Series description: A new job was what the reason you found yourself on a lonely roadtrip on the western coast, ending up in the woods of Olympian Peninsula. Yet a sudden car malfuction was what cause your unplanned stay in Forks. To your surprise, there was a lot of sinister things going on under the veil of fog.
Part summary: The secret was finally out - many questions were about to be answered. Yet no-one said it will be enjoyable for either of you.
A/N: Okay, I am 100% positive that Seth would believe there’s something wrong with Jacob before realizing that she just means the wolf thing (IT’S JUST A WOLF THING). Also, I am sorry (not sorry) for the lenght of this part, but I got a bit carried away.
The wolf turned around to look at what caused the loud thud behind him. His blood froze in his veins when he realized what was he looking at - you’ve been laying on the damp, hard, and ice-cold ground. He could smell it in the next second - the iron-like, dry smell in the air. The vampires would most likely describe the smell as sweet, just lovely - yet Jacob’s stomach was turning upside down as he felt it. No - you didn’t hit your head so bad you’d be bleeding out. There was just a small amount of blood dripping out of a small wound on your forehead, the drops were slowly soaking into the soil. Jacob wasn’t panicking, he was just surprised to find you there - you were just fine, your breath didn’t even hitch, he could still feel the warmth coming out of you, your heart was beating steadily. Don’t worry, you were just fine.
But Seth, who saw the view through Jacob’s eyes, started to panic at the sight of your unconsciousness - while Jake found the expression very funny, the boy started to freak out. - ’Jacob, help her, why are you staring at her?!’ - Seth cried out to both Jake and Quil’s heads, he wasn’t sure about what was happening. - ’Jacob can’t change back now, Seth. She’s bleeding a bit, what if the leeches will smell it?’ - At that, Seth breathed out; Jacob and Quil felt the decision Seth made the very moment the boy realized it himself. In the next moment, he was running to meet Jacob just to help him. - ’Seth, don’t leave your position!’ - At the same time, Quil took a deep breath and howled loudly for the others to know something had happened.
The members of Sam’s pack and Jacob’s pack couldn’t hear on the same wave - only Jacob and Sam themselves could communicate. Every time something unexpected happened, a member of either pack howled and changed into their human form to describe the issue. It was extremely time consuming and also a bit exhausting, but they didn’t have a better solution.
It was too late for Quil to stop Seth from running your way. Jacob’s bitterness could be felt in the mental web, yet he didn’t tell a word - he just watched the perimeter, ran around, and made sure that any of the bloodsuckers was after you. While Seth was on his way and Jake already looked around, he started to move you around. If you’d be awake, he knew you’d freak out - his teeth bit on the cap of his raincoat as he dragged you closer to the garage, not having a problem with lifting you. The tops of your feet were sometimes touching the ground as Jacob scampered around in the direction of Forks. Thank God, you were barely a minute away when taken from a wolf’s point of view.
Suddenly, Jacob couldn’t tell what Seth was thinking, neither he could see what Seth was seeing - which meant just that Seth was close. And soon, the huge animal turned its head at him. It was looking quite funny, seeing Jacob running around with you hanging out of his mouth… Without a context, it would sure make Seth laugh hard. - “Hey, Jake.” - Seth mumbled and tried to flatten you inside his arms. - “Let go of the cap, I have her. Jacob. She won’t fall to the ground. She’s breathing… I can hear her heartbeat. It seemed that she did something to her brain for a moment.” - And there Seth was, rambling about a ton of stuff that meant… Nothing.
If he’d stop himself from acting up, just for a second, he’d know that you were alive the whole time. Jacob heard you breathing and your heart beating… Before Seth brought it up. And seeing the way the wolf was staring at Seth, the boy immediately knew he did something wrong. But Seth didn’t care at all - he just moved your body in his arms a bit, smiling at you. - “Don’t worry. I’ll stay here and make sure Y/N’s good, okay?” - The sunshine boy grinned at Jacob. - “Maybe some of them will appear here… They’ve been here before and now, there’s the stench of blood in the air.” - Slowly, Seth walked backward to the door leading inside the house, letting Jacob disappear between the trees.
Seth has done just like he told Jacob he would - the boy made sure to tug you into the big, super-warm blanket after taking the coat and boots off. Like a nurse, he cleaned your forehead with disinfection, taping it together with white medical tape. While happily strolling around the flat, Seth turned on some of the heating, made sure the place will be ventilated, and… Because Seth was Seth, when there was nothing left to do, he started to clean around - doing the laundry, folding clothes… When Seth was done and looked around the place with a satisfied smile, you wouldn’t know that you were at this place before.
Jacob… He was a messy person. He was one. The whole flat was the perfect reflection of said behavior. And you weren’t there to change that - most of the time, you even weren’t inside the flat, for the love of God - at least, he was doing the dishes and his bathroom was tidied up and smelled very nice. It was all you could ask from a person who had offered you a stay at their place in exchange for buying the food. Yet after Seth spending an hour there, the flat turned into a place you hadn’t seen before - the boy swept both the dust and the floors, he tidied the sofa from all of the dry soil and carefully re-arranger a fluffy blanket over it so it would be looking presentable. When Seth was done with the flat, he made sure the door to the guest room is opened, just before he sat down to watch some TV. He made sure to listen to the rhythm of your breath - before he fell asleep himself. The boy had an undoubted skill of falling asleep everywhere and anytime, snoring almost unison with how you breathed. The boy was a light sleeper, he’d sure wake up if he’d heard something he would not perceive as ‘normal’. Just like when you started to stretch in the bed, growling unpleasantly.
The dream you had was… Fucking crazy. You dreamed about walking to the woods behind Jacob, following him around. At one point, the man stopped - you did so too, watching him, hidden behind a tree. You remembered that in your dream, it was raining and it was pretty darn cold. Your breath hitched as you watched Jacob falling on his knees, grunting in pain. And then he turned into a fucking wolf. Into a huge, unnatural wolf. Jacob was nowhere to be seen. With that, you woke up - just as your head hit a root which was peeking out of the ground.
Your breath was above normal rhythm as you sat up and looked around to understand where you were. Fuck. You were just in your bad and this was just a bad dream. Jacob was most likely on his late-night walk and you fell asleep instead of following him. There was something wrong with your blood pressure because the room was gently smudged in your peripheral vision and it was shaking a bit. The colors weren’t right either. And why was the pillow full of dirt?
Trying to shake the strange headache, you gently smoothed your temple, just to hiss at the feeling. Fuck. Your head hurt as if someone took you out with a damn frying pan. Was this Jacob’s found? Without a problem with recognizing the material, you brushed over pieces of medical tape with your fingertips, wondering at what the hell had happened. You didn’t remember hitting your head anywhere, this didn’t make sense. Or, maybe, the dream…
“Hey, there!” - A young boy exclaimed in a happy tone. He was standing in the doorframe, shirtless, having a grin on his face. Who on Earth was this? And why wasn’t he properly dressed for the cold weather? There was a strange tattoo on his shoulder and… He wasn’t wearing any boots. Yet his feet, when compared to Jacob’s, were nicely clean. - “Nice to see you up and well. Name’s Seth, I volunteered to take care of you while Jake’s off.” - Without any further explanation, he offered you his palm. Confusedly, you held it in yours while the boy did the shaking. - “I have two simple questions. Why aren’t you wearing a reasonable amount of clothes and why is there tape on my forehead?” - Seth was kind of surprised when you didn’t ask something like 'also, why did Jake turn into a huge ass animal in front of my very eyes?’. Either you didn’t connect the dots yet, or you knew something about all of this.
“Oh, sorry. I’ll borrow a shirt if it makes you uncomfortable,” - Seth smiled even more widely than before, disappearing for a bit before he put on an old, flannel shirt he borrowed from Jacob’s closet. It didn’t even cross his mind that he’s not properly dressed. Most of the La Push boys just walked around shirtless for the most part. It was kinda nice to talk to someone… Normal. - “But my physical temperature is a bit higher than yours. I won’t get cold… And I don’t feel cold. I haven’t felt cold for the last couple of years.” - Seth explained to you as if you were supposed to know what the hell he’s talking about. Most of his friends were used to his happy ramblings, but you weren’t local. Seth was a stranger to you - and for the dearest God, you didn’t know what was his point. - “And the medical tape? Oh, don’t worry, I cleaned the blood and the wound first. It was a horror to get it out of your hair, I tell you that. I was worried that I might just… You know… Tear some hair off your scalp. Jake neither would be too happy about that.” - Tearing hair off your hair? What was the boy on about? You were just as confused as before the boy started answering your questions. Maybe even a bit more.
