#dothehardstuff

day 580 : i quit my job 1 month ago today.
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this is currently what many of my days look like, and i’m not mad about it.
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quitting my job was the scariest decision i think i’ve ever made, and i went back and forth agonizing for months on end. in reality, i needed the experience/to prove myself that i COULD go back to work, but the effect on my personal wellness and recovery was never positive from the start.
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i am confident i’ve made the right decision, both for my soul and for continued focus and dedication to all of this return in function and feeling i’m feeling and continue to get back. i am amazed and eternally grateful.
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i’ve gone back to driving #uber and #lyft, but to counteract all of that sitting (wellness, come on people) i’ve become a grocery shopper for #instacart and #shipt. turns out, it’s kind of the perfect training tool i need right now??
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sometimes i end up at 6-8 stores a day. legs are definitely feeling it, but i’m refining my walk and getting some fast paces in! plus, carrying groceries is like, peak function training - am i right #fitfam
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doc says i really don’t need any more physical therapy, but i’m NOWHERE NEAR where i want to be! anyone have any ideas for something a step beyond personal training with a touch of neuro?? #help
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that’s enough of an update for now. just doing my best every day, which sometimes isn’t that great, but hey - does it really even matter?
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cheers friends. keep on keepin on
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#spinalcordinjury
#rebuild
#scirecovery
#notimeforparalysis
#whatparalysis
#notalldisabilitiesarevisible
#paraplegiclife
#incompleteparaplegic
#bionicbadass
#lifeaftersci
#nothingisofflimits
#moveyourbody
#keeponkeepinon
#neverstopplaying
#justgottagetthroughit
#healingisnotlinear
#ambulatorywheelchairusersexist
#dothehardstuff
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day 500 : in recovery - kinda sucks that this one hurts worse than leftie’s surgery.
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ethel (rightie) has been falling behind lately in that i can feel the stark difference between lucy’s (leftie’s) almost full sensation, and sometimes hypersensitivity, yet my entire r knee joint feels like it doesn’t exist in space and time, and the front of my shin is mostly numb to temperature and light touch.
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going into this surgery i figured more nerve pain and such would be involved in this one. i’m at least grateful for the nerve pain since that means things are damaged, but still firing, right?
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so currently feeling like my knee and incisions are balls of fire, and the nerve pain has been onnnnn itttttt since i woke up from anasthesia yesterday morning.
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as always, medication makes me loopy af, so not fully with it, which is cool. gives me a tiny shelter from the cloud of depression for a bit. #endthestigma #mentalhealthrecovery
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it has been 500 days of paralysis. it has not gotten any easier. but focusing as much as i can in the moment and not worrying about the past or future or planning as much has sure as hell helped me cope. remaining committed to following only what feels good has saved my mind and soul from the living nightmare that i call spinal cord injury.
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i am looking forward to both knees recovering and feeling like new again so i can continue my physical therapy and reaching my one and only goal of being able to move better, stronger, faster, more agile, and more capable than before. i’ve been pining for your #trishstrong workout @acfit_4
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nothing else will be acceptable for me.
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#500daysofparalysis
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#icansoiwill
#paralysissucks
#scirecovery
#dominoeffects
#takecareofyourdamnbody
#walkingparaplegic
#bionicbadass
#dothehardstuff
#incompleteparaplegic
#notalldisabilitiesarevisible
#disabledandcute
#coldtoes

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