I’m not asking for pity, I’m asking for someone to listen. I NEED WORK. I’m 17 years old and I do commissions. At this point I’ll try to draw just about anything if it means escaping this god forsaken house.
When I was younger I never quite understood the truly cruel nature of verbal abuse and how much it affected people until it happened to me. When you live in a household where you do not feel loved, you hurt. You feel useless because your own parent tells you so. You’re reminded every day about how you weren’t wanted and that you were just a byproduct of sex. You feel like a bastard, you are called a bastard, and every day you’re not belittled just for existing, you’re preparing for the next shit storm.
I’m so tired of living here. For those of you who don’t understand the extent this goes to and the severity of the matter, allow me to explain.
The Effects of Verbal Abuse 1. Low Self Esteem. I feel like garbage for every day that I’m home. I’m called a “fucker”, “bitch”, “wretch”, “bastard”, and frequently, everyone in my family are “assholes” just for being there.
2. Powerlessness Do you know how much it hurts to watch your younger siblings being told it would be better had they not been born and when you say something about it, your own mother tells you to “fuck off”?
3. Feelings of Damnation My mother rants about “family curses” and how most of us will turn out to be sluts, child molesters, or how we’ll be fucked up in the head to the point we’ll be locked away in some mental institution.
4. Impending Uncertainty Abuse comes in a cycle. They abuser hurts you, they feel guilty, they try to fix what they did wrong so you feel okay, and then they hurt you again. I never know when my mother will blow up. It could be because a fucking throw pillow was on the floor that she tells everyone what worthless pieces of shit they are.
5. Exposure to Insensitivity My mother tells my stepfather quite frequently how she can’t wait to get her college degree so she can leave his ass. She openly admits to using him for his money and how he’s just a penis to her. He follows her anyway because she’ll kiss the wounds she gives him and he believes that she cares.
6. Pitting Family Against Themselves There is no praise in this household. You are never appreciated for being yourself, so everyone competes for the love they don’t have. Just today my youngest brother, only 10 years old, was ready to tell on his other brother Caleb for the sake of nothing more than praise. Even though both him and Caleb shared the opinion of not liking our mother, he was ready to tell on him for it. When I told him not to and that it would only escalate things, he turned to me and said “But mom’s being nice to me.” My own Stepfather falls prey to the same thing. He loves us and he pities us for what we hurt for, but like a sheep, he can only follow what our mother says is right. He has to blindly agree with her or he knows his life will be made a living hell. —-
I do not feel safe in this house. I wanted to earn enough money to make it on my own when I turn 18 this December. I can’t stand it here anymore. Every Saturday is cleaning day, and that’s not so bad. I don’t mind chores. The problem is when you can’t do them and are yelled at them for it.
We’re expected to perform tasks we weren’t taught to do and she gets frustrated at us for not knowing. She yells at us that she’s just the pussy of the house and so she’s expected to do everything just because she “shit us out of her vagina”. The deal is, she only has to ask us once to clean. We will actually perform the task. Every one of us has proven ourselves capable but she tells we’re not anyway and does everything within her power to show to us that “we can’t”. Before we can even start scrubbing the bathtub, she calls us assholes and takes over to do it for herself, telling is we won’t do it the right way anyway.
How can we do it the right way if she doesn’t give us room to learn! We never see the chance to prove ourselves because she takes it away from us before we can even start.
“I’m gonna hit everybody so goddamn hard because you all just need to shut the fuck up.” She said this just now as I was typing. I’m very tired.
When I go to school I want to throw myself down the stair because I can’t handle the thought of going back home into a house so hateful, to a person who could care less if I lived or died.
I came out to my family as lesbian last year and my mother’s immediate response was to tell me I was going to hell and that all I wanted to do was lick pussy. She continues to tell me how I’ve damned her to hell because she couldn’t raise me to be a proper Christian. My sister opened up to being Aiethiest and so our mother told us that if she ever finds herself attracted to animals, she can just go ahead and fucking shoot her.