Even though he answered both the questions, he hadn’t told you anything. Maybe he was being dodgy, maybe he just really didn’t know he’s rambling about nonsense. Honestly, you couldn’t tell. - “I was bleeding?” - “Well, not like bleeding… It was a few drops here and there, but it stuck around the wound and then it kinda dripped down your face.” - Seth answered with an honest smile. Okay, so he just wasn’t aware of misleading you even more, cool. Now you knew. - “And I hurt myself… Or..?” - You needed to be more direct with the questions to get a proper answer out of the boy. - “Oh, yeah, you fainted in the woods and fell on a root, that’s what happened.” - Oh, so that was why the dirt was in the bed. And why your forehead was taped together carefully. Sure. And that also meant…
Seth could heart your heartbeat picking up and your breath getting irregular as you realized something. Suddenly, your hormonal balance had changed as your body started to sweat. You were stressed. And also, this was the reaction you should show before. - “Seth, you need to help me.” - You mumbled, climbing out of the bed. The room suddenly spun around and you barely stood on your feet - the boy’s arms caught you and he carefully helped you stand straight. - “At first, I thought that Jacob is a killer. Don’t ask me why I just got that vibe.” - What the hell were you now on about? Seth watched you packing your stuff in a state of total panic, you were running around the room, picking every piece of clothing you could find. You didn’t care what will you leave there, you needed to run away as soon as possible. - “A killer?” - The boy answered with confusion - suddenly, you pushed all the clothes you found into his arms, picking up the rest. Where was the bag, goddamnit?
“But it’s worse, much, much, MUCH worse.” - “It is?” - He asked back and for a moment, you managed to get him distressed as well. Seth was one of the people you shouldn’t be having this type of conversation with at all. Even if Seth knew about every thought that ever went through Jacob’s brain, he was now on the same ship of panic as you. - “What is he, then?” - “Trust me, if I’d tell, you’d think I’m crazy. And we don’t want that. I’ll take you out of there with me, what do you say? We can… We can try to ring at Charlie? Jacob always leaves his keys in the car, so the tow truck is a fairly good chance.” - Your brain started to put together a situation. The chaos was too much for both of you - for a moment, Seth was thinking about actually escaping with you from the menace that Jake was supposed to be in your eyes. - “He can… He can… He can…” - Slowly, you looked him in the eyes, trying to get the words out. The boy was hanging on your lips with his eyes, curious to hear about what the hell Jacob was. - “He can turn into a wolf. I saw that with my eyes and I swear I’m not crazy. You need to trust me on this, Seth.” - At that moment, every sign of suspense in Seth’s face faded away as a grin replaced it. Oh, okay, so this was the late response Seth was expecting when you’ve woken up. - “What are you grinning at? I didn’t lose my marbles! We need to go, now! Or he comes back, turns into that… That animal and tears us apart!”
“I know you’re not crazy.” - Seth whispered carefully, which made you stop for a moment as you looked into his face, searching for hints of sarcasm or something like that. You thought that maybe, Seth will tell you that you hit your head too badly or something like that. - “And I know that… Because I can do that too.” - What was he saying? Was he also walking to the woods in the late night, turning himself into an animal at will? That couldn’t be… Again, the room around you spun - one time, two times, three times… The third time, you’ve been already laying on the bed, passed out. The man let you lay there for a second as he put your clothes back in place. This time, you’ve been quicker to wake up.
It didn’t take you even five minutes to gain consciousness and this time, you did not doubt in your mind about what happened. As soon as you heard someone standing next to the bed, your eyes flew open as you gathered to stand up on the bed, trying to get away from Seth, who was standing there with a glass of water and a small smile. One of your hands rose high to keep Seth away from you, but the boy wasn’t on planning at all. - “If you’ll come just a step closer, I am going to scream.” - Yeah, who would hear that? It was your last defense. Your phone was in the raincoat you’ve borrowed from Jacob, Seth was standing next to the door and… You could still jump out of the window, but it was pretty high, to be honest. You could hurt yourself pretty bad if you’d be considering jumping out and you would not run too far if you’d break your leg. - “Be careful and reasonable, come on. You hurt your head pretty bad.” - The boy seemed to be nice, yet it could easily just a mascarade. Just when he mentioned your head, the whole room spun and you had to support yourself by putting your palm against the wall.
Jumping out of the window suddenly seemed like an even worse idea than before. - “I think you might have a concussion, so, can you just sit down?” - Seth stepped forward and in response to that, you started to wave your hands around more wildly than before. The boy grunted in frustration, rolling his eyes back. For the most part, you’ve been acting like the child out of you two. After calculating the situation once more, you told yourself it might be better to co-operate. For now. Until you get a better view of the flat door. Just as you were climbing down the bed, the room spun again. Great, so now, you had a fairground amusement just from walking around. - “Will you let me go?” - You asked quietly once you’ve given up on any resistance. Without any further theatrics, you took the glass from Seth and even the painkiller coming with it.
“It’s not safe out there… Listen, no-one’s holding you here against your will, but it wouldn’t be smart to leave now.” - That was all he could say without giving away too much. Seth couldn’t just straight away tell you that most probably, you’re on the vampire menu now and that they will have a hard time trying to get you out of that trouble. Not like he couldn’t talk about it, he just didn’t want to give you more reason to go into a full tantrum. - “Why? Are there wolves in the woods?” - You grinned at your own, not-so-funny joke. It didn’t make Seth even smile. - “There’s something… Different out there. So, please, just don’t do anything unplanned, dumb, or dangerous. Jake wouldn’t thank me if you’d just do a bunk.” - “He asked you to keep an eye for me?” - Then, there was the question if Jacob just wanted to keep you in the flat or if something was lurking in the woods for real. Both answers sounded more or less probable to you.
“Well… Not entirely, I volunteered to be here. I would be grateful if you’d just… Tried not to do anything crazy. Jacob should be back by six, he decided to do a longer one today.” - And with that, Seth let you be with your thoughts alone, which was worse than when he stuck around and stared you down like a baby, that was dangerous to everyone. After the conversation ended, he was highly reluctant to tell you any information - he kept telling you that Jacob should be the one talking you through it when he was the one you’ve seen… Doing it. Not even when you circled a different conversation back to the topic - Seth was smarter than just giving you what you wanted.
In the meantime, you’ve cooked something for yourself and Seth, you even went as far as to let something for Jacob as well. Precisely at six o'clock, Seth’s head turned in the direction of the forest as he got up from the couch and simply… Disappeared. You could hear a long, painful howl, but you couldn’t bring yourself to move. You just closed all of the windows and curtains, hiding under your blanket on the couch. The whole time, you’ve been watching some animal planet, until you simply fell asleep. It was Sunday and the garage would’ve been closed anyway. After some super-long document about mantises, you’ve fallen asleep - in that state, any danger was lurking behind the windows and you’ve been safe, laying on the couch.
Jacob came home late that day - Seth was nowhere to be found, which was understandable. Sam has found one of the vampires and tried to catch it… Embry, of course, ran after Sam to support him - yet the leech, it was a man this time, was quicker than them and broke Embry’s leg. Embry, being the fighter he was, twitched the man’s palm. That sure as hell won’t make the bloodsuckers happy. The palm was now burned to ashes, yet it was almost 100% sure that the vampires will come for their revenge soon. And honestly, instead of talking to you, he slept under the trees, in the cold outside, just to make sure the confrontation will wait for a bit.
As a means of reconciliation, Jacob brought you some take-out from the steak, just like you talked about it - and there was a momentary relief when he found you dead asleep while watching a David Attenborough documentary about ants. All it took was to wait for a bit - and while you slept, he decided to work on your car again. The sooner it would be done, the sooner you could leave the town. It wasn’t too hard for you to understand Jacob was back and working again - the noise was undeniable. You crept behind him, your face was colorless and you didn’t feel good at all while doing it… But you two needed to talk - the sooner, the better.
“Good to see that you’re… Human again.” - You could hear him freak out under the car - his forehead banged the chassis with a loud bang and after a moment, Jacob rolled out with a violet bruise above his eye. - “I didn’t know you were spying on me.” - “You’re doing weird, suspicious stuff and expect it to go unnoticed? No way in hell.” - At this accusation, Jacob put his arms crossed over his chest, sending a raster nasty gaze. - “If I remember correctly, I’m not the one who thinks I am a serial killer and I don’t stalk you when you want to be alone.” - For a moment, you were opening and closing your mouth, trying to figure out some kind of an answer. Yet solid got a solid argument. - “I’m sorry, but you have more than six feet, you’re not a very nice person and sometimes, you’re kind of weird. I thought you were a serial killer and it turns out you can turn into a wolf! That’s some Harry Potter shit right here, come on. I don’t know which one’s worse.” - “Like you aren’t. Who meets someone for the first time and immediately goes 'That guy will kill me the first chance he gets’?” - “I’m just paranoid!” - You exclaimed all over the garage and looked Jacob in the eyes. Heavy rain started outside as you stared each other down. The silence was intense.
“I suppose you’d like to know more… About what you’ve seen, huh? Now you’ve seen it, there’s no point in hiding things.” - Jacob sighed as he wiped his dirty hands in a rug, his expression and stare were blank. - “Yeah, that would be nice.” - A similar blank sigh left your lips. When you were on your way up, you’ve picked up some of the papers declaring all the gigs he had done, since you’ve been mistreating your work in the last couple of days. The man left the TV play while he heated the food he brought from the steakhouse, putting it on the small table in his living room/kitchen. Your eyes sometimes slipped to a documentary about lions and their prey as you chewed on the food. It took Jacob quite some time to start the conversation. - “So, what are you interested in? I mean… Regarding the wolf things?” - “That’s what you call it?” - You fired back instantly, not even looking away from the TV. The food was tasty - it would’ve been even better if you’d just eat it right after Jacob brought it.
