#alec imagine
A/N: Just a quick disclaimer, if you see this story on Wattpad under the same title, it is not a copy or I’m not trying to copy it, it is my story from over three years ago that I am just rewriting and actually finishing. Damn old me was a big self projector in this part haha
Warnings: nightmare, mentions of blood
Trigger warning: heavy bullying, suicidal reader & thoughts
Summary: The voice
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You were looking around but saw nothing, everything was pitch black. You tried calling out to see if anyone was there, but nothing seemed to be coming out of your mouth. No noise, no nothing.
“Y/N.” You heard your name being called but you turned but saw no one. “Y/N.” You heard from behind you. “Y/N.” This time it felt like someone had whispered it in your ear sending chills down your spine. You slowly got up, walking around seeing that you couldn’t find an end to the darkness around you. There was no wall, no windows, until you bumped into something. It didn’t feel like a wall, but it felt firm.
“Hello?” Your voice finally started to cooperate with you. You looked up and were met with a pair of red eyes. You felt drawn to them, and started to walk closer. Your hand reached up to touch whoever was there but your hand was suddenly in a firm grip. You were pushed into a wall that you had no idea was there and you could feel your heart trying to beat out of your chest. You were getting nervous as you started to sweat and still had no idea what was going on. “Please don’t hurt me.” You begged, and heard a laugh feeling their breath fan your ear.
“You’re mine, la tua cantante.” You heard the voice in your ear and felt a hand on your neck. You were about to ask what that meant, but felt teeth sink into your skin. You screamed when you felt an excruciating pain and everything went black.
You shot up in the bed with a scream and suddenly Rosalie was in the room.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” She asked, walking over to you sitting down pulling you into her arms. You didn’t know what to say, and just stayed in her arms crying, grabbing onto Rosalie’s shirt like it was the last thing you’d ever do. “Edward!” Rosalie called and Edward was in the room staring at the two of you.
Thoughts from the dream were still going through your head making Edward’s eyes widen. You were all down stairs in a matter of seconds, and everyone was in the living room. You felt a little pain, but didn’t know where it was so you just laid on your side closing your eyes hoping it would subside. Edward started explaining what happened to everyone and suddenly the pain became 100% worse. Before you knew it you were on the floor crying in pain. You didn’t know what to grab in pain since it felt as though everything was in pain, almost like you were burning.
“Y/N, what’s wrong?“ You heard Rosalie’s voice. You couldn’t answer because of all the pain, and you were pretty sure you probably looked weird squirming in pain on the floor. The pain seemed to be getting worse and worse.
“Make it stop.” You cried when you started to hear a ringing in my ears. The pain continued and you put my hands over your ears as the ringing became louder. "It hurts.” You whimpered and it felt like you couldn’t breathe.
Waves of relief washed over you and you finally relaxed on the floor still laying there, feeling as though you were about to pass out. You felt warm liquid running down my nose and tasted blood on my lips. You wiped your nose and looked at your hand seeing it stained in blood, staring at the blood on your hand.
“What was that Carlisle?” You heard Alice ask.
“I don’t know, but I think I should do a couple tests on Y/N so it will be easier when I’m doing research to find out what’s wrong" Carlisle helped you up and you coughed and felt blood on your lip.
“That’s not a good sign, is it?“ You asked, looking at your hand as soon as you had wiped my mouth seeing a dark shade of red on my hand.
“We’ll see, don’t worry about it just yet.” Carlisle explained, trying to reassure you making you nod and look down. After a couple hours of Carlisle doing tests he looked at Edward and nodded. “Well Y/N, I think that you were just too hot or maybe made yourself bleed when you had the dream of yours. Other than that everything is perfectly fine.” Carlisle explained, and you nodded still looking at him.
You didn’t believe him, but you put the thought in the back of your head so Edward wouldn’t tell you otherwise. You sat next to Rosalie on the couch and curled up getting comfortable on her. You liked her coldness which made you sigh in content. You rested your head on her shoulder looking up at her. She wasn’t looking at you for a moment but toward someone else and you didn’t really care who, but you saw her smile.
“I’m bored.” You complained after 3 minutes of silence, and heard Emmett laugh at you. You smirked evilly and looked at Edward because he was the only one that knew what you wanted to do, and he couldn’t help but laugh, shaking his head. You got off Rosalie looking around the room innocently. You were getting closer and closer to Emmett but played it off as if you were just admiring the room. Once you were behind him, you suddenly jumped on his back. He almost dropped you on purpose which made you let out a squeak and you hit him on the head.
After a while of him running vamp speed around the house he finally stops and puts you down and you stuck your tongue out at him twirling around the room like the little immature girl you were. You were 15 about to turn 16 and you had been acting like one very hyper child. You were running around the house giggling and occasionally bumping into one of the Cullen’s or a random object and sometimes even a wall that you for some reason had not seen in front of you before which made you giggle even more. You were just a normal teenager if you didn’t count your eyes. Suddenly something hit you that you weren’t a normal teenager. You were a freak, a mistake, something that shouldn’t exist. This thought made you stop what you were doing and you felt tears well up in your eyes and you tried not to cry.
