#pet death cw
We took the cat to the emergency vet Sunday night and he didn’t get to come home.
It feels like a wall came down between Then Us and Now Us. Now we live in a different home, with a different life, and we’ve never had a cat. It’s strange and new and a little sterile sometimes, to be Now Us in our Now House. We love each other so much, and there is so much warmth and tenderness in how we interact with each other. But the house is wrong. We are so right and so loving, but the house is wrong around us.
I’ve never known a heartbreak like this.
you may have noticed i haven’t been particularly active and tbh it’s a combination of the finale, what happened after the finale, and my life outside of tumblr. i haven’t really wanted to be here. im not deleting my blog or anything but this is a head’s up that i probably won’t be on here much anymore.
yesterday i had to put my dog to sleep, who i had for 16 years and i feel pretty hollow rn. holly was with me through some of the hardest points in my life and meant so much to me. i lost my last living grandparent about six months ago. i’m not handling everything well and tumblr is the last thing on my mind but i wanted to give a little notice that i’m probably going on a bit of a hiatus. you can feel free to tag me in things and if i happen to pop on i’ll reblog them or when i come back down the line. until then, bye for now.