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enough for you ll / r.l.

not my gif!!

SOUR masterlist|enough for you, part one

warnings: angst, remus realizing things, not proof read.

(also a few t.A.T.u lyrics lol)

a/n: this ones kinda short bc there’s not rlly a lot of ways to end this lol, i’m sorry

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“loved you more than i’d ever loved myself. i gave up everything. but you seem to have loved her.”

is this really how they felt? fuck, i never meant to hurt them. i’ve looked everywhere, everywhere. even the special tree they went to when they had to think or just cry. i went to their dorm and there was nothing there. i lost them.

i mean, it’s almost the end of the year right? maybe they went home early? no, they wouldn’t. hogwarts has always been their escape, right??

all the things she said, running through my head, they’re running through my head. nothing comes up. i wish i could apologize.

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have i lost my mind? i always imagine them, imagine them walking around, i miss you y/n. please come back.

~~*time skip bc i don’t feel like writing abt his summer lol*~~

I’m at the train station. i broke up with my girlfriend because i just can’t bare the thought of y/n being upset. i’m gonna make things right. they’re my everything.

i saw a notebook fall in front of me, i picked it up and went to give it back to its owner. i was too wrapped up in my own thoughts that i didn’t even see a figure in front of me, talking to somebody.

“hey is this yours? it fell.”

they turn around, they look different. longer hair, and it had little purple streaks in it. it looked charming.

“y/n..” i saw them shift uncomfortably “oh, thanks.”

they started speed walking away and i tried to stop them, saying “y/n can we please talk? i want to apologize” “you don’t have to, i’m over it. have a good day remus” that tone was like a shot to the heart.

i spent months, months.trying to get them back. they moved on. there’s nothing i can do about it, i lost them.

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Mon, 05 Jul 2021 01:24:15

enough for you | r.l.

not my gif!!!

SOURmasterlist|part two

warnings: angst, breakup, remus moving on, smoking,

(lyrics in purple)

i wore makeup when we dated

cause i thought you’d like me more

if i looked like the other prom queens

i know that you loved before

dear remus,

~~i still love you~~

my first love, the boy i would’ve given the sun and moon for, you’re sitting there with your arms wrapped around your new girl. while your friends laughed at one of your lame jokes you took the chance to place a kiss in the girls’ beautiful blonde hair.

it made me think think of all of the times i went out of my way to put on makeup before seeing you, or changing my style in clothes just to make it more like likable for you. i should’ve known, knowing all of the prom queen worthy girls you had wrapped around your fingers in the past, you could have anyone you want.

and i knew how you took your coffee

and your favorite songs by heart

i read all of your self-help books

so you’d think that i was smart

stupid, emotional, obsessive, little me

i knew from the start this is exactly how you’d leave

and all of the times i went out of my way to pick up some coffee for you, black with one sugar, everyday. i knew that order like the back of my hands.

i learned your favorite songs on the guitar just to impress you, i went out of my way to listen to all of the artist you liked just so you’d like me more.

i read all the books you liked so we had something to talk about. i made notes on them and lost sleep just so i could keep up with you.

you found someone better, and you left. i always knew it would happen but it was a surprise it happened so soon.

you found someone more exciting

the next second, you were gone

and you left me there cryin’, wonderin’ what I did wrong

and you always say i’m never satisfied

but i don’t think that’s true

‘cause all i ever wanted was to be enough for you

she’s so much more talented and prettier than me, no flaws, pretty green eyes, kindness, so talented, i couldn’t compete.

couldn’t you even tell me what i did wrong? was it too much to ask for a reason you decided to leave? and my best friend?

the two people i loved and trusted most stabbed me in the back.

all i ever wanted was to be enough for you. i quit smoking and tried my best to make you happy and not make you regret being with me. i just wanted to make you happy, that’s all.

and maybe i’m just not as interesting

as the girls you had before

but god, you couldn’t have cared less

about someone who loved you more

were your standards too high? or was i just not enough?

i remember when you helped me quit smoking, it made me realize you cared. now i’m smoking more than ever. i feel so alone.

~~come back to me.~~

now i don’t want your sympathy

i just want myself back

when you saw me smoking and crying you held me and told me to stop, i don’t want your sympathy. if you decided to leave me at my worst then that’s on you.

what hurts most is that i know i’m never getting myself back. and it’s all because of you.