“Yeah, that’s how we call it. I thought you’ve been dying to know more.” - It was a subtle callout, yet it didn’t make you even furrow. - “If Seth had told you so, he had been lying like a pre-schooler. You shouldn’t be trusting that boy.” - Once again, your eyes had barely left the TV screen. A small sting of the past had stabbed him close to his heart as he remembered how… She was eager to learn everything. Your attitude to the unknown was more Charlie-like: the less you knew, the better. - “Okay, okay, okay.” - With that, you looked at him. - “How comes that you’re a werewolf?” - Suddenly, you were staring him down like an eager interview. And you were saying that Jacob was the one with a split personality disorder?
“That’s a start. We were born with it…” - “You and Seth? He told me he can do this tomfoolery as well.” - “Not only me and that boy. There are around fifteen werewolves in La Push and Forks now. I can’t tell since I’ve separated from the other pack a long time ago.” - The man was talking while eating, so you had slight trouble understanding everything he had to say. - “That’s quite a number. Everyone’s as big as you or..?” - “No. Most of them are smaller.” - For a moment, you’ve been just eating. - “Are you going to hurt me? Or other people? Or… What does a normal wolf do in these woods? This town, no offense, doesn’t look like a place where shit would be going down.” - Now, it was Jacob, who looked away from you for a second.
This was his chance to repent, to show you that he isn’t the killer you thought the whole darn time. But… Should he tell you about vampires? He knew how paranoid you were. Knowing about the unnatural situation Forks found itself in might won’t do the best for you. On the other hand… Maybe you’d finally believe something is happening and therefore, you wouldn’t try to escape. Seth showed the whole pack how did the night at Jake’s looked like making the others laugh uncontrollably, Maybe, you would finally believe that he’s not that insane. - “We would never hurt people… Voluntarily. That’s not what the Protectors are here for,” - “You call yourself the Protectors? What?!” - At that, you started to laugh. It was so loud that Jacob widened his eyes in surprise. - “What kind of boyband name is that? Holy fuck!” - You got out of yourself whilst crying from laughing so hard.
Jacob was looking at you the whole time, waiting for you to stop laughing - but in the end, you’ve been laughing so long that it made him smile as well. - “It’s a name Sam came up with. You’ll get used to it, eventually.” - “So, Sam’s a member of your boyband?” - At that, Jacob rose is eyebrows as he thought of the answer, but right after that, he shook his head. - “No. He’s the leader of the other pack. I have one and he has one.” - “But what are you protecting this sleepy town from? From having fun? From sunny weather? From warm days?” - Sure, now, you were joking, but something in his face told you to take it just a bit more seriously. There was this… Blank, subtle flame inside his eyes as his expression went flat again. - “The cold ones.” - Jacob said. At first, you thought that he might be joking - but… He turned into a huge animal in front of your very eyes. Maybe, just maybe, he wasn’t making things up. - “Will you tell me who are the cold ones? Never heard of them.”
“You’re wrong. You already heard of them, everyone did. Bram Stoker did, the movie directors did… Let it go through your head. Who’s werewolf’s natural enemy, hm?” - You did know which mythical creature Jacob was talking about, but come on - it felt so dumb to say it out loud. A smile slowly crept on your face as you grinned - rather than answering, you’ve been concentrated on stabbing your steak with a fork. - “I know you know who am I talking about…” - Jacob whispered as if he was just asking you not to sit there in silence. - “The thing in the woods, the one chasing me… That wasn’t a mountain lion, was it? The cats don’t jump that high up on a tree. It was a cold one.” - Dear Lord, you refused to say the word 'vampire’ out loud. It felt stupid to even thinking of that. Inside your mind, you’ve been saying the word again, again, and again, but your mouth couldn’t make the sound because of its utter stupidity. - “That was why you let me drive to Charlie, wasn’t it? And then to La Push. Does he know?” - “Bits and pieces here and there. The less he knows, the better.” - Jacob admitted quietly. That was why Charlie told you to call him as soon as something would be happening.
“And La Push? I don’t believe that Charlie Swan, the police chief, is some secret… Vam-pi-re slayer.” - Ugh, the word didn’t want to leave your mouth on its own, goddammit. - “I was born in La Push. You can call it werewolves’ natural habit because most of us are the children of mythical, legendary Quileute chiefs, who could turn into their spirit animals… And then to wolves.” - “Wow. But why was I meant to go there?” - You asked again. Oh, you didn’t catch what Jacob was saying… Never mind. - “It’s the smell. It’s the strongest in that location, quite literally soaked in it because we live there.” - “The smell?” - With that, you took in a huge load of air to your lungs, smelling only the freshly cooked food. It hadn’t done anything to you, but it made Jacob relax a bit more. - “Our smell, not yours. To a leech, the wolves smell like… A wet dog. But for them, it’s almost unbearable. They can stay in our company only if they are a bit used to it.” - “And what about them? Can you… Smell the cold ones too?” - And this was the moment Jacob understood you’ve been wrapped inside the conversation and its topic.
“Yes, naturally. It’s like… Damn rotten tomato. It’s so sweet, but it smells like a burnt body at the same time.” - “Do I smell like that?” - It was a genuine question in combination with a genuine tone which made Jacob roar with laughter now. - “Of course you don’t smell like that. You’re human. Dear Lord.” - Once again, you took in some smell and smiled at the man. - “Well, you don’t smell like wet dog to me either… I can smell a bit of soil, something woody… A bit of orange… And sweat and oil. You need a shower, man.” - “Flowers and something sweet. But your smell is nice.” - Jacob answered immediately, now he was looking at the TV screen. Suddenly, he was the one stabbing his mashed potatoes with a nervous expression. Of course, he smelled your scent, hell, the workshop and the flat, especially the bathroom, and the guest’s room were full of you. Literally.
“Thanks, I guess. So… Tell me more about the wolf thing, will you?” - It didn’t seem that you’re scared when you smiled at the man, cutting another bite from your steak. Honestly, you’ve spent a few hours sitting at the table, just talking about the werewolves. Jake told you some of their legends, why did they turn, what did even mean to be a werewolf. - “And are all the cold ones bad? I mean, do you have to kill all of them? I think…” - A quick growl escaped your lips. - “I think I know they did something to Bella.” - At the sound of her name, Jacob visibly stiffened and for a moment, it seemed that the conversation was over. - “No. Some of them try not to kill humans. Like the Cullens.” - The man muttered out the name with the biggest amount of self-denial you’ve ever seen on anyone. - “They’re what happened to Bella. And don’t bring her up ever again, I don’t want to talk about her.”
“But the ones that are in the woods now… They are bad, right?” - You changed the topic quickly. So… Bella became a vampire? Was she now hanging from the ceiling, did she have fangs? Was that why they broke up? Was the man on the photo also a vampire? And the small girl, presumably their daughter, who the hell was she? - “They are bad, yes, that’s all you need to know.” - But that wasn’t everything. And you weren’t stupid to figure it out on your own. The bad vampires were hunting you, they knew you were a human… Which meant that they won’t let you be until you’d leave Forks… Maybe not even after that. They will try to harm you, and not only you - they won’t stop until the wolves will kill them.
Now, you understood that the wolves weren’t bad as it seemed at first sight. But you still needed to get used to the idea that person with whom you’ve been sharing your living place for some time now was a mythical creature. You wanted to know more… As you thought about it, you started to bite your lip, which made Jacob look at you once more. - “Something else on your mind?” - It made you jump on your chair as you got back to reality. - “Yes… Do you think you could… You could show me what happened again?”
A/N: Just a quick disclaimer, if you see this story on Wattpad under the same title, it is not a copy or I’m not trying to copy it, it is my story from over three years ago that I am just rewriting and actually finishing. This one isn’t as long as the other ones so I hope you guys don’t mind, I would have added to it but since these are all prewritten and I’m just changing and editing them it wouldn’t have made sense.
Warnings: small undertones of bullying
Summary: A day at the beach
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You were sitting down on the rock again and the guys were glaring at Sam’s cult. They were cliff diving. You could be with people that treated you like you were exactly like them everyday. As if nothing is different about you. Part of you never wanted to go back to Forks and stay at the reservation.
They don’t love you Y/N. Get away from them. You don’t belong here. The voice in your head taunted you. The past two days that the voice had been in your head you’d already gotten used to it. Unless it said something new you were fine.
“They stare at you guys a lot.” You explained, resting your head on Quil’s lap and feet on Jacob’s.
“Yeah, I don’t know why though. They are really creepy sometimes.” Embry explained as he glared at them. You nodded and closed your eyes trying to think.
“I wonder why they look at us though.” Quil said.
