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// Alec Benjamin \

Day 13/30

29.05.2022 // Today felt like a real lazy day… I spent most of my time on tumblr -_- But I’m still trying to get used to Google Calendar and slowly working through final revision. You may have seen my 30dop challenge post, so imma try out my own prompt: do I prefer country or city? Definitely country, ever since I can remember I’ve loved the countryside, even if it can be inconvenient sometimes

: Dopamine Addict - Alec Benjamin

А меня покарила эта песня

хотя я обычно не слушаю музыку такого плана

let me tell you a story

1. heartbreak - the end of something important. something that was the most important. “the future is scary, who will i be and will you be with me? i need to learn to be okay if the answer is no.”

2. confusion - finally reaching a tender acceptance, on the verge of completely moving on… but they return. “you just want what you can’t have”and“if you’re gonna leave, better leave, better do it fast, can’t live a little longer sitting on your lap, ‘cause you know what you’re doing when you’re coming back and i don’t want to have another heart attack.”and“why can’t we laugh now like we did then? how come i see you and ache instead?”

3. goodbye. - not being able to return to their heart, not without betraying yourself. being forced into the mirror image of the beginning and having to be the one to end it this time. “if i can’t have you, at least i’ll still have me”

music video material - for when you want to feel like the main character

when i listen to these songs i can so clearly picture the perfect music video, they really take me somewhere else, perfect for sitting on a bus and looking out the window

i have loved you. i have had to deal with that. - these songs remind me that love is out there and that even if it hurts sometimes i crave it more than anything