#tw weight loss
I’m stupidly excited over the meal prep breakfasts that I’ve made and I feel like that bodes well to me actually eating them. I think my lack of eating healthy things might be good because I’m craving things that are healthy. I just really want to eat everything I spent stupid amounts of money on… like yes the none-Food items we’re the bulk of the high costs to my shopping trip but I’m so tired of how wasteful I am. I’m tired of high grocery bills and still feeling like the majority of my meals are eating out. I’m tired of feeling like crap because of grease, sugar, and more grease. I’m just sick of it all.
I’m tired of feeling like crap, constantly gaining weight, and not being able to do things. I want to run a marathon. I want to be able to complete every move in the workout program. I want to take a dance class. I want to go zipling, and hiking, and kayaking, and learn kick boxing.
Really got my shit together in May and the scale is showing it! It’s been a looooooong time since I’ve managed to eat consistently well. It’s not for everyone but tracking food is what works for me, it just makes me a lot more conscious of what I’m eating.
Did an easy 30 minutes on the bike and then worked those legs this morning
For the next two weeks I have to go to the gym every day, likely won’t exercise some days but we’re without a shower so I have to use the one there. Boyfriend will be showering at work but my brother joined the gym for a month. He works evening shifts so I haven’t spoken to him yet but before he left for work last night he said he was going to go after work (10pm!!!) and use the gym a bit then shower. I’m very interested to find out if he did. Hopefully he had a good experience, I know the gym can be super daunting for people and it’s the first time he’s ever been to one.
Tomorrow I’m going for a consultation with my tattoo artist!!!!!! She wants to fit in both the raccoon and squirrel but is going check my arm out, size things up and see if they’ll both fit. We also have to work around the loose skin / stretch marks I have. She said it wasn’t a problem tattooing on it last time she saw me but I think it might have an impact on design / placement. I don’t have that much more weight to lose btw, like 10lbs ish to get back to where I was comfortable so I don’t feel the need to wait until I’ve lost that to get tattooed!
Turns out one of my medications puts me at a greater risk for a specific type of cancer and this was never mentioned. I don’t want to overthink it but I’ve been losing a lot of weight, and like every freaking symptom that is a warning sign for this cancer has popped up fir the past 2 months. It could be other stuff and I’m falsely attributing it to cancer. But if this actually is I don’t know what I’m going to do
