#obsessive love confession
oh it’s this excruciatinglybeautiful feeling of love again.
It has been a while since I’ve felt this lovelyfeeling.
it’s like your heart is concentrated in sin
that feels so good youcould smell your brain frying.
wesimply cannot help but laugh and play along
unsure of the risks of the game’s reward
whether it ends in mutilation, or a happy song
we’ll gladly take the punishment or award.
…as long as the feeling of lufemania continues with you by my side.
when you self hxrmed for the first time in a year because the man you’re supposed to love hates you and you want him to just fucking forgive you already
do you ever just say: “hmm I’m bored and cant sleep… lemme go read old text messages between me and my lover” because me too
you’re not allowed to have friends, my love…
ok this is a toxic trait I have and I thought it went away, but I guess it’s still here and I’m working on it. whenever I hear my love talk about his friends, I get jealous and somewhat angry. I just wish he’d only spend time with me. my love is going to spend time with a friend today instead of me and my mind just went to a dark place of ki11ing this guy. I know it’s not healthy and I’m working on it. I mean I’m glad he has GOOD people that are there for him other than me but at the same time I wish it was only me.
update: ok so basically I’m insecure. I just realized this is because with the first man I ever loved, he got new friends and they ultimately made him stop talking to me. so subconsciously I must be afraid of it happening again.
(obsessive love confession ?40?)
yandere life while I’ve been gone:
- I’ve (re) discovered that I’m trans
- My body count (not talking about mrder lol) tripled
- I got obsessed with a few different guys
- I almost ki11ed myself a few times
- I’m currently with a guy I was obsessed with two years ago :)
tell me what youd like to hear about, even if it’s not on the list! leave comments, submit asks, I miss you guys
