#this isnt dps related

I close my eyes much like the windows of my bedroom at night
Masking what neighbors might see with my bright screen

I fold the top half of my laptop, not too much, so it stays on
the luminous safety of the artificial world in the rectangular light

I think, for a moment, while my clock mocks me at this hour
who do I stay awake for? to keep my mind preoccupied?

I too, have physiological requirements, like them
yet I treat my sleep deprived hands hovering a cursor

I guess I’m not ready to close the assurance of an occupied thought
One that’s been thought of by someone else for me

I am too afraid to let the quiet nothing be the playground for memories
For incandescent orbs of what-if’s and should-have’s

I want to close my eyes much like the lights I turned off for sleep
But what I fear you all will see, a smaller spotlight on my face

I need to close my eyes

To sleep

To dream

To forget

Before I remember it all again tomorrow.