ok yeah another thing i noticed about how gerard feels so much more comfortable on stage and how they’ve grown into themselves is the way that they’re growing into moving around and how they express themselves with the music. looking at old performances especially during danger days and the black parade it all feels a lot more calculated and carefully restrained? like obviously you have moments of Insanity but it’s all very ‘expected’ and it’s kept within a specific range of movement. when you look at them now it feels a lot more like unmasking and moving around completely how they want to and how their body feels is appropriate rather than just paying attention to the audience or what’s within a certain range of acceptable. and that’s not even directly calling it Stimming but i just
gerard just looks so much more in tune with how they WANT to move to the music and. im emotional.
#they really refuse to put on a mask anymore and it feels really really deliberate that they’re doing that
correct me if i’m wrong but they haven’t said shit about when how or why they got back together. no interviews, no explanatory posts, nothing to help us rationalize why they returned after a decade. almost as if they’ve been saving that story for something
thinking about summertime. idk i know it’s lynz song but i’m thinking about how it’s becoming such a reoccurring item on their setlist and how much they’ve already developed how much they care for each other and how we see their found family. “turn my headphones up real loud. i don’t think i need them now. cause you stop the noise” the happiness that they’ve experienced just in these past four shows and the happiness that they feel against how gerard said how bad it got during quarantine. how bad it was when they had broken up. “if you stay, i would even wait all night. or until my heart explodes.” “until we find our way in the dark and out of harm. you can run away with me anytime you want.” the way that they had waited for each other and waited and waited until everything around them literally crushed them and even after the wreckage. how mcr is always what they can come back to. they can come back to each other because they are fucking family. they love each other so much and i’m never going to be normal again.
the way gerard talked about laura jane grace during the hesitant tour that one time was so healing idk. hearing them speak about dysphoria and transness with identification but reverence most of all was like an emotional salve.
i’m never gonna genuinely try and label them as anything they haven’t said - i even say nonbinary with a grain of salt since all we know are their pronouns and not their identity - but hearing a celebrity we’ve grown up with get onstage and speak about their intimate struggle with gender and how learning about dysphoria helped heal them and how much they identify with transfems directly into a mic to a venue with thousands of people really shifted the axis for me. it doesn’t matter what they identify as, and we are not at liberty to know unless they choose to tell us, but seeing someone like that say ‘not only do i support you, but i understand you. i am in your corner’ means more than i can explain
gerard’s audience being trans kids largely inspired to explore their gender BY gerard himself and his fluid presentation throughout mcr getting to see gerard get onstage and say ‘i love you and i love the journey you’re taking. i feel what you feel’. like
frank and gerard heading into old navy like let’s get some cute rain jackets for the chilly weather haha! then mr michael romance walks out of balenciaga in a knee length mall goth slut coat. who is doing it like him
sorry the way every time they hug onstage it’s a genuine real embrace. no arm clapping or weird man hugging like they cradle one anothers’ heads and hang on to their arms and smile the fuckin house down
