#enough for you
enough for you | r.l.
not my gif!!!
warnings: angst, breakup, remus moving on, smoking,
(lyrics in purple)

i wore makeup when we dated
cause i thought you’d like me more
if i looked like the other prom queens
i know that you loved before
dear remus,
i still love you
my first love, the boy i would’ve given the sun and moon for, you’re sitting there with your arms wrapped around your new girl. while your friends laughed at one of your lame jokes you took the chance to place a kiss in the girls’ beautiful blonde hair.
it made me think think of all of the times i went out of my way to put on makeup before seeing you, or changing my style in clothes just to make it more like likable for you. i should’ve known, knowing all of the prom queen worthy girls you had wrapped around your fingers in the past, you could have anyone you want.
and i knew how you took your coffee
and your favorite songs by heart
i read all of your self-help books
so you’d think that i was smart
stupid, emotional, obsessive, little me
i knew from the start this is exactly how you’d leave
and all of the times i went out of my way to pick up some coffee for you, black with one sugar, everyday. i knew that order like the back of my hands.
i learned your favorite songs on the guitar just to impress you, i went out of my way to listen to all of the artist you liked just so you’d like me more.
i read all the books you liked so we had something to talk about. i made notes on them and lost sleep just so i could keep up with you.
you found someone better, and you left. i always knew it would happen but it was a surprise it happened so soon.
you found someone more exciting
the next second, you were gone
and you left me there cryin’, wonderin’ what I did wrong
and you always say i’m never satisfied
but i don’t think that’s true
‘cause all i ever wanted was to be enough for you
she’s so much more talented and prettier than me, no flaws, pretty green eyes, kindness, so talented, i couldn’t compete.
couldn’t you even tell me what i did wrong? was it too much to ask for a reason you decided to leave? and my best friend?
the two people i loved and trusted most stabbed me in the back.
all i ever wanted was to be enough for you. i quit smoking and tried my best to make you happy and not make you regret being with me. i just wanted to make you happy, that’s all.
and maybe i’m just not as interesting
as the girls you had before
but god, you couldn’t have cared less
about someone who loved you more
were your standards too high? or was i just not enough?
i remember when you helped me quit smoking, it made me realize you cared. now i’m smoking more than ever. i feel so alone.
come back to me.
now i don’t want your sympathy
i just want myself back
when you saw me smoking and crying you held me and told me to stop, i don’t want your sympathy. if you decided to leave me at my worst then that’s on you.
what hurts most is that i know i’m never getting myself back. and it’s all because of you.
don’t you think i loved you too much to be used and discarded?
don’t you think I loved you too much to think I deserve nothing?
don’t you think it’s shitty that you left the person that loved you most in the world for someone who you talked to once or twice before?
i loved you more than i’d ever loved myself. i gave up everything. but you seem to have loved her.
-yours forever , y/n
i left the note on his doorstep and left,
i left everything behind.
my family, my friends, remus.
i cant live like this anymore.
