What tf did John’s Letter Say

So like,, when Molly gave Sherlock the letter she says the following:

Then after, she says that John says that if Sherlock were to come around…

Interesting choice of words, amiright? It would make more sense if she said maybe “he’d rather see anyone but you” or “he’d rather want help from anyone but you” but the word ‘have’ made me think of this

In TEH John says ‘have’ to Mary meaning haveas her husband

So what if he means ‘have’ in the same sense to Sherlock, even if it’s that he wouldn’t have him

I’m thinking John’s letter might say something about him confessing his feelings for Sherlock, but that after Mary died, “he’d rather have anyone but him”

Just a thought.. I might be wrong but you never know, you know how Mofftiss loves their subtextual word choice, so