#these are all v short solos im gross

            ◆     ‘ THE PRODUCERS ’ WRAP PARTY    ━     럭스 !   ∙

theproducers has come to an end. 

with the show playing in the background, naeun is finally given a taste of what months of filming has brought to fruition. having spent most of the airing avoiding watching her own work out of embarrassment, she’s faced with the flaws in her work despite the praise the director have showered upon her at the time.

she notices the stiffness in her acting for what it is for – growth for the next time.

huh, the next time? that had been a weird thought – after all, hadn’t naeun initially believed this would be a one and done opportunity? hadn’t she bargained with her manager that she hoped to receive more vocal challenging opportunities from now on? 

the thought plagues her as she thanks one of the staff for another helping of meat placed onto her plate. was this something she wanted to continue doing? while neither the place nor time to be contemplating life decisions, the atmosphere does have her in a weirdly pensive mood. while she hadn’t absolutely abhorred the filming schedule, nor the mood of which the staff had placed their filming site, naeun had never really found herself accustomed to the idea of becoming an actress while working as an idol.

thelong hours, themselves, were outlandish and by morning the dark circles had made her skin routine cry a river. ( but eventually, she had worked through it )

like all things, they had took time for her to get used to – but by the end, she realizes: it was an opportunity that she was glad to have taken. ( while it wasn’t the opportunity, it was still a nice change of pace and hadn’t she always been attracted to that chance in consistency? a jumpstart of adrenaline – where she wasn’t sure where life would take her? maybe that was why she needed this role ) and a part of her would missit. 

the question of whether she would do it again was still up in the air but for now – naeun was thoughtful for the future. if she was granted a chance again, perhaps she’d grab it once more.