#dimension20 fantasy high
At a certain point I like to think Adaine begins seeing everything like, exactly 3 seconds before they happen. She’s living life exactly three seconds in the future, and it takes everybody two months to figure it out. It’s the trippiest shit, and her reacting to things before they happen is both a blessing and a curse
The thing about Fig and relationships is that she would cling onto any sort of non sexual intimacy she came across, never looking to form a connection with the people she came into contact with. When she became a strangers lover it was never a reciprocated feeling of romance, it was just a way to reap the rewards of having somebody love you without the venerability or having to go through the process of forming that relationship and not wanting to fuck up your current ones. She feels like the people that were supposed to love her don’t so maybe it’ll be a good enough “gotcha” if she can find somebody to kiss that will count instead. That’s why I think her relationship with Ayda is so genuinely important to her development as a character, since it’s fundamentally opposed to any relationship, platonic or otherwise, that she’s formed over the course of fantasy high. It’s entirely honest and vulnerable with no question of loyalty, which is everything Fig has avoided up til now and everything that she needs.
Fig finding her relationship with Ayda so easy but so difficult because? Somebody loves her for her but also, that somebody could always be taken away, but Fig really loves her too, but vulnerability is so hard? And she’s able to be completely 100% honest with Ayda without guilt or worry but sometimes the reality of life catches up with her and being honest feels like pulling skin off scrap by scrap. But she does it anyways because that’s what’s healthy and fig is self aware enough to understand that damnit and Ayda deserves love and honesty and everything beautiful she can give to her because Ayda is amazing. And it’s hard but loving her is worth it
Fig after spending months believing that the only way to be loved is to lie and trick people into loving you but then falling in love with someone who would do anything for her and only the real her