“They probably want you to join that little thing they have going on.” You shrugged, sitting up. You sighed when you looked over at them, and caught Paul staring at you. You cocked an eyebrow at him, wondering why he’d been staring.
He probably thinks you look weird. You rolled your eyes to yourself and looked away. You started messing around with Jacob, shoving each other and you laughed when you knocked him to the ground. He’s still staring. You heard the voice say and you looked to where Paul was and saw him still staring so you glared at him. You shook your head and continued messing around with the guys. After a while Paul was still staring at you and you finally got fed up with it.
“Stupid Lahote.” You muttered as you started to walk over in his direction.
“Hey woah woah woah.” Embry said, pulling you back. You struggled in his grip, trying to get free, and started to kick.
“Let go of me, Embry.” You demanded, still kicking.
“Hey, what’s the matter with you? Calm down.” Embry said sitting down, putting you in his lap trying to calm you down.
“Paul’s the matter he’s been staring at me for who knows how long.” You explained, struggling to get up from his grip.
“No, I’m not letting you go over there and do something that might get you hurt.” Embry said, trying to calm you down. You were slightly shaking, glaring at Paul and Paul was just staring back at you but not saying or doing anything. You finally got out of Embry’s grip but you were over it by the time you were free, making you glare at Embry. “You love me.” He smirked and you all laughed shoving each other. You were suddenly thrown over someone’s shoulder, and somehow got them to the floor in a matter of seconds. You looked down to see who it was and saw Quil.
"Crap, sorry Quil. I don’t even know how I did that.” You apologized, helping him up off the floor.
You’re mine don’t forget that. You will end up with me somehow. Just you wait. You looked around confused.
The voice had sounded like it had been right next to your ear, and it didn’t sound anything like the normal voice you heard before. You shrugged it off and sighed, continuing what you were doing with the guys. You’d thought today was a good day, but little did you know that it would be your last for a while.
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A/N: Just a quick disclaimer, if you see this story on Wattpad under the same title, it is not a copy or I’m not trying to copy it, it is my story from over three years ago that I am just rewriting and actually finishing. Damn old me was a big self projector in this part haha
Warnings: nightmare, mentions of blood
Trigger warning: heavy bullying, suicidal reader & thoughts
Summary: The voice
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You were looking around but saw nothing, everything was pitch black. You tried calling out to see if anyone was there, but nothing seemed to be coming out of your mouth. No noise, no nothing.
“Y/N.” You heard your name being called but you turned but saw no one. “Y/N.” You heard from behind you. “Y/N.” This time it felt like someone had whispered it in your ear sending chills down your spine. You slowly got up, walking around seeing that you couldn’t find an end to the darkness around you. There was no wall, no windows, until you bumped into something. It didn’t feel like a wall, but it felt firm.
“Hello?” Your voice finally started to cooperate with you. You looked up and were met with a pair of red eyes. You felt drawn to them, and started to walk closer. Your hand reached up to touch whoever was there but your hand was suddenly in a firm grip. You were pushed into a wall that you had no idea was there and you could feel your heart trying to beat out of your chest. You were getting nervous as you started to sweat and still had no idea what was going on. “Please don’t hurt me.” You begged, and heard a laugh feeling their breath fan your ear.
“You’re mine, la tua cantante.” You heard the voice in your ear and felt a hand on your neck. You were about to ask what that meant, but felt teeth sink into your skin. You screamed when you felt an excruciating pain and everything went black.
You shot up in the bed with a scream and suddenly Rosalie was in the room.
“Hey, what’s wrong?” She asked, walking over to you sitting down pulling you into her arms. You didn’t know what to say, and just stayed in her arms crying, grabbing onto Rosalie’s shirt like it was the last thing you’d ever do. “Edward!” Rosalie called and Edward was in the room staring at the two of you.
Thoughts from the dream were still going through your head making Edward’s eyes widen. You were all down stairs in a matter of seconds, and everyone was in the living room. You felt a little pain, but didn’t know where it was so you just laid on your side closing your eyes hoping it would subside. Edward started explaining what happened to everyone and suddenly the pain became 100% worse. Before you knew it you were on the floor crying in pain. You didn’t know what to grab in pain since it felt as though everything was in pain, almost like you were burning.
“Y/N, what’s wrong?“ You heard Rosalie’s voice. You couldn’t answer because of all the pain, and you were pretty sure you probably looked weird squirming in pain on the floor. The pain seemed to be getting worse and worse.
“Make it stop.” You cried when you started to hear a ringing in my ears. The pain continued and you put my hands over your ears as the ringing became louder. "It hurts.” You whimpered and it felt like you couldn’t breathe.
Waves of relief washed over you and you finally relaxed on the floor still laying there, feeling as though you were about to pass out. You felt warm liquid running down my nose and tasted blood on my lips. You wiped your nose and looked at your hand seeing it stained in blood, staring at the blood on your hand.
“What was that Carlisle?” You heard Alice ask.
“I don’t know, but I think I should do a couple tests on Y/N so it will be easier when I’m doing research to find out what’s wrong" Carlisle helped you up and you coughed and felt blood on your lip.
“That’s not a good sign, is it?“ You asked, looking at your hand as soon as you had wiped my mouth seeing a dark shade of red on my hand.
“We’ll see, don’t worry about it just yet.” Carlisle explained, trying to reassure you making you nod and look down. After a couple hours of Carlisle doing tests he looked at Edward and nodded. “Well Y/N, I think that you were just too hot or maybe made yourself bleed when you had the dream of yours. Other than that everything is perfectly fine.” Carlisle explained, and you nodded still looking at him.
You didn’t believe him, but you put the thought in the back of your head so Edward wouldn’t tell you otherwise. You sat next to Rosalie on the couch and curled up getting comfortable on her. You liked her coldness which made you sigh in content. You rested your head on her shoulder looking up at her. She wasn’t looking at you for a moment but toward someone else and you didn’t really care who, but you saw her smile.
“I’m bored.” You complained after 3 minutes of silence, and heard Emmett laugh at you. You smirked evilly and looked at Edward because he was the only one that knew what you wanted to do, and he couldn’t help but laugh, shaking his head. You got off Rosalie looking around the room innocently. You were getting closer and closer to Emmett but played it off as if you were just admiring the room. Once you were behind him, you suddenly jumped on his back. He almost dropped you on purpose which made you let out a squeak and you hit him on the head.
After a while of him running vamp speed around the house he finally stops and puts you down and you stuck your tongue out at him twirling around the room like the little immature girl you were. You were 15 about to turn 16 and you had been acting like one very hyper child. You were running around the house giggling and occasionally bumping into one of the Cullen’s or a random object and sometimes even a wall that you for some reason had not seen in front of you before which made you giggle even more. You were just a normal teenager if you didn’t count your eyes. Suddenly something hit you that you weren’t a normal teenager. You were a freak, a mistake, something that shouldn’t exist. This thought made you stop what you were doing and you felt tears well up in your eyes and you tried not to cry.
“Y/N, are you okay you suddenly got really quiet!“ You heard Rosalie as she called out to you and you just looked down at the floor. You made a small noise to indicate you were fine, but didn’t say anything. Knowing Edward was probably listening to my thoughts you didn’t really care as you sat on the stairs and leaned your head against the wall.
Bella doesn’t love you. You heard and looked around wondering where you heard it from.
She probably wishes you were dead. You heard and you let out a sob. You suddenly got many things like it and covered your ears crying.
You should go jump off a cliff. Or maybe even join a circus they’d love you over there. You’re just a weird mistake no guy will ever love you. You’re going to die alone might as well just kill yourself now and get it over with. Wouldn’t you like that Y/N? For the pain to end. You should do us all a favor and kill yourself. Don’t be selfish, make other people happy. Suddenly the voices stopped and you were wrapped into someone’s arms.
“Hey shh why are you crying? ” You heard Rosalie’s voice as she stroked your hair rocking me back and forth.
“I want to die.” You said looking up at her with tears in your eyes.
“Hey, don’t say that. You don’t know what you’re talking about.” She said taking your face in her hands looking you in the eyes, smiling sadly. You looked down and felt the tears hitting your legs. You shook your head and got up.
“Uh I think I should go get some, fresh air?” You said, or more like asked. You got up and so did Rosalie but you shook your head. “Alone.” You added. The only reason you were going to get ‘fresh air’ was because you couldn’t take it anymore. You couldn’t handle all the bullying at school, and now that voice in your head that came out of nowhere. As you were walking to the door, you were thinking of ways you could do it. Especially since the only thing around the house was the forest. You guessed you’d just think of something once you got there there. You were right at the door when suddenly you were pulled back forcefully which made you fall on your butt and whimper in pain.
“You’re not going to kill yourself Y/N.” Edward said, looking down at you, and you cried and looked up at him.
“Why not? Nobody would care anyway.” You scoffed, getting up and trying to get passed Edward. He held you back and you pushed against him. “Get out of the way Edward.” You said and shoved him but he didn’t budge. You raised your hand and as you were about to slap him he caught your hand.
“Y/N you can’t kill yourself. We’ll care, Charlie will care, even Jacob and Billy will care.” He explained looking down at you.
