#actuallyparanoid

i am BEYOND perturbed right now because this is one of those recurring paranoias and i had only just barely started reassuring myself it’d never actually happen and yet here the motherfucker is sitting in the blind spot that would ensure id never see it until it was on my face, had i grabbed it from my bed like normal

and now not only have i had a traumatic almost experience but one of my paranoias actually happened so now my brain has the proof needed to tell me other paranoias, like the bloodthirsty people in the shadowed corners, might exist in reality

ugh i can’t even go to sleep now im too afraid of a legion of spiders crawling onto my bed and blanketing my face and suffocating me and not being able to get them off because what if i missed one

i cry