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The full audio here, hosted on SoundCloud.

An erotic short story written and read by My Trousers Rolled

Tumblr’s audio limit stops me uploading the full recording, as it’s over 10mb, and I can’t host both today, as I’m only allowed one a day. So here it all is, with the rest to follow tomorrow. 

In my life, in visual media, I have seen exactly one character who has hair like mine.

Oh, I’ve seen plenty of characters who have the same color, and even some who have the same haircut as I have or have had. But I’ve only ever seen one character who has the same frizzy, “messy in the if I don’t spend an hour blow drying it it’ll do whatever it wants way, not messy in the artfully messy way” hair.

And even then. They changed the character’s hairstyle pretty much as soon as they could. Tamed it down. Made it look “better”. It went from messy, frizzy, flared out just like my hair does to “curly”.

There is such a difference. My hair needs lots and lots and lots of work to be neat. Like I said, I have to spend quite a long time blow drying it if I want it to be neat- and most of the time, I just don’t have time to do that. If it’s dry when I put it up, I need to use gel to get it to stay put or it will just escape. If I don’t have leave in conditioner and anti-frizz gunk (technical term) in my hair, it turns into a mess, even pulled back into a braid or bun.  Little frizzies escape everywhere.

My hair, when it’s long enough, flares out into a triangle shape if I leave it down. it’s certainly long enough now. It doesn’t hang straight, but it’s not curly. It’s more than wavy, but it doesn’t really have defined curls. I mean. Sometimes it does, but more often it’s just a mess of waves. When it’s short, it has to be very short to hide the mess and frizz.

And in my life I have have seen curly haired protagonists, I have seen straight haired protagonists, and I have seen one protagonist who has hair like mine, but only in the first movie. In following movies, they made her hair curly and so much more controllable than mine is. It never again reached the same absolute mess that mine does.

I hated that change. I liked seeing a main character who had hair like mine.

But my hair isn’t “pretty” enough to be on screen.

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