You felt a tear slip down your cheek as you heard the names of the only people that treated you as though you were normal. Your hand slipped out of his grip and you spun on your heel and ran up the stairs to the room you’d been staying in. You closed the door and leaned against it, pulling your knees to your chest, resting your chin on the top. You stayed like that for a while with your eyes closed, trying to calm down. Suddenly your phone started to ring and you pulled it out seeing it was Jacob.
“Hey Jacob, what’s up?” You asked as you put the phone up to your ear.
“Hey Y/N. I was wondering if you wanted to come down to La Push on Monday with Quil Embry and I?” He asked and you thought about it, a smirk forming on your face when
“Sure long hair I’ll see you at your house in the morning then.” You said and you said your byes hanging up the phone.
The rest of the weekend was the same, Carlisle doing test and researching some stuff that you weren’t allowed to see and you, Rosalie, and Emmet playing weird games in their room. Once you got to your house you hurried up to get ready as you had to hurry to get to Jacob’s house. Once you got there, Jacob was waiting in the front of his house with Quil and Embry. Embry’s back was facing toward you so you told the boys to be quiet and not say anything.
You jumped on his back and giggled when he let out a girly scream and the boys started laughing. It was cool about people over at the reservation. They don’t act like you’re a weirdo. You quickly kissed Embry’s cheek and jumped off going over to Jacob and Quil leaning on Quil since he was as tall as you. As you were all walking down to the beach you passed Sue Clearwater’s house. You saw her outside and waved, giving her a small smile. She did the same and you saw Seth walking out of the house, and he waved smiling and I did the same.
You knew a lot of people at the reservation, it was like your second home and the home that you would prefer. You’d told your dad about moving there since all his friends live there, but he said no because Bella was coming to stay with you. You would have probably moved over here if Bella wasn’t coming. You weren’t complaining about her coming home, but it would have been nice to move to the reservation. You all raced to the beach and you were the first one there with Embry in second, Jacob in third, and Quil last and you all laughed while he was out of breath. You were all sitting on the rocks staring up at Sam’s cult, and you all were talking about them.
“They must spend a lot of money for those steroids.” Quil said and you shook your head laughing slightly.
“You’re just jealous they have a six pack and you don’t.” You teased and laughed when Quil jumped on top of you and you both started to play wrestle. You won but you were sure Quil just let you win. Jacob suddenly threw you over his shoulder and you squealed when he threw you in the water. You came up and coughed out the water that was in your mouth, looking up to see the boys laughing.
“Jacob Emphrium Black! I’m gonna kill you!” You screamed and started chasing him. You tackled him to the floor and pinched him until he said mercy. You were all walking back to the guys and they were laughing at you because you were soaking wet. You smirked and ran up to both of them giving them a hug, hoping to get them soaking wet too. You could tell it was gonna be a fun day.
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The fact that I was so ready to just get up and leave my family to be with some damn wolves and some vampires… Smh I still would though, best believe I still would. I’ve been waiting since I was 8 years old and I’m 21 now
This is super random, but for this series, I got inspired by a song and the beginning is actually inspired by a story of mine; how I met the first guy I’ve ever reaaaallllyyyy had a true, big crush on. Anyway, I hope you guys like it and I’m sorry it’s so short!
You took in a deep breath and sat down on the couch in front of Billy. You were so nervous, you started playing with your fingers and couldn’t stop looking at the floor.
“There’s no need for you to be nervous about this.”, Billy told you as he got a little bit closer to you.
You just slowly nodded. You felt like something was caught in your throat. You had a hard time swallowing your saliva or trying to talk.
“So tell me, why did you really come here?” Billy asked as he put both of his hands on his thighs.
“Well, I guess you already kind of know…”, you paused, “Look, I have imagined so many ways of how this would happen and what I would say, but- it’s nothing like what I originally thought .” you paused again. Billy was silent, just listening to you.
“The thing is, I think you might be my dad.”
Silence.
“The reason I think you might be my dad, is because my mom told me she met my dad in Forks, at a bar. She also said that he lived in the Quileute reservation and that his last name is Black.”
“Many people have Black as their last name’.’
As these words left his mouth, you felt a little pinch on your heart.
’‘Yeah, but you’re the only one in the reservation with this last name. I did my research.”
Billy slowly nodded and silence took over the place. For some reason, you wanted to cry.
'What if he wants me to leave and never come here again? Does he hate me? Will Jacob ever know that I’m his sister? What about the twins?’ you thought to yourself. You were happy that you got the chance to find your dad this fast, but you were starting to feel like this was probably a bad idea.
You sighed and stood up before heading towards the door.
“I looked for her.”
You stopped, waiting for Billy to continue.
“I still remember the way she was dressed, how her hair went down to the middle of her back. Sometimes, it’s like I can still smell her perfume.”, he paused, which made you turn around and walk back towards him. “I went back to that bar many times, hoping that’ll find her again.”
You waited before asking: “Did you love her?”
He sighed.
“Love is a strong word, but no I didn’t.”, he rolled his wheelchair towards his daughter. “See, it’s not because you get along with a person, or because you enjoy that person’s company and feel at peace, that that person is the love of your life. It also doesn’t mean that you’re in love with that person. Your mother and I were young, wanting to have a taste of what adult life was. I wasn’t going through a good time in my life back then…”, he looked at you in silence for a few seconds.
'Why the heck would he say that?’, you asked yourself. You thought about it harder, then you realized why he said that. He cheated on Jacob’s mom with mine.
“But it took me some time to realize that it was just platonic. I didn’t know Amelia was pregnant. If I would’ve known, I would have taken care of you. You’re my kid just as much as Jacob, Rachel and Rebecca are my kids.”, he said as he gave you a warm smile.
A few tears ran down your cheeks as you smiled at your dad, which he returned. He then approached you to hug you. The moment was cut short when Jacob came back in. He looked confused as he saw you hugging.
“Hey… Um, we are waiting for Y/N.”
“Don’t worry, your sister was just leaving.”
Jacob frowned in confusion.
“Sister? What are you talking about?”
“I’ll explain everything on our way to the beach.”
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At the beach, you greeted the guys and some new faces. You met Emily, Sam, Seth and Kim. They were actually nice, especially Seth, but your focus was on Embry. He was still acting like nothing happened and it made your blood boil. Thanks to a huge rush of adrenaline, you stood up and walked over to Embry who was throwing and catching a football ball with Seth.
“Ok, what’s wrong with you?”, you said as you tapped on his shoulder after he threw Seth the ball. His beautiful brown eyes settled on yours before he looked away at Seth again.
“I’m good, why?”
You scoffed at his answer.
“Because you’ve been ignoring me ever since what happened yesterday night-”, Embry interrupted you by taking your arm and walking away with you.
“Shhh!”, he looked over at the guys, then back at you “The guys could hear you.”
You frowned at him.
“No they can’t. They are far away.”
'Dumbass’, you cursed him in your head. Little did you know that you were the dumbass and they could, in fact, hear you.
You walked with him in silence far away from the others.
“Ok tell me. What’s going on?”, you crossed your arms around your chest, waiting for him to explain himself, but something was distracting you a little bit; small butterflies. Something you shouldn’t feel. Not now, not here. You were leaving in two days. On monday, everything was going to be different. You were going to leave. You kept telling yourself that the only reason why you should keep in touch with this res was because of your dad, your brother and the sisters you have but never met, but deep down, you knew that Embry was another reason.
“You didn’t catch feelings right?”
You raised your left eyebrow in confusion.
“Excuse me?”
“You do know that it was just a one night stand, right?”, he asked
You didn’t know what to say. After you had sex, you talked about so many stuff. You talked about stupid stuff, made jokes, then had a serious conversation. One where he mentioned his dad and how he thought him and Sam might have the same father, then went back to making jokes. You got the chance to get to know him a lot. You knew he liked art and he could play the guitar and the piano, he admitted to you that Mean Girls was one of his favorite movies when you mentioned it. He said it was a secret between you two. He also told you that him and the guys love to watch it every time they can, but you couldn’t tell anyone because then, the guys would kill him after he kills you.
All that got you confused because why would he tell you all of that and make you see a side of him that definitely made you want something more with him? It was hard for you to let it sink in. You thought he had at least, a small crush on you or that he liked you after the night you had.
‘Great way of making him think you’re not easy, dumbass!’, you told yourself while kissing him. Either way, you didn’t regret it.
You slowly pulled away from him. Your cheeks felt like they were burning and your stomach too. You felt something you never felt before. Not even your ex-boyfriend made you feel that way. Being thirsty for him were the right words to use.
Embry’s hands were still on your waist, while his eyes were looking at your lips. You slowly put your hand on his cheek, making him look at you. You stared at each other for a few seconds before smashing your lips together. The kiss got intense in just a few seconds. You took your hand off his cheek to put both of your hands underneath his shirt. Your hands were going up to his chest. His abs were hard; he was also so warm and you loved it.
Embry suppressed a moan before pulling away, he took your hand and started walking in a different direction from school.
“Wait, where are you taking me?”, you asked him.
