#ranting and ranting

Heya there, people who cares about me! Writing this post to say that I decided to make my fic works private as I’ll soon remove them from this blog to hoist them on a side one which is still under heavy construction. Tbh, I wasn’t getting much interaction on them here because they seem to get lost somewhere in between all the other things I post I know I don’t write this much good *laughs in self-criticism* but still…
Being a full-time student in a demanding college and having a mother who likes to see her kids in bed by 10— I hardly get any time to work on real things that I enjoy (which is writing). I want to write. Not because I’ve something to prove or I want to brag my work list to the world but just… as an outlet. You see?

Every week I begin to pick new insecurities. I easily become ashamed of everything I do whether it’s real life related or on internet. It’s hard. In my head, it’s very hard. I’ve been writing a good deal of excerpts since 9th grade but I’ve never put them forth before anyone. Posted two or three of flop fics here and there until this urge to write grew highly menacing and I begin to get more serious about it. I made an account on tumblr years ago but never had the strength to post anything. Now when I’ve become a tab bit comfortable in my skin (thanks to tokyorev. this manga is really special to me) I started to think it all over again ^~^
Because, you know, creativity is the cure of this chronic sadness which we call melancholy
Thank you for sticking this long and hearing me rant. Hope you’ll have a beautiful week and then month and then year and oh my, then the whole life! 

Here, a rose for you:

P.S. will remove this post as a pinned one when my side-blog will become functional and will put a new one in its place. 

╰─➛✎ᝰ theme is still going to be grey because this colorrepresents me so well