#new opporunity

I’ve been unhappy in my job for a while. In my best moments I have gratitude for my job, I TRY to be grateful that I’m employed and stay present while I am at work, but there are particulars that make me feel undervalued, though I have more to offer. I’ve been practicing acceptance, my daily reprieve is to turn it over and know that better things lie ahead, but it’s so hard sometimes. I get frustrated and I get sad (so sad). But the thing is, I don’t love being sad anymore, it’s not romantic and it’s not comfortable. When I’m sad, I work even harder to get out of the sadness because I know there’s a lightness on the other side. I walked through a lot of fear recently on the way of the Blues and went on an interview, I put myself out there and the doubts and the insecurities were rampant in my mind. I’m so thrilled to say I got the job! I will be making a big life change, not dramatically (although that’s definitely my impulse - cue Jerry Maguire exit). I’m stepping cautiously into this next chapter - it’s strange to be an adult and make mature considerations for my future (health insurance? setting aside money for taxes?). It’s new, but I’m ready for it. Scared, yes, but ready. Because of sobriety, I know I’m going to be okay.