#maxismatch mostly
wow owwowowowo has it been a looong fucking few months…& I say few, but after checking my last post, it’s actually been F I V E months since my lil tragedy and let.me.fuckin.tell.you…. it’s been a RIDEbro
I know no one remembers me / no one cares / & maybe even no one gets on here anymore (I hope not tho at least; I’m kinda diggin what little I have seen on my dash tho), but TW: pregnancy loss. Sothathappened,
then my boyfriend broke up with me & kicked me out the house.
So I had to move back to where I’m from and I am still teeechnnniiiically homeless (I kindve do have a place to stay, but there’s no place to sleep AT the place. it’s also a very discostin place. like… there’s a room just for the t h r e e cat’s litterboxes disgusting. with carpet. the cats don’t all get along with each other so there’s a lot of territorial things happening & one of them just… has no home training and is wild & the last will NOT go in the box if it’s even just a lil dirty, so he goes all.over.they all do actually. and the person i’m living with doesn’t clean it every single chance they need to/should. it’s also very messy with junk. there’s just shit (ha ha not actual shit but also? yes actual shit too:/ ) everywhere; 3.5 out of 5 hoarding skill. of just….random-ass-stuff-all-over. so that’shappening….
i did find a job, and i’ve been at it for roughly a month, but we’ve only been open open (since after Hurricane Ida) for almost 2weeks & everypenny i’ve made since then (i’m a server) has gone to people who I owe for getting me through the timespan of when I just moved back here + had nothing to my name. the people that fed me and made sure i had enough money for literal necessities as a woman.so i haven’t yet been able to put anything aside and it’s just all v stressful BUT(..!)All this to say:
I just randomly (I say “random”, but was watching a Vixella stweam + it made me wanna play TS4 and get back on here and DL cc and organize my mods folder and basically just go back to the time just 3 mos ago when I wasn’t homeless, still had my relationship, didn’t have to work and honestly… had the life I wanted. So. but. I hope all of you have been well all this time (speaking to myself cause I know daMN well no one will read this bullchit LOL), and if you did read this GOD I hope you are exCEPTIONAL n happy n healthy and have everything you could ever want and need out of this life already. I’m going lurk Tumblr for 5 hours straight to try& remember everything my smol, dumb brain forgot about and all my faves and all the new and fresh and exciting cc and wow? iS this ACtual exCITEMENT I FEEL???? That isn’t accompanied by the weight of the world in stress? (my brain is always v conflicting & contradicting; I’ma gemini whatcannIsay) I hope this feeling lasts at least a littlewhile. I love you all. ♡
