#500daysofparalysis

day 500 : in recovery - kinda sucks that this one hurts worse than leftie’s surgery.
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ethel (rightie) has been falling behind lately in that i can feel the stark difference between lucy’s (leftie’s) almost full sensation, and sometimes hypersensitivity, yet my entire r knee joint feels like it doesn’t exist in space and time, and the front of my shin is mostly numb to temperature and light touch.
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going into this surgery i figured more nerve pain and such would be involved in this one. i’m at least grateful for the nerve pain since that means things are damaged, but still firing, right?
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so currently feeling like my knee and incisions are balls of fire, and the nerve pain has been onnnnn itttttt since i woke up from anasthesia yesterday morning.
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as always, medication makes me loopy af, so not fully with it, which is cool. gives me a tiny shelter from the cloud of depression for a bit. #endthestigma #mentalhealthrecovery
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it has been 500 days of paralysis. it has not gotten any easier. but focusing as much as i can in the moment and not worrying about the past or future or planning as much has sure as hell helped me cope. remaining committed to following only what feels good has saved my mind and soul from the living nightmare that i call spinal cord injury.
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i am looking forward to both knees recovering and feeling like new again so i can continue my physical therapy and reaching my one and only goal of being able to move better, stronger, faster, more agile, and more capable than before. i’ve been pining for your #trishstrong workout @acfit_4
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nothing else will be acceptable for me.
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#500daysofparalysis
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