#writing it out and telling people is helping

We took the cat to the emergency vet Sunday night and he didn’t get to come home. 

It feels like a wall came down between Then Us and Now Us. Now we live in a different home, with a different life, and we’ve never had a cat. It’s strange and new and a little sterile sometimes, to be Now Us in our Now House. We love each other so much, and there is so much warmth and tenderness in how we interact with each other. But the house is wrong. We are so right and so loving, but the house is wrong around us. 

I’ve never known a heartbreak like this.