“My house.”, he replied. You could tell by the way he looked at you that you had turned him on.
“No! I got a curfew and I do not want to get locked out!”
Embry sighed, then a few seconds later, smiled. It seemed like an idea came up to him.
“I got you. We’re going to school, but you just have to promise me one thing.”
“What?”, you asked as you got closer to him.
“Don’t scream.”
You smirked as you ran to school with him. Once you got inside the school, Embry took you to a classroom near a small hallway. You didn’t know how he knew it was open, but you didn’t question him. All you wanted was him.
You got into the classroom before him, then he closed the door without turning the lights on. It was an art class. You could tell because of a few costumes that were on a box. There was a small purple couch between the board and the teacher’s desk. There were also a few tables and a tall white lamp. Embry grabbed you by the waist and turned you around to face him. His lips quickly went on your neck and you immediately grabbed his hair. His left hand went down to the edge of your pants before he slid them underneath your panties. You let out a moan as he started to make small circles on your clitoris. You bite down on your lips before you pushed him away and took off your shirt. He smiled before taking off his top, revealing his perfectly sculptured chest and abs.
You turned around, and slowly took off you pants. As you were about to turn around, you felt Embry’s chest against your back; you didn’t know how fast he did it, but his boxers were already off him. His lips were on your shoulder, while his hands were slowly pulling down your panties.
After that, everything happened so quick. You woke up the next day, laying down on the small couch. You had your clothes on. You sighed when you noticed that Embry wasn’t next to you, but flashbacks of last night made you feel alive and happy. You smiled to yourself as your right hand touched your neck.
You got up, put your hair in a bun and walked out of the class. You quietly made your way to your “room”. Y/B/N wasn’t there. You shrugged before taking a few things to go shower. As you got out of the classroom, your best friend scared you to death by showing up out of nowhere.
“Damn Y/B/N! You scared me!”, you whispered to her.
“Well, I’m glad I did! Where the heck were you last night? I was worried and I had to cover for you! Coach would’ve killed me if he would’ve found out that you weren’t with m-”
“I slept with Embry”, you interrupted her.
Your best friend let out a huge gasp.
“Y/N, you sl-”, she half yelled.
“Shut up! I’ll tell you the details later. I need to shower.”
Your best friend chuckled.
“You dirty little shit.”, she said making you both laugh.
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It was ten in the morning, you were next to your best friend and the same man that was volunteering with you yesterday night, waiting for the first game of the day to start. A few teenagers were sitting on the bleachers to watch the game. Today, you got the chance to see your school team play. You took the sheet to see who was playing against your school team. You held in your breath when you saw familiar names written down.
'Jacob Black, Embry Call, Paul Lahote… Embry.’, you read. Now you were panicking a little bit. Not because you regretted what happened last night- that you did not regret! You just felt awkward because why did he leave without telling you anything? He could’ve said something to you! After you had sex with him, both of you put on your clothes, then sat down on the couch and started talking about random stuff. It was going so well! Nothing was forced and you had a great time together- well, it’s what you thought. You didn’t even know when or how you fell asleep, but he could’ve left a note or something.
'Whatever, we are not dating so technically, he doesn’t owe me any explanation’, you said to yourself.
Right after that, the boys you met yesterday came in and the teenagers on the bleachers started cheering. You made eye contact with Embry. You didn’t know if you had to wave, smile or not or just do nothing. You decided to give him a small smile. You expected him to smile you back, but he just looked away.
Ouch. You felt a small pinch on your heart. You were so confused, but decided to brush it off. You told yourself that you were going to wait after the game to go talk to him.
The game ended at 1-5. You felt bad for your team, but at least they were second on the ranking!
Y/B/N was about to ask you something, but you quickly walked over to Embry who was talking with Jacob. As soon as Embry saw you approaching, he walked away.
'What the fuck is wrong with him?’, you asked yourself even more confused than before.
Jacob noticed your confusion and smiled at you to try to make you feel a little bit better.
“Sorry for his behavior, it’s been a rough morning for him, that’s all. Don’t take it personal.”, he said.
'Yeah, or it’s because he regrets what happened last night!’, you told yourself.
“Anyway, it must be boring staying in these walls all day and during the night, so if you want to, you and Y/B/N can come to the beach at 5. The guys and I will be there.”
“Sure, we’ll be there, but I don’t know how to get to the beach.”
“Cool, I’ll come here before meeting with the guys. My friend Bella will also be there.”
Then an idea came up.
“Or, I could go over to your house? I mean, I want to walk and explore a little bit.”, in reality you just wanted to see if Billy was there. That was the main reason why you agreed to come here… also it would help you get your mind off things with Embry.
“You’re not scared to get lost or anything?”, he asked as he raised his left eyebrow.
“Not really. I mean, yes, but I won’t. I’m pretty good when it comes to orientation.”, you lied.
Jacob stayed silent for a few seconds before sighing. He gave you his address before walking away.
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It was almost 5 and you got lost with Y/B/N more than three times.
“Ugh Y/N if we get lost again, I promise you I’ll knock you out before-”, she started saying while getting angry.
“Found it! It’s here!”, you interrupted her as you admired the little house.
This was where your dad and brother lived.
“Are you sure you want to do this?” your best friend asked you as she remembered the conversation you had with her before coming to Jacob’s.
“Yes I am. It’s not the best idea, but at least I can get closer to him that way.”
“Alright then, let’s go knock.”, Y/B/N said.
Both of you walked over to the house and you had the honor of knock on the door. You got greeted by Jacob’s beautifully white smile.
“Hey girls, come in. My friend Bella is on her way. We’ll just wait for her to get here.”, he said as he let you in.
“Jacob, where’s your dad?” you abruptly asked him.
'Great! I could’ve triedto be more casual!’, you told yourself.
“He was out during the whole day, but he should be home by now. It’s weird he is still not here.”
'Damn it! Why did he have to be out for this long today?!?’, you mentally cussed.
“Why don’t you call him? Yeah, you should call him and ask where he is and when he is coming home”, you said as you gave Jacob your cell phone to call Billy.
Jacob frowned as he eyed you up and down.
“Thank you for your kindness, but I don’t need to parent my dad and anyway, I have a phone too…”
'I know that and I don’t care. I just want his phone number!…Woaw that sounded creepy’, you told yourself.
You were about to say something when you heard a man’s voice.
“Jake, I’m home.” Billy said before you heard the door close.
Your heart started to beat faster. What were you going to do or say?
“By the way, Bella’s outside waiting for you.”,Billy said again before entering the living room and seeing the three of you.
“Thanks dad, we’re leaving.” He gave Billy a pat on the shoulder and walked towards the door.
Y/B/N looked at you, giving you a reassuring smile.
“I’ll cover for you if Jacob asks anything. You got this, I believe in you.” she whispered to you before running towards the door to follow Jacob.
You and Billy just looked at each other. You opened your mouth to say something, but he beat you to it.
“I guess you’re here to talk.”
You nodded.
“Sit down then. I think it’s going to be a long talk.”
*I’m so sorry I took forever guys Hope you like it*
Billy composed himself on his wheelchair, while Charlie was standing next to him with a hand in his pocket. All eyes were now on you.
“You’re a ‘Black’ too?” Billy asked you frowning. You were about to answer him when he asked you another question. “You’re not from here, right?”
You shook your head no.
“No, I’m not. I live in a reservation that’s like an hour away from here.”
“Who’s your dad, kid?”, Billy asked again. Jacob sat back down, his eyes still on you.
'You.’,you said to yourself.
“I-I don’t know him. I mean, he wasn’t around. My mom met him in a bar in Forks, for her 21st birthday-” Charlie cut you off and it startled you.
“Alright!”, he clasped his hands together before adding: “We are not going to get into a personal conversation in a public place.” he said as he put his two hands on Billy’s wheelchair handles. “You guys have a nice night. We are heading out.”
Jacob frowned at Charlie’s strange behavior and also because he had noticed that his dad got super quiet after Y/N told him how her parents met.
“But you didn’t even order anything.”, Jacob said to the two older men.
“Yeah, we don’t want that anymore. Right Billy?”, Charlie said as he looked at his friend.
“Right. Jake, I’ll see you home.”, Billy said before looking straight at you. “Have a nice evening and be careful.”, then Charlie pushed the wheelchair to the exit.
You stared at your hands for what felt like an hour. You had completely zoned out and you felt like you had thorns in your throat- something that you always felt whenever you were upset in a room full of people or when you were arguing while crying. You were lost in your thoughts. You couldn’t even hear the conversation that was going on around you, but one touch was enough to make you come back from your thoughts- Embry’s.
“Hey, are you okay?” he asked you. He seemed concerned about you and seemed genuine.
You couldn’t make out any words and you had a hard time breathing. You stared at his beautiful structured face without letting out a word. Your best friend, who noticed how quiet you had gotten, stood up from her seat. She knew you weren’t well.
“Um, Y/N, can you please come with me to the bathroom.”, she quickly said to you.
You simply nodded and followed her to the bathroom. You both stared at each other for a few seconds before Y/B/N saw that you were about to cry. She pulled you against her and wrapped her arms around you.
