#reverse culture shock

The tickets have been purchased and I am finally going home. I have been waiting for this day for a while now. I have even been dreaming about this day but now that it has come.. I am nervous . I’m nervous the world was spinning too fast while I was gone. I’m nervous people won’t be as excited to see them as I am to see them. I’m nervous I changed to much. In nervous I didn’t change at all. I’m nervous that nothing will feel like home. I’m nervous I won’t be able to answer people’s questions about my experience

Reverse culture shock sucks. I honestly think it is worse than plain old culture shock because it turns the place, that you used to know as home, into this uncomfortable place you now have to get used to. It hits you in the weirdest places. When I returned from my study abroad experience in college I had a moment where I was just casually having a glass of wine with some friends and I started crying! I have no idea what will affect me the most when I get home. Finally having a plethora of people I can communicate with? Being able to read a menu? Will it be hard for me to get used to what I once considered normal?

I can tell you this, I will miss people calling me beautiful every day and students saying hi to me all day every day. And of course I’ll miss my new friends. I am a grateful that for all that Hegang has taught me and given me. I will never forget this place and hope that it has only made me a stronger person.

and have been for about a week. I’m finally starting to get settled down and have quite a few posts to make about my last week in Japan. I’ll be trying to get to this in the next couple weeks. I’m also going to probably get some sort of long term reflection up as well and maybe plans for the future. Please look forward to these posts~!