⇝ childe x gn!reader (can be read as platonic/romantic)
⇝warnings:implied suicidal thoughts, multiple possible impliedmental illnesses.
liyue has never felt so dull.
your legs shift beneath you, the fabric of your clothing catching on the splinters of wood that stick out from the railing. the wind sifts past you then, a cool breeze that makes goosebumps rise on your skin; desperately chasing warmth. it finds none.
the ground is far, perhaps too close. the cracks in the pavement, oh so subtle, scream at you. memories of moments long ago; the fall of a brick, heavy, easily shattering the concrete. shattering itself in the process. you wonder, just briefly, how easy it’d be to tip over the edge, how simple it would be to do the same—how simultaneously excrutiating but painlessit would feel, making contact with the ground.
the breeze picks up, much like a warning. the careful slamof the entrance to northland bank feels like a slap to the face—what time is it? what are you doing here? you need to leave, you need to get away before it’s too late, before—
“what are you doing out here, comrade?”
“looking,” the answer comes too quickly as you wave up at the sky.
childe spares only the smallest of glances towards the view; nothing new, liyue always looks like this so early in the morning. he, however, can focus clearly on the intent behind your words—it’s not unfamiliar, the way your voice rises in pitch. he knows why, hell, he knows all too well. looking,you’d said?he grimaces, looking for? looking at? perhaps you’re not really looking at all.
“hmm.”
you try not to cringe; old habits die hard. childe is as embarrassing as ever.
letter #2 for my700 event to:@x-zho prompt: diluc + “it’s been a while” + angst/comfort notes:i literally made this prompt with diluc in mind LMAO so good for you <3 also i’m always happy to write stuff for you + for diluc!! and i’m v much enjoying your other req. anyways, i hope i did him justice <3 enjoy mwah
dearest,
i sincerely apologize for not contacting you sooner. i’m not sure if i’m even permitted to call you dearest, love, or anything of the sort after such a prolonged and unwarranted absence. it’s been a long four years away from mondstadt, away from you, but i have in no way expected you to anticipate my return.
i left quite… abruptly, four years ago. i did not warn you of my departure, nor did i give you – or myself – the chance for a proper goodbye. i should be back within a month’s time, although there is no definitive date on which i will arrive, as delays due to weather and the collapse of roads are quite common when traveling by foot across teyvat.
i fear i have hurt you deeply with my sudden departure and lack of contact for the past years. it is no excuse, but i hope you will understand that i did not want you to see me in such a state. i believe that, in any case, you will find me to be a very different person from the one you used to know. as such, i don’t expect you to see me, nor are you under any obligation to do so, but i would appreciate it deeply if i might be able to take up a bit of your time, just to see your face again.
i know that a written apology is hardly sufficient for how i left things, and in any case i could beg forgiveness from dusk until dawn and never deserve it.
i’ve missed you more than i could possibly express, and more than you may know. as i find myself growing unbearably weary, i find that i wish to return to mondstadt, and specifically, to your embrace.
i hope this letter finds you in good health, and not wanting for anything. please know that should you ever require my assistance, you need only ask.
with all the love i may be allowed to bestow upon you, yours, diluc ragnvindr
thank you to everyone who’s ever read anything i’ve written here! i’d never thought i’d have a following/interaction of any kind here, and i’m beyond grateful to everyone who has interacted + the wonderful friends i’ve made !! to celebrate all of you, i’ll be doing blog ratesandletters<3i’ll be writing for both bnha and genshin!
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letter #1 for my 700 event to:@naostm prompt: scaramouche + “thinking of you” + enemies to lovers tw: scaramouche is not a nice guy – as expected. death/killing mention. notes: i hope my scaramouche characterization is satisfactory ???? no idea what the hell i’m doin wHOOPS
missed me? thought so. typical.
it’ll be a wonder if this letter finds you in one piece – you’re so weak that i wouldn’t be surprised if someone else had killed you off already. do your best to make sure that doesn’t happen, darling, because i’ll be back soon. i’d apologize for putting a target on your back with what i’ve done to the tsaritsa, but if you can’t handle a little pressure, then you’re clearly just as weak as all the other humans.
you should be grateful i’m sending this letter at all, brat, because that false god is breathing down my fucking neck every second. when i killed some of her soldiers, i took a little something off of one of them. it reminded me of you and your irritating chattering. good riddance. i’ve enclosed the dead vision. it was an electro vision, like yours, before i killed that guard.
