#and im sad

LIVE

Episode-by-episode, all of the pieces setting up the relationship between Quentin and Eliot, and Quentin and the Monster. No fancy out-of-context editing, no extra music or lingering shots, just the actual show as it aired. It was one of the most beautiful, complicated pieces of writing I’ve ever seen. Quentin loved the Monster’s face while the person he loved was trapped. This was such a well-executed plot, as we watched Quentin spiral into depression as he couldn’t save Eliot. It seemed to be setting up such an incredible reunion; we couldn’t wait!
For the first 10 episodes of the season, this plot thread was so clear. And then… no payoff. Nothing.
It’s been 3 months and I’m still upset. I don’t understand why you would write this incredible story and just drop it. I made this video in part to see if I had mis-remembered. Was I projecting things into the story that weren’t there?
No.
I’ll never understand this.

Absolutely spot-on. And this doesn’t even address Eliot’s horrifyingseries ending… Ugh. I get upset even considering it.

#yes yes yep #i agree #quentin coldwater #eliot waugh #the magicians #queliot #no this isnt queerbaiting #but they buried their gays #and im sad

@earnestdesire

Tue, 07 Dec 2021 15:15:27

I’m so tired. This is exhausting.

This message is mostly for my fellow Romani, and I’m putting it under the cut instead of answering through asks because it could be triggering.

I usually let this stuff go because I don’t want to feed the trolls, and I don’t want to give outsiders a bad impression. But. Just.

I’m sick to death of getting harassed.

TW for under the cut: general cruelty, biphobia, anti-white-passing rhetoric (is there even a real word for this?)

I’m sure you thought the harassment that forced this post would come from gadje. In some ways, I wish it did.

I’m definitely too Roma for the racists, particularly the MCU fans.WandaVisionstans have me listed on hate accounts. I don’t even bother sharing that nonsense because I’d have no time to sleep. I haven’t posted anything on AO3 in a year because I stillget racist messages on my stories there, particularly my Avengers WIP.

I’m also not nearlyRoma enough for the Romani traditionalists, which… I’m sorry, but that’s absurd. I’m full-blood Roma. We were raised with romanipen. But the moment I admitted I was white-passing, a small (but vocal) group of Roma decided I’m not Romani enough for them.

I recently responded to a Twitter thread about me that I acknowledged was mostly respectful. I stand by that. It’s hard to stay good-natured about posts like that, though, when I’m simultaneously receiving shit like this. It comes from the same line of thinking.

I want to be understanding with Romani who don’t agree with me online, but you guys seriously suck sometimes. I regularly get links to posts and tweets and reddit threads where people debate my right to “call myself Romani.” Like it’s something I need to earn? By more than just being born to two Romani parents? Do you need mypermission to be Roma? I don’t think you do.

But it’s not really about that, is it?

You don’t like me, and you want to hit where it hurts. You want to invalidate what I say by invalidating me. By gatekeeping (yes, you are fucking gatekeeping) my entire family! You’ve never even met us!

You need to keep my kids out of this. For real.

What. Is. Wrong. With. You?

If you think I have no right to speak to you, you can literally leave. You can click away. You can block me. No one’s forcing you to read this. I don’t get paid a fucking dime to do this, and it’s often completely miserable to be here.

(I’m also not straight, but yes: I’m married to a cis man. Ha ha ha. Biphobia is hilarious.)

If you are white-passing, know that you are valid.

BIPOC don’t owe anybody their DNA tests. You don’t owe anybody else the “right” skin tone, the “right” interests, the “right” romantic partner, the “right” language. You don’t have to prove yourself. Anybody who asks you to do so isn’t worth your time, frankly.

I also hate the parts of our history that make this seem acceptable, even necessary. I do get it. I keep reminding myself that this is an anonymous platform, and we’ve been burned by so many Natalie Winters before. It’s why I continue to give you guys grace while you debate whether or not I even exist.

I’m taking a break. I have to step back again. Sorry to my followers, who are mostly very nice people trying to support each other. Sorry for losing my temper, I hate doing that. But my kids aren’t white, you asshole. Neither am I.

I’m not a “fakeass lgbt,” and I’m not “fakeass poc,” and you need to ask yourself what you hope to accomplish by shutting me down. I have never, not even once, sent something like this to any of you. I wouldn’t.