#oh i am so ruined for him

Ze Shou’s agony, wandering the city alone and still in love and remembering what it felt like to be loved back and what it felt like to know he wouldn’t be alone and then seeing the man who promised to love him embracing a shared friend and leaving him… it’s the agony of someone who knows that he had everything in the world and he just lost it, he just lost his everything and he doesn’t know how to keep going without it.

And then Nikita yells at him? Nikita tells him he has no right to love Li Going even though Li Gong is the one that broke up with Ze Shou is the one who would have stayed through anything and begged him to stay?

That’s a breaking moment, right there. To have her tell him that he’s the one doing this to Li Gong?

Honestly.

Ze Shou deserves better.