if you run up behind me while I’m working and hold a flash drive to my throat pretending it’s a knife and I instinctively seize your hand and bite you I don’t think you are allowed to be mad
I don’t know how to explain to people that COVID-19 impacts people differently. I know people who have died, I know people who have ongoing chronic illness from it (including probably me). I know people who have OTHERS in their circle they would be horrified to pass it onto.
I get the instinct to “get back to normal”, I DO. I want so desperately to lose myself in socialising again because I’m in a really low point in my life and social distraction is honestly one of the only things getting me through.
But I can’t do it to the detriment of those around me. I can’t leave the house knowing I’ve been exposed DIRECTLY to someone I LIVE WITH who has covid.
And to have others try to convince myself and the infected person I live with to come out anyway is honestly fucking gutting.
I don’t know how to explain to them that I’ve been so sick in the past that I couldn’t function. That I couldn’t walk. That I couldn’t work. That I wouldn’t wish that on ANYONE.
I’ve been in iso for 5 days. According to government guidelines, as a close contact, I don’t even NEED TO BE as of the 28th of April.
FUCK THAT.
What if I give it to someone else? What if they don’t have the (relatively) mild circumstances I had? What are if I kill someone???
Why the fuck are we okay with letting our most vulnerable die????
Why I’m a Proud Quitter of Camp Nano (Writing Update)
☀ INTRODUCTION ☀
Here’s my first writing update in a while, because I thought I would finish the month. I didn’t finish, but I actually feel glad that I did.
☀ STATISTICS ☀
Projects I’ve worked on: The order of the Key, worldbuilding for The Order Trilogy
Proudest Accomplishment: Quitting Nanowrimo!
☀ COMMENTS ☀
I quit Nano for the sake of my WIP. I found I was rushing my goal just to fit a word count, and I wanted my editing to be detailed. I decided it wasn’t ready to edit yet, and I’ve focused on other writing. I’m doing an off-books, Camp Nano, which is where I just work on whatever I want without recording it.
I’m doing more worldbuilding for The Order of the Key because I wanted the world to be super detailed and be lush. I kind of wrote the first draft with barely any worldbuilding, so I’m trying to fill in the gaps.
I posted a fanfic online, which I’m super proud of. I’ve been wanting to work on more fanfic for a while and I’m glad it’s doing well and people and enjoying it.
I’m also working on more articles and content writing, which is also doing well online.
For Camp Nano July, I’ll probably work on my screenplay more and plan it.
☀ GOALS ☀
I actually have no goals. I just wanna vibe and worldbuild.
GENERAL TAGLIST (ask to be +/-; I’m just tagging people I’d consider to be mutuals of some sort)
“what do we do about people who fake disabilities to get ssi” we throw them a fucking party for pulling off the most difficult and unrewarding grift of all time. literally i don’t care