Our biological father was sent to prison for molesting both my sister and myself, yet my mother constantly threatens to give us back to him when he gets out of prison this February.
PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE BUY MY ART. My mother won’t let me have a real job because she’s paranoid I’ll tell on her to people at work. She even harasses myself and my siblings for information on what we tell our family councilor when she’s not around.
My only hope of escape at this point is to save enough money to make it out of here as soon as possible. The account is a joint account so I’ll withdraw as much as I can to keep a physical stash somewhere, ANYWHERE. I just can’t be here anymore. I’m close to breaking down into tears every time she even looks at me.
I need to set a successful example for my siblings. They’re hurting for this and no one can fix it. If I get a place of my own then at least they can visit me and escape for a while. I believe in myself. I know I can do this if you give me the chance.
MY COMMISSIONS ARE CHEAP AND I WILL WORK QUICKLY AND WITH MAXIMUM EFFORT. Please. I’m losing hope and this is all I have left to hold onto. All I hear in this house is yelling and crying anymore and I have no escape. Give me a chance to make my own.
A preview. My art has since improved and obviously the “Won’t Draw” stipulations have changed. Please. I’m desperate. My brother is crying and I can’t help him.
IF YOU CAN’T BUY SOMETHING, THEN REBLOG! IT WOULD MEAN A LOT TO ME.
How does this work? Pretty simple; you reblog this meme and have people suggest two characters – one of yours and one of theirs – and draw them pitted against each other in cool fighter-like poses, just like in a fighting game pre-battle screen!
When suggesting characters, be sure you say “Vs Pose - [character a] and [character b]” for the prompt you send into someone’s inbox, with characters’ names filling the ‘a’ and ‘b’ spots! Like this:
“Vs Pose - Alex and Blair”
I’ve provided templates if you feel like using what I’ve made as is, with the VS, BG and Player texts all separated so you can use/adjust them as you please!
Hope that explains it, and I hope you guys have fun!
Sorry for my english but I want to draw something like this a while ago….some ‘popular’ artist are really mean or doen’t appreciate fan-art’s and such This is not going on the way like ‘they doesn’t want to do an art trade with me’ this is more than that….I had talked to a lot of popular artist and half of them doesn’t even respond and I’m patince…really patience…I try to make new friends with some popular artist but its like they think I want them to draw for me or something….when all I want is their friendship nothing more….I just wanna know them better…I got afraid of talking to other artist because of it. and then we have some artist with a big ego, that they think becuse they are popular they are better than us…I got a lot of message on my @infectionstale Tumblr saying that they love how I treat them…that I treat them like another human been no less than me…
I just wanna say this that…you’re not better than me and I’m not better than you….we are all in the same level… thanks for reading -Att Unkown Artist
Sad but true~
I promise to my followers I’ll NEVER be like this!
Don’t ever do that to an artist ! Never !
This is fucking Instagram followers. I am willing to do an art trade with anyone I don’t care about your skills, if you give me your best and true effort at it I’ll love it
Aye guys happy Halloween! Best time of the year, waiting all year! And especially the first Halloween season and Inktober on tumblr! Due to working Oct 1st, 2 Inktober entries will be done tomorrow! Inktober entries will be posted on my art blog: @kirikizanmuse Feel absolutely free to suggest me stuff, EVEN! Taking REQUESTS for Inktober! -Submit/repost your character ref and you might even get to see your muse as an Inktober entry!
– I am also taking costume suggestions for the children! Submit those as asks please. 5 costume suggestions for: *Mavi (shiny curly haired Kirlia) *Tarron (pawmander!feisty new child ) *Elijah, “Eli” (pipsqueak pawniard, and youngest.) *Akemi (shiny completely blue zorua, youngest twin) *Jamie! (Oldest twin, normal zorua, red patches on body)
