I can feel my heart pumping blood through my body like a well oiled machine. But machines can break. Machines can fail.
Hopefully, I don’t fail today. Yes, today’s the day that I break other machines, not break myself.
I don’t understand why I’m so scared. I’m hidden, as are my crew. The enemies can’t see us unless we strike first. We can’t die, not for a while. Come on, man, deep breaths. You don’t want your crew to think you’re scared.
It’s no point hiding it. We’re all scared. Everything’s come to this. It’s us or them.
OKAY HI, THOUGHTS @adambirkholtz had an excellent post about symbolism and the number that Bitty wears in his flashback and it got me thinking about Bitty’s football position and i went off in the tags (soz about that em) but here’s a post ab it, idk if anyone else has ever said anything about this but here’s what i remembered about that update
so i don’t know a wholelot about football, it is neither my primary nor my secondary nor my tertiary sport, but i know enough that this is something i just realized.
So Bitty wears no. 15 in the flashback in Checkand yeah it’s a concussion induced flashback so maybe he’s just wearing no. 15 because that’s his number, but I also think it means something
(also sidenote he’s adorable)
and in football you only kind of get to choose your numbers, basically your number correlates to your position and there’s a range you can pick from/be assigned. All that’s important to know here is that quarterbacks wear numbers from 0-19.
So, Bitty was a quarterback. and here’s the thing about a quarterback. Traditionally it is the safest and most secure position in football. If your teammates are playing the game right, no one should ever lay a hand on you unless it’s part of the play. You should still be able to hold your own, but you’re protected. As a quarterback, your job is to call signals and communicate with your team and guide the play. Quarterback canbe small, especially in youth sports because what’s really important is your ability to throw the ball and understand plays.
So all that being said
This
should almost neverhappen.
There are specific members of a football team whose entire job it is to protect the quarterback and for this to have happened, they were either really bad, orthey intentionally let Bitty get hurt.
I don’t think Bitty’s fear of physicality came from simply playing football, it came from being on a team where no one had his back even though positionally, they were absolutely supposed to. It’s not that he’s just afraid of getting hurt or getting hit, he’s afraid of being abandoned and alone and left to fend for himself while he’s playing a team sport.
It makes SMH’s unofficial motto of “got your back” mean just a little bit more
