#always come back

My old friend with benefits (fwb) broke up with his girlfriend a few weeks ago. I’m still being happy with my boyfriend, but it seems my fwb doesn’t care. He was my old crush, I think I actually felt in love with him, but I’m not anymore. I don’t know if I am “in love” with my boyfriend, I mean… I love him, and I can tell I feel butterflies in my stomach, but now I cannot tell if I’m in love with him. 

The thing is that my fwb is talking to me again, asking me to go out. He knows I’m happy with my boyfriend, and he knows I used to love him, but he is still telling me to meet in places we used to, and he is telling me I’m his only friend as he used to tell me before. 

I’d never cheat on my boyfriend, but talking to him makes me feel bad because he really hurt me and I’m afraid that when my relationship ends (because my boyfriend is going to Spain for a year) or when my relationship becomes a long distance one, I don’t want to go back to him, I don’t want to go to the place I’ve been for 2 years.