I haven’t posted anything personal in a while. The truth is that I feel like I’v

I haven’t posted anything personal in a while. The truth is that I feel like I’ve finally started crawling out of a cave of sadness and depression that I’ve been trapped in for months. I’m still not all the way out, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Weekly therapy sessions and new meds have helped me turn a corner. In light of losing @anthonybourdain to suicide today, I decided to post this because I know that dark place that leads you to believe the world is better off without you. I know the place where it feels like it will never get better and that you have nothing more to offer the world. It doesn’t matter how famous, rich, or successful you are. Your brain chemistry creates demons in your mind constantly telling you that you’re not good enough, not worth loving, and not worth living. I have been there. You can’t judge someone until you’ve walked a mile in their shoes. I’ve seen a lot of judgement about some of the recent high profile suicides and you have no way to judge until you’ve battled those same demons in your brain convincing you of your own unworthiness to exist.
Luckily, I reached out for help. Luckily, I have friends and family that made me get the help I needed when they saw me struggling (even though they had no idea how long and hard I’d been struggling for months prior to that.) I went into therapy about 3 months ago and changed my meds recently, and I can say that I’m finally starting to live my life again instead of enduring it.
I looked in the mirror the other day and actually liked the face that I saw staring back at me in stead of judging it. My skin looks better than it has in years (thanks to @corgimouse and her product recommendations), I have some exciting news to share soon, and I’m finally starting to see my worth again. I’m living proof that it can get better, but it is not easy. I know I still have more work ahead of me, but I actually feel strong enough to do that work now.
Take care of yourselves. Take care of your friends and family. Reach out. Tell them you love them and that you care. It will make a difference. #depressionsucks #anxiety #therapy #mentalhealth #depression (at Atlanta, Georgia)