#renegade
“He’s…laughing at one of my jokes. This is it. He’s finally snapped.”
Dick and Red X!Jason from my most recent Bad Company chapter. :)
Literally no one:
Me laying in bed thinking:
“I WONDER IF TAYLOR AND JUSTIN HAVE MET YET”
Is it insensitive for me to say get your shit together so I can love you?
Is it really your anxiety that stops you from giving me everything or do you just not want to?
Isn’t he a cutie? Wolf Chanyeol❤ This is what I imagine him to be like~
First of all, know that I am writing my ass off to bring you part four ASAP. I have just miscalculated the length of this chapter lol. It’s going to be long.
You have to know that I am someone very, very, stubborn and that I plan ahead where my chapters have to end. I don’t publish looking at the word count. I publish when I have written everything that has to happen in that part. No matter if that’s a 4.000 word count or 10.000. (My personal record: somewhere between 9.500 and 9.600)
All of my chapters have a checklist of things that have to happen in that chapter. When I’m writing, all I’m doing is ticking those boxes basically. Then it also happens that checklist grows while I’m laying in my bed, randomly thinking about the story… This also happened to this part..
Most ‘checkboxes’ of things I have to do, have their own ‘segment’. In the parts I usually publish, there are three or four segments. This chapter has *calculates* Six? I think?
Maybe a good thing for those waiting for an update, because this part is very hard to swallow. The story is finally getting shape -if you thought we were there, no, we weren’t-, and I imagine it may provide more questions than answers. “What the hell is going on?!”
So bear with me. Know that I am spending all of my time on this chapter. Yesterday I even pulled an all-nighter, writing. Tonight I’m going to sleep. As many of you may have noticed, I raise a high bar for my writing so writing a thousand words can take me… depending on the piece… four to eight hours.
I’m putting my personal deadline on tomorrow but I know I’m not going to make that, it’s just to motivate myself. Two to three days would be more realistic, unless my braincells start coming up with new ideas… I think I’m going to cry then. *never-ending chapter*
Love you all!
Did I say my smut part was going to be short?Well shit.
IS IT INSENSITIVE FOR ME TO SAY GET YOUR SHIT TOGETHER SO I CAN LOVE YOU IS IT REALLY YOUR ANXIETY THAT STOPS YOU FROM GIVING ME EVERYTHING OR DO YOU JUST NOT…want to?
Is it really your anxiety that stops you from givin’ me everything? Or do you just not want to?