#a miracle
A little update:
I’m figuring things out with the new man. We’re moving both slowly and quickly at the same time. I think we’ve realized there is something very real between us that is worth exploring, but I’m trying to be mindful of not rushing into anything. Reminding myself that I don’t have a deadline to meet for falling in love.
But, we’re also moving quickly because we’d be lying if we said we weren’t falling. Regardless of any guards I try to put up, my heart is weak for him.
I have THAT feeling. The feeling that he might be the one I’ve spent my life waiting for, and I don’t want to mess anything up. My anxiety is all over the place because I desperately don’t want to lose him before I have a chance to love him the way he deserves to be loved.
I don’t like imagining a world where I’m not his.
Hidden in the Shadows
They called me out to the fire-ridden field
A land of white and flame and snow
And told me to fight for he I didn’t know
Until his soul was finally healed
A world of experts made me a fool
But still I never should’ve trusted their words
The opportunity gone like wing-flaps of birds
I don’t wish to be their tool
Hidden in shadows, I shall remain
Until the time to finally strike comes
Until he’s gone and his power succumbs
They haven’t known yet true pain
He had been messy, a fool in his game
But I will fight with my own style
Sure, it may take quite a while
But I’ll win unlike he did all the same
I know every move, my power is greater
You will lose this forsaken fight
Hidden in shadows, away from the light
Anyone could’ve been the traitor
Learn well, heroes, I shall prevail
And perhaps I’ll win, and then you’ll see
You never should’ve forsaken me
I will end this sorry tale
…
You call yourself the ruler of all
But I am not so easily fooled
You thought it was I who you ruled
But now this game will be your fall
You can’t stop my masterful attack
And this game you started, I will win
Even if I become the story’s villain
Hidden in shadows, I’ll put the pieces back