you’ll never hope to compare to me in terms of power, but i despise everyone else who dares to wield my element with such inferior technique. instead, i’ve begun collecting every single electro vision i come across — they are rightfully mine, after all. you can have this one, seeing as i have no use for it. you’d do well to remember that your power comes from me and no one else.
prove you’re not so pathetic that you can’t survive without me.
letter #1 for my 700 event to:@naostm prompt: scaramouche + “thinking of you” + enemies to lovers tw: scaramouche is not a nice guy – as expected. death/killing mention. notes: i hope my scaramouche characterization is satisfactory ???? no idea what the hell i’m doin wHOOPS
missed me? thought so. typical.
it’ll be a wonder if this letter finds you in one piece – you’re so weak that i wouldn’t be surprised if someone else had killed you off already. do your best to make sure that doesn’t happen, darling, because i’ll be back soon. i’d apologize for putting a target on your back with what i’ve done to the tsaritsa, but if you can’t handle a little pressure, then you’re clearly just as weak as all the other humans.
you should be grateful i’m sending this letter at all, brat, because that false god is breathing down my fucking neck every second. when i killed some of her soldiers, i took a little something off of one of them. it reminded me of you and your irritating chattering. good riddance. i’ve enclosed the dead vision. it was an electro vision, like yours, before i killed that guard.
you’ll never hope to compare to me in terms of power, but i despise everyone else who dares to wield my element with such inferior technique. instead, i’ve begun collecting every single electro vision i come across — they are rightfully mine, after all. you can have this one, seeing as i have no use for it. you’d do well to remember that your power comes from me and no one else.
prove you’re not so pathetic that you can’t survive without me.
thank you to everyone who’s ever read anything i’ve written here! i’d never thought i’d have a following/interaction of any kind here, and i’m beyond grateful to everyone who has interacted + the wonderful friends i’ve made !! to celebrate all of you, i’ll be doing blog ratesandletters<3i’ll be writing for both bnha and genshin!
blacklisthara.700 <3 if you don’t want to see the event!
thank you to everyone who’s ever read anything i’ve written here! i’d never thought i’d have a following/interaction of any kind here, and i’m beyond grateful to everyone who has interacted + the wonderful friends i’ve made !! to celebrate all of you, i’ll be doing blog ratesandletters<3i’ll be writing for both bnha and genshin!
blacklisthara.700 <3 if you don’t want to see the event!
bc this is a follower celebration event, you must be following @/izukxnnie in order to participate — new followers are always welcome <3 this event will be open from may 9th - may 22nd.
letters — !(4/10 requests)
guidelines
send me a prompt from the list + one character + any additional information (optional).
specify platonic/romantic + genre (optional)
i’ll write a letter from your chosen character <3
example request: ajax + delayed return (+ it’s reader’s birthday)
rules
one letter req per person!
i’ll have 10 slots open, i’ll open more if there’s a lot more requests than anticipated.
for character availability + what i will/won’t write, see my general rules.
prompts
goodbye
it’s been a while
thinking of you
apologies
return home
a day in the life
presence required
from an outside sender
blog rates — !
forfandom-based blog rates, if you’d like me to include the s/o section, send whether you are a minor or an adult + any gender preferences u may have.
normal blog rate
url ♡ not sure i understand? | good | i wish i’d thought of this | how did you get this before everyone else? icon ♡ i have no idea what it is i am so sorry | v cute | aesthetic !! | pls send me the png ty mobile theme ♡default | pretty <3 | i’m a bit envious? | i would steal ideas from u w/ permission desktop theme ♡ same as mobile | pretty <3 | i’m a bit envious? | wishing i had your skills!! posts ♡ n/a (empty) | not familiar with | this is so cool omg! | i’m gonna be here for hours <3
bnha blog rate
role ♡ civilian | student | pro | teacher | villain | vigilante | sidekick | support engineer quirk type ♡ accumulation | transformation | mutant | emitter | quirkless friends ♡ (based on role) s/o ♡ (based on role) aes desc ♡
genshin blog rate
vision ♡ anemo | cryo | dendro | electro | geo | hydro | pyro weapon ♡ bow | catalyst | claymore | polearm | sword team role ♡ dps | sub dps | healer | shielder | crowd control nation ♡ inazuma | liyue | mondstadt friends ♡ (based on nation) s/o ♡ (based on nation) aes desc ♡
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