewhere far away in order to get away from the people I see all the time. It gives me a lift up, shifting my mind in the hope to get my mind refresh. My destination if there is no COVID-19 would be Japan as it is just in time for Tokyo Olympics 2020. That, sadly, did not occur this year. Turns out - 2020 filled with despair, sadness, unfulfilled long waited vacations. But, unexpectedly, I feel like this is the first year I am embracing my self, yeah my self – I can write another post about that.
“We, who grow up by escaping to the comfort of our television programs and movies, consider the performer we watched and the character they played as member of our extended families.”
Other than my families, my two favorite cousins, I feel like I am closer to some of my favorite character from my favorite movies. I know them better than some of my colleague at work.
In January 2020, I read news about the helicopter crash resulted the death of Kobe Bryant and his daughters. It’s a sad start and up to August, according to US Magazine, there were 151 celebrities who died in 2020. Among them were my ‘extended families’– Naya Rivera and Ian Holm. Recently passed away, Chadwick Boseman made the list longer. Other than that, when I open IMDB or scroll my Instagram feeds from VarietyorThe Academy when the screen black or suddenly posting past photos, I had a bad feeling prior to reading the captions for the passing of Ennio Morricone, Irrfan Khan, Jerry Stiller, Haruma Miura, Kelly Preston.
The resignation of Japan’s Prime Minister last Friday also another shock yet sad news. I often see Abe-sama and Akie-sama – during his visit to Indonesia, G20 Summit in Osaka and the enthronement of Emperor Naruhito and Empress Masako. Resignation – this words become a trend in my kaisha.It started in early March my core team members resigned, continue with the other two team members. Hard blow is – my only friends since I entered my kaisha also resign along with another one. I feel sad, lonely - I know she’s still there when I contact her, but it feels different and something feel out of pictures.
People come and go – according to the time set by the universe. This post is an expression of longing of human connections and interactions. I hope for better conditions …. soon.
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