i’m gonna refrain from reading the tags people leave on my art posts altogether because people don’t know how to behave.

i’ll probably take a little break from posting anything here as well because it’s clear that things are affecting me way more than they should because i’m not doing great.

I might explain why I chose the cards I did for Bell’s Hells when I’m feeling better, because tarot is something I’m not very knowledgeable about but I did put a lot of thought into my choices so the characters would fit both the meaning and the aesthetic of the cards and I see a lot of people in the tags questioning my choices, which is exactly what I was insecure about

two more cards and i’ll be done!

i’ve been thinking about doing an extra one with orym and will as the lovers because i’m funny like that but maybe i’ll leave that one for my next con? or for when i open preorders? idk idk

this is very silly but i’ve been wanting to draw dorian in one of my favorite outfits for a long time but i just don’t know if i’d dare to post it because it’s so terribly self-indulgent

I’ve been working on a lil something for a con I have in two weeks (bell’s hells as major arcana tarot cards) and I’m halfway done and I should get the rest of them done tonight but I have zero motivation

gay t4t love is so powerful and wholesome and joyful and healing and right

I’m almost home and I miss my baby terribly :( Had the best time of my life with them, though

me, from a coastal city, visiting my boyfriend’s coastal city for the very first time: OH MY GOD IS THAT THE FUCKING SEA

in a few hours i’ll be taking a train to go see my boyfriend whom i don’t see in person since 2019 and i am a little ball of ANXIETY

Well, it’s time for bad news

Only those closest to me know the whole thing, but life has been absolute hell for me for the past few weeks. My family life is in shambles, I’ve experienced a few bad relapses and I’ve been pushing through intense burnout up until my last con hoping that once it was over, I’d be doing fine again.

I’m not doing fine. I’m not even eating one full meal per day, I don’t have a single ounce of energy left in me and I cry unprompted all the fucking time. I’m not okay, and I can’t keep working pretending that I’m okay and that I only need to make it until my next deadline and then everything will be fine again.

I’m gonna take a hiatus from any art-related work, because it’s becoming one of the main stressors in my daily life and I need to step away from it for a while before it deteriorates my mental health even more. I don’t want to look back at what I do and feel that it was all sloppy and bad because I was hating what I was doing every step of the way.

This means that I’ll be pausing my personal projects, that I’ll be closing commissions for the time being and that the relaunch of my online shop will have to wait until things in my life calm down enough for me to feel ok again. I hate to disappoint people, but I literally can’t do this anymore. Not for the time being.

I hope you will all be understanding, and thanks for your constant support.

The con is over!!!! And I am (barely) alive!!! I’m gonna take a few days to rest but I’ll be preparing everything to relaunch my bigcartel so I can sell some con leftovers and open preorders for the Bell’s Hells tarot cards.

I won’t be able to sell the cards leftovers tho because I noticed there was a printing mistake and the reverse side is off-center and it’s making me. SO MAD. I don’t know if I’ll try to reprint them with the reverse side design again and hope that they will turn out okay this time or print them with no reverse side at all since they’re like. prints designed to look like tarot cards and not actual tarot cards. We’ll see.

Just made a quick doodle of Orym’s back muscles to de-stress between classes and I’m not gonna post it cause it’s very crappy but holy shit. I’m so gay. OTL

I KNOW YOU GUYS ARE BUSY WITH EUROVISION BUT!

BIRTH

romania trying to buy the spanish vote by having the chorus be in spanish… he knows what he’s doing

Thinking about my childhood and teenage years is so funny because nowadays people look at me and they get the vibe of “art kid who’s always been a bit introverted and frail” and like, that’s not how I was back then at all. Not only was I the biggest science nerd ever but, and this is the funniest part, I was also a MASSIVE JOCK. I don’t think I spent a single moment of my childhood/early teenage years being still. I did swimming for 8 years, I ran track for 4, then volleyball for another year, I did road cycling and I was a pretty decent climber, I used to be a freaking SKATER and I was absolutely obsessed with skiing for a while.