#meme tell the truth

Tell the Truth || Accepting 

@bishonenprince​ asked:

❓+ “When you left my heart…were you happy to finally be free? I always figured you thought of it as some kind of prison after a while–”

_{“This isn’t a fair question.”  He sounds as his lips pull out into a line and blue eyes drop their gaze. It’s a hard statement to respond with but it’s the truth. The blonde’s shoulders are slumping as he lets himself sink to the ground. Setting so his arms can hang lazily over his lap.  There’s a deep sigh and he doesn’t know how to explain it because no matter what he says he’s going to hurt the one in front of him. It doesn’t matter how he explains how he feels, no matter what he says it’s going to hurt…. and right now the only thing he can give him is the truth.}  

_{Anything less would be pure disrespect.} 

_{Ventus sighs and his lips finally part.} 

_“No.”  

_{It’s plain answer for a loaded question.  The phrasing is all wrong. The word choice is off balanced and it’s all sat up in a way to trigger a land mine. Was he happywhen he finally left to be free? It’s such a loaded - guilt inducing way of saying it.  Sora doesn’t know what’s happened in his life. Not a blink of it but he knows a whole decade of what’s happened in Sora’s.}  

_{This question is such bullshit.} 

_{It’s just here to tear his heart from his chest and make him feel guilty for leaving the brunette “alone” when that wasn’t what he was doing. It wasn’t like he had a choice. He neverhas a choice. He’s always getting used or tricked or betrayed or someone else has plans for him that he ends up having next to no say in.}  

_{“No I was not happyto finally be freeas you call it. I never once thought of your heart as a prisonSora, don’t imply that I did. This question is loadedandyou know it. When I left your heart the only thing I saw before me was Vanitas ready to kill Aqua so I tore through and didn’t think. I acted on gut instinct to protect and nothing else.} 

_{But once I had some time to think about it? Once I had some time to realize what was going on and that all’a this was real?I guess I just - I have them back now but it feels so hollow. I’m here and I’m alive but I wasn’t supposed to be. I know what I did and they know what I asked but no one talks about it. I can see it in their eyes though. I can see the way Terra and Aqua look at me and they hover because they think I’m unstable. They think I’d do it again and honestly they’re right, I would.  If it ever comes down to me or them again I’ll choose them every single time.} 

_{You’re part of them, Sora. When I say “them” I mean you too. Every. Single. Time.} 

_{Time has had all the time it needed to set in. I’m here. I’m alive. I lived. I lived when I had no intention of doing so. It’s all different. It’s all strained now.  Everyone changed. Even you. Everything changed over and over and I didn’t.  I’m stuck. I’m stuck in a time loop and I keep living when I’m not supposed to. What’s so important that the universe wants me here?}

 _{I don’t fuckingknow. Wish I did though.”}