“Y/N, are you okay you suddenly got really quiet!“ You heard Rosalie as she called out to you and you just looked down at the floor. You made a small noise to indicate you were fine, but didn’t say anything. Knowing Edward was probably listening to my thoughts you didn’t really care as you sat on the stairs and leaned your head against the wall.
Bella doesn’t love you. You heard and looked around wondering where you heard it from.
She probably wishes you were dead. You heard and you let out a sob. You suddenly got many things like it and covered your ears crying.
You should go jump off a cliff. Or maybe even join a circus they’d love you over there. You’re just a weird mistake no guy will ever love you. You’re going to die alone might as well just kill yourself now and get it over with. Wouldn’t you like that Y/N? For the pain to end. You should do us all a favor and kill yourself. Don’t be selfish, make other people happy. Suddenly the voices stopped and you were wrapped into someone’s arms.
“Hey shh why are you crying? ” You heard Rosalie’s voice as she stroked your hair rocking me back and forth.
“I want to die.” You said looking up at her with tears in your eyes.
“Hey, don’t say that. You don’t know what you’re talking about.” She said taking your face in her hands looking you in the eyes, smiling sadly. You looked down and felt the tears hitting your legs. You shook your head and got up.
“Uh I think I should go get some, fresh air?” You said, or more like asked. You got up and so did Rosalie but you shook your head. “Alone.” You added. The only reason you were going to get ‘fresh air’ was because you couldn’t take it anymore. You couldn’t handle all the bullying at school, and now that voice in your head that came out of nowhere. As you were walking to the door, you were thinking of ways you could do it. Especially since the only thing around the house was the forest. You guessed you’d just think of something once you got there there. You were right at the door when suddenly you were pulled back forcefully which made you fall on your butt and whimper in pain.
“You’re not going to kill yourself Y/N.” Edward said, looking down at you, and you cried and looked up at him.
“Why not? Nobody would care anyway.” You scoffed, getting up and trying to get passed Edward. He held you back and you pushed against him. “Get out of the way Edward.” You said and shoved him but he didn’t budge. You raised your hand and as you were about to slap him he caught your hand.
“Y/N you can’t kill yourself. We’ll care, Charlie will care, even Jacob and Billy will care.” He explained looking down at you.
You felt a tear slip down your cheek as you heard the names of the only people that treated you as though you were normal. Your hand slipped out of his grip and you spun on your heel and ran up the stairs to the room you’d been staying in. You closed the door and leaned against it, pulling your knees to your chest, resting your chin on the top. You stayed like that for a while with your eyes closed, trying to calm down. Suddenly your phone started to ring and you pulled it out seeing it was Jacob.
“Hey Jacob, what’s up?” You asked as you put the phone up to your ear.
“Hey Y/N. I was wondering if you wanted to come down to La Push on Monday with Quil Embry and I?” He asked and you thought about it, a smirk forming on your face when
“Sure long hair I’ll see you at your house in the morning then.” You said and you said your byes hanging up the phone.
The rest of the weekend was the same, Carlisle doing test and researching some stuff that you weren’t allowed to see and you, Rosalie, and Emmet playing weird games in their room. Once you got to your house you hurried up to get ready as you had to hurry to get to Jacob’s house. Once you got there, Jacob was waiting in the front of his house with Quil and Embry. Embry’s back was facing toward you so you told the boys to be quiet and not say anything.
You jumped on his back and giggled when he let out a girly scream and the boys started laughing. It was cool about people over at the reservation. They don’t act like you’re a weirdo. You quickly kissed Embry’s cheek and jumped off going over to Jacob and Quil leaning on Quil since he was as tall as you. As you were all walking down to the beach you passed Sue Clearwater’s house. You saw her outside and waved, giving her a small smile. She did the same and you saw Seth walking out of the house, and he waved smiling and I did the same.
You knew a lot of people at the reservation, it was like your second home and the home that you would prefer. You’d told your dad about moving there since all his friends live there, but he said no because Bella was coming to stay with you. You would have probably moved over here if Bella wasn’t coming. You weren’t complaining about her coming home, but it would have been nice to move to the reservation. You all raced to the beach and you were the first one there with Embry in second, Jacob in third, and Quil last and you all laughed while he was out of breath. You were all sitting on the rocks staring up at Sam’s cult, and you all were talking about them.
“They must spend a lot of money for those steroids.” Quil said and you shook your head laughing slightly.
“You’re just jealous they have a six pack and you don’t.” You teased and laughed when Quil jumped on top of you and you both started to play wrestle. You won but you were sure Quil just let you win. Jacob suddenly threw you over his shoulder and you squealed when he threw you in the water. You came up and coughed out the water that was in your mouth, looking up to see the boys laughing.
“Jacob Emphrium Black! I’m gonna kill you!” You screamed and started chasing him. You tackled him to the floor and pinched him until he said mercy. You were all walking back to the guys and they were laughing at you because you were soaking wet. You smirked and ran up to both of them giving them a hug, hoping to get them soaking wet too. You could tell it was gonna be a fun day.
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