“It’s okay, let it out, let it all out.”, she said as she stroked your hair. Once you were done crying, you told her everything that was going on- your dad situation.
“Wait, so Billy might be your dad and Jacob might be your brother!?”, she asked, her eyes wide.
“Yes, but don’t say this too loud. I don’t know how I’m going to tell Billy.”, you paused before adding, “By the way, I don’t even know if I’m really going to tell him. For the past three years, all I’ve wanted was to see him and now that I have, I don’t even know what to do. All the scenarios I’ve made in my head of how I was going to see him for the first time and what I was going to say and how I was going to say it, it’s like it doesn’t even matter anymore. What if he doesn’t even care that I’m his daughter? What if he doesn’t believe me? What am I going to do? It will be so humiliating, Y/B/N, I will be so ashamed.”, you told her, letting all your emotions out at the most inappropriate place ever.
“Look, I really wish I had answers to your worries, but I don’t. All I can say, is to do whatever your heart and your instincts tell you to do. I can also advise you to do something that you won’t regret doing when you think about it months later.”, she paused before rubbing your shoulders, “I know I can get really annoying sometimes and very boy crazy, like you have witnessed tonight…”, she paused for a few seconds and chuckled.“and every time we go out, but just know that no matter what happens, I’ll always be there for you and you can tell me anything you want, whenever you want.”
You smiled at her feeling grateful before heading out.
After you all ate, you all walked outside to Jacob’s car.
“Hey, I’m actually going to walk.”, you said to them, earning a fake laugh from your best friend.
“Heck no you’re not-”
“Don’t worry, I’ll walk with her and make sure she gets back to school safe.”, Embry said to your best friend after he interrupted her.
Your best friend didn’t want to leave you alone, but you gave her an approving look.
After they left, you walked along side Embry in complete silence. After a while, he abruptly stopped you as he faced you. You looked up to meet his brown eyes.
“What?” You asked him.
“You don’t feel it?”, he asked.
You were confused. 'What the fuck is he talking about?’ You asked yourself.
“The connection we have.”, he simply said.
You snorted, then just stared at him for a few seconds when you realized he was being serious.
“What is it that you smoke? Crack? You smoke crack? I don’t know you, so there’s no connection between us. Now if you’ll excuse me.” You said as you waved your right hand to the right so he could move, but he didn’t. He just stood there, his jaw clenched and his eyes still on you. You couldn’t lie, it was hot and you did feel a connection. You just didn’t want him to think you were easy.
With a fast and smooth movement, he wrapped his right arm around your waist and pulled you over him. You were excited. He leaned in, his lips only inches apart from yours. You were now craving him. Your throat felt super dry at the moment.
“You’re going to tell me you still don’t feel it?”, he asked as his breath hit your lips.
“No, I don’t. ”
Embry chuckled and mumbled 'alright’ before he kissed you. You were surprised, but you still kissed back. This could be the first and last time you’d kiss him and you were going to make the most out of it.
So I feel like little me is back and I’m starting to ‘’obsess’’ over Jacob Black all over again. I hope y’all like this. *I was in the mood for something a bit sad?? oh and I don’t see Jacob in a bad way ok? Please don’t think I do (he’s actually my very first twilight character love-been team Jacob forever). I hope you guys like it*
Why do I keep doing this? Damn Talking to myself like “Now, what’s the play?” Kiki this is bullshit, damn You know you ain’t new to this Make the same mistakes
You were lying down on your bed, looking at the ceiling. The silence in your house was pretty comfortable considering that you were home alone. You were just thinking about something that seemed to come back in your mind every single day for the past two weeks. To make things clear, you had a ‘’thing’’ with Jacob. You weren’t in a relationship because he claimed he had ‘’feelings’’ for Bella, but he also seemed to be interested in you. But, you weren’t friends with benefits because the ‘’thing’’ you both had going on, was more than just friends. You both didn’t act like friends with each other and you weren’t the only ones who had noticed that there was definitely something between you two- Quil and Embry have noticed. The fact that you didn’t know exactly what was going on between you two is what got you messed up and you hated that. Especially because you knew about his little ‘’feelings’’ for Bella. Anyway, even if all of that kept bothering you, you always found yourself going back to him, just like he would always come back to you.
All we do is fuck then regret it Fuck and forget it I won’t let it get like that Every little thing that you say I put to rest, I ain’t going to get like that
Whenever he would come over your house or you would go over to his, you would tell yourself; ‘’Y/N, don’t let him get to you again. You can’t let your feelings for him get in the fucking way. He’s way too confused and doesn’t know what he wants. You can’t wait for him forever’’. But as soon as his warm and soft hands would touch you, you couldn’t resist him. After only three minutes into his house, your clothes and his would be all over the floor, along with his bed sheets.His lips would be working against yours in perfect synchronization. You loved the way the tip of his fingers gave you chills, you loved that rush of excitement you got on your stomach whenever his skin was against yours. There was no better music to your ears, then hearing him moan and growl because of how much pleasure he got from you. You loved straddling him while riding his dick and having his hands around your waist. There was no better feeling than hearing him scream your name at the top of his lungs. You had control over him- power over him during these moments and you enjoyed it. Whenever you didn’t see him for a week or just a few days and you both needed each other, you could spend almost a whole day having sex. Rounds after rounds and even if you were tired, you didn’t care. It was the only way to be as intimate with Jacob as you could.
But right after you were done and you would lay down next to him, realization would hit you; Bella might be in his mind right now.
Or, there were a few times where he had to leave right after to go see her. These thoughts always shattered you and because of them you kept telling yourself that you couldn’t let your feelings for him get in the way of this toxic ‘’thing’’ you had going on.
I can’t let this love get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way I can’t let this love get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Every time that we exchange in conversation I won’t listen to a thing that you’ve got to say Always telling me you want me, that you need me
One day, you had enough. You confronted him about it. You wanted to know what his true intentions were. You wanted to know if he was willing to try and let go of his stupid feelings for Bella and give you a chance. But he told you what he always said: ‘’Y/N, you know this is not easy for me. I’m not trying to hurt you or anything. You knew that I had feelings for Bella before we started this.’’, he would say.
He wasn’t wrong. In a way, you were toxic too. You kept trying over and over again without letting it go, but he was still confused and whatever it is that you were trying to do to win him over, wasn’t enough.
‘‘You know we do have something special, but I can’t deny my feelings for her.’‘, he would say right after. And what would your dumb ass reply?
‘‘Yeah, I know. Anyway, I gotta go.’‘, then you would leave.
Saying you ain’t running games, you ain’t tryna play Anyway I’m on a different wave I got people to see, you know I got places to go I ain’t even really tripping I’m just letting you know We gotta stop running in circles, start letting it go, yo
But then, a few days later, you would get mad, go to his house and tell him that enough is enough, that you can’t spend the rest of your life waiting for his answer. Then, you would both start arguing and you would hear things like: ‘’I get why you’re jealous, it’s understandable, but you have to stop blaming me for the whole situation. I do admit that I’m not handling all that situation like I should, but I am definitely not the only one to blame here! Let me remind you that youwanted this in the first place. I did agree, because I wanted it too, I reallydid, but it was your idea.’’ and you would reply with: ‘’Well can you blame me for wanting to have your attention? I know I’m not doing this the right way too, but what else can I do when all you seem to care about is her? I know I am super selfish right now and I shouldn’t be, but I can’t help it.’’
A silence would fill the room for a few minutes, until you would both start undressing each otheragain,making the same mistakeagain, for what felt like the hundredth time.
All we do is fuck then regret it Fuck and forget it I won’t let it get like that Every single thing that you say I put to rest, I ain’t going to get like that
And as soon as you’re done, you would regret it. Not because you didn’t enjoy it- you certainly did! You just wanted more than this and you couldn’t have it. In a way, it made you feel miserable- going after someone who didn’t even know if he wanted to be with you- someone who wasn’t even a 110% sure of his feelings for you.
I can’t let this love get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way I can’t let this love get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way Get in way, get in the way
There were days where you had plans with your friends and you would ditch them just to see him. Why? Simply because you wanted to see him, you missed being close to him and sometimes, you could spend almost a week without seeing him.
Whenever you would tell your friends that you were going to see Jacob, they would always give you disapproving looks. Not because they didn’t like Jake- he was a good guy, but because they knew in what situation you were in. They would tell you: ‘’Y/N, this is not healthy for you or him.This is way too toxic and you both need to let it go.’’
Deep down, you knew they were right, but you didn’t care. You loved the attention he gave you. You always dismissed their opinions and drove as fast as you could to go see him and have sex.
Nah, now we doin’ this again like I knew we would Got me fucking up my plans, knowing that I shouldn’t Take a minute, take a second just to think it through And I know I could do better
You knew this was messing you up badly, but it was like you were addicted to him. Like he was your drug. You couldn’t get enough of his kisses, his touch and hearing his voice. Sometimes, while you were in the middle of having sex, thoughts like ‘’You have to stop this’’, came through, but you quickly pushed it away. You didn’t want to deal with that, because you ‘had’ Jacob.
