#the person you pass it onto might not

I don’t know how to explain to people that COVID-19 impacts people differently. I know people who have died, I know people who have ongoing chronic illness from it (including probably me). I know people who have OTHERS in their circle they would be horrified to pass it onto.

I get the instinct to “get back to normal”, I DO. I want so desperately to lose myself in socialising again because I’m in a really low point in my life and social distraction is honestly one of the only things getting me through.

But I can’t do it to the detriment of those around me. I can’t leave the house knowing I’ve been exposed DIRECTLY to someone I LIVE WITH who has covid.

And to have others try to convince myself and the infected person I live with to come out anyway is honestly fucking gutting.

I don’t know how to explain to them that I’ve been so sick in the past that I couldn’t function. That I couldn’t walk. That I couldn’t work. That I wouldn’t wish that on ANYONE.

I’ve been in iso for 5 days. According to government guidelines, as a close contact, I don’t even NEED TO BE as of the 28th of April.

FUCK THAT.

What if I give it to someone else? What if they don’t have the (relatively) mild circumstances I had? What are if I kill someone???

Why the fuck are we okay with letting our most vulnerable die????