I cry. I cry till my eyes are bone dry, blood stricken. I cry till my feelings pour out of my eyes and I can’t feel anything. I cry till my eyes burn like my soul rotting in hell. I cry till my eyes hurt like someone has poured acid in them. I cry until I reach my maximum, I can’t cry anymore and then I just sit in my chair staring into a parallel world, scratching my arm hard, not wanting to live but wanting to die
when you really want to kill yourself but you just can’t
I have to do something, i can’t go on this way. I’m ruining everything. But i can’t, it’s too much. i tried too hard. I don’t even know who i am anymore. I don’t have motivation for anything, i’m so done. I’m sick of being done. i want help but nothing can help me. this is not who i want to be. It’s not fair. I’m a failure.