But trust me it’s not my fault, I can’t leave it alone Trying my hardest but it ain’t easy at all Everyday we say exchange in conversation Then I know that this is it, we won’t ever change
One time, right after ditching your friends for him, you were sitting on his bed, watching a movie and eating junk food. You had completely zoned out as you started to think. It was like your subconscious was talking to you.Telling you to let it go because even if you tried hard enough, nothing between you two would change. As hard as it was for you, you had to let it go.
And out of the blue, you said his name, making him look at you and you said:
‘’ ‘Cause all we do is fuck then regret it Fuck and forget it I won’t let it get like that Every single thing that you say I put to rest, I ain’t going to get like that I can’t let this love get in way, Nah’’
You both stayed in silence, looking straight into each other’s eyes.
‘‘I guess this is it, then?’‘, Jacob asked in almost a whisper. You nodded while looking down at your feet.
‘‘Yeah, it’s too toxic. We can’t keep doing this to ourselves.’‘, you said back to him.
You stood up and before you left, Jacob engulfed you in a big, tight hug saying:
The game was about to end and the tension was getting higher. The crowd was cheering for their school’s team. You were so into it, that your heart started beating faster and faster by the second. There was only 45 seconds left to the game. You found out earlier in the game that number 24- Embry, was part of this school’s team. They were actually winning and whenever he made a goal you had a little rush of excitement in your stomach.
The crowd errupted into screams and cheers when number 8; Jacob, who might be your brother, scored the last goal.
After the game, their team stayed a little bit in the gymnasium. You took it as a opportunity to walk over to them and ask for the soccer ball.
“Y/N wait!”, your best friend half yelled at you before you got to the boys. She smiled at the boys who seemed to have heard and then looked at you as she whispered:
“Please, let me go get the ball.”
“No! No! I already let you put their stupid bracelet.”, you said shaking your head from side to side.
“Girl please! I need to talk to my future baby daddy.”, she desperately said. You cringed at her words and eyed her from up and down.
“Ew, don’t say that. By the way, you sound desperate.” your best friend gasped before you walked away from her, towards the boys. They stopped talking and all looked towards you. You walked closer to them, being only a few feet away.
“Can I please have the ball?”, you asked them, Jacob gave it to you with a small smile. You took it and smiled back as you mouthed a small ‘thank you’. You started to walk away, but stopped to turn back around. You wanted, no, needed to say something to Jacob. You needed to know if you were related or not.
“Hey, nice goal by the way!”, you said to him. He flashed a beautiful smile.
“Thank you. I’m Jacob. Jacob Black”,
'Yeah, I know, but score! He might lead me to my dad and I need all the help I can get because I’m only here for three days.’, you said to yourself.
“I’m Y/N. It’s nice to meet you.”, he walked a bit closer to you.
“Likewise.”
Before he could say anything else, one of the other team members jogged towards you and grabbed Jacob by the neck. You remembered him as the first one to get his bracelet.
“Hey Jake, why don’t you ask your new friend if she wants to come with us at the diner?”, he asked with a smirk.
Jacob chuckled and shook his head.
“This is Quil Ateara. Ateara, this is Y/N.”
You flashed Quil a smile and you could feel your best friend’s stare on you along with the other boys.
“Wanna come?”, Jacob asked you.
'Ohmygosh Y/N, this is it! This is your train ticket to your final destination! You can’t miss the train.’, you said to yourself.
“Of course!”, you said with no hesitation and then added, “But my best friend has to come too.”
Your best friend jogged over to you and smiled at the two boys in front of you and introduced herself. Jacob and Quil introduced themselves before you all walked towards the other three boys.
“Guys, this is Y/N and her best friend, Y/B/N. Girls, this is Jared, Paul and Embry.”, Jacob said.
The seven of you walked outside towards two cars. Jacob, Quil and Embry got into what seemed like Jacob’s car and Jared and Paul got into another one.
“We’ll be a little late. Jared wants us to go get Kim and I want Rachel to come.”, Paul said as he opened his car door.
“Rachel? No, you’re not bringing Rachel with us. I still have a hard time accepting that you’re dating my sister.”, Jacob said from inside his car. It amazed you how well they could hear. If it had been you, you’d be shouting and you knew Y/B/N would still not hear a thing.
“Wait, hold up!” your best friend said, over pronouncing the 'o’ and looking straight at Paul. “You got a girlfriend?!”, Y/B/N half yelled. You rolled your eyes and chuckled.
'This bitch cannot be anymore obvious.’, you said to yourself.
Paul looked amused and you could tell he was holding in a laugh, while your best friend was a little pressed.
“Yeah, I do.”, Paul said with small smile.
Your best friend bit down her lower lip as she nodded and walked over to Jacob’s car. You were going to sit on the passenger seat when your best friend slightly pushed you. You gave her a confused look.
“What are you doing?”, you whispered to her.
“I’m sitting next to Jacob. He’s the second hottest.”, she calmly said. Your eyes widened in fear that Jacob had heard what she said.
“Stop it! You can’t see him as a second option. You wouldn’t like it if it were you.”, you said, defending him. She looked at you for five seconds, her stare was blank.
“Well, you’ll sit with him when we come back.”, she got in the car and closed the door. You sighed and opened a door. Quil got out and let you get in between him and Embry.
Jacob started the car while Y/B/N started throwing him questions to 'get to know him better’ like she always says. You could tell how much she wanted his attention because well, Paul was out of reach. You hated whenever she did stuff like that, especially when the guys were friends. Meanwhile, you felt Embry’s stare on you. You slowly turned your head towards him and looked straight into his eyes. He subtily got closer to you and well, you did the same. His large hand brushed your leg and you could feel the warmth of his skin against your jeans. It made you feel all giddy.
“Sorry.”, he said with a little smirk, but you could tell he didn’t mean it. Not like you cared anyway, you liked it. A few seconds later, he did it again, but he didn’t say sorry. He just looked straight up ahead of him and smirked. You bit down your lips and decided to play along. You 'brushed’ your hand on his thigh. He looked at you right after it, then you said:
“Sorry.”, with a small smirk.
A few moments later, Jacob parked in front of the diner. Embry got out of the car and held the door open for you. You got out and thanked him. You felt a little nervous- he was way too beautiful and his smile was stunning! During the walk to the diner and to your table, Embry walked beside you making casual talks, like where you were from, how old you were, ect. Once you got to your table, you sat down between Embry and Jacob. Your best friend wasn’t too thrilled to sit next to Quil because he kept talking to her nonstop and she couldn’t say a word to Jacob like you knew she had planned, but you didn’t care.
“Jacob, you have a sister, right?”, you randomly asked. You only wanted to talk to Embry, but you came here for a specific reason and you only had three days. Plus, you couldn’t let yourself get attached to Embry because of the same reason- you were here for three days.
“Yeah, two actually. They’re twins. One of them, who’s name is Rachel, is dating Paul, but I think you’ve heard that earlier.”
You were about to ask something else, when Jacob got up from his seat and greeted a man in a wheelchair and another man who was standing. You were trying to get a better look at the man in the wheelchair, but Embry got your attention. You turned your head towards him, making eye contact. He got closer to your ear, making you look ahead of you. You could see how annoyed your best friend was with Quil’s jokes as she stared at him blankly. Then, Embry whispered as low as he could:
“I know this is very random to say and it’s probably not the right place to say it, but I just wanted to let you know that you’re beautiful.” His breath was hitting your neck and his lips were only inches apart from your ear. Your heart started to beat faster and the place suddenly got hot to you. You slowly turned your head towards him, while he moved back his head a tiny bit. Your faces were only inches apart and in that moment, you knew there was a thing going on between you two. You were about to say something when Jacob’s voice interrupted your moment. You were a bit pissed, but there was nothing you could do about it.
“Girls, meet my dad, Billy and his best friend, Charlie.”, Jacob happily said.
You tensed up and froze. You knew Embry and your best friend had noticed because they both gave you weird looks. You just stared at Billy with your mouth wide open. You wanted to say something but you didn’t know what or how. You’ve been waiting for this moment for so long, but this wasn’t how you planned it. You had planned to find where he lived and show up at his house. Not meet him in a restaurant where you were flirting with guy. What would he think about you?
'Say something! You look like a fish outside of the water.’, you said to yourself. You composed yourself and blinked a few times before clearing your throat.
“Sorry, I-I am Y/N.”, in that moment you hesitated. You didn’t know if it was appropriated for you to say your last name or not. After a few seconds of thinking it through, you decided to say it. You reminded yourself that you only had three days here and you had to make the most of it because you didn’t know if your mom was going to let you come here again. Heck, she didn’t even know that you wanted to come here to look for your dad. Also, she had a hard time letting you come here.
“Y/N Black.”, The three teenagers and the two men frowned at you.
“You’re a Black?”, Jacob asked you as he looked back and forth from his dad and you.
-Bleh, I don’t really like this part even though I rewrote it more than twice. Hope you liked it though! Please feedbacks are very appreciated!-
