#grayson davenport hawthorne
“Grayson Hawthorne was arrogant enough to consider himself bulletproof— and honorable enough to see a promise through to its end.”
Grayson Davenport Hawthorne: White Collar
I JUST WANNA TAKE A MOMENT TO ACKNOWLEDGE THAT THIS HAPPENED
Avery’s POV in The Hawthorne Legacy (2021)
“You son of a bitch.” The words cut through the darkness in a way that nothing else had since I’d been here. The voice was Jameson’s again, but louder this time, sharper, like the edge of a knife. “She was dying, and you just stood there! And don’t tell me it was shock.”
[….]“You would know, Jamie, about standing there and watching someone die.”
“Emily. It always comes back to Emily with you.”
[…]“You know what I think, Gray? I think the whole martyr act was a lie you told yourself. I don’t think you stepped back from Avery for my sake. I think you needed an excuse to draw a line so you could stay safe on the other side.”
“You don’t know what you’re talking about.”
“You can’t let go. You couldn’t when Emily was alive, no matter what she did, and you can’t now.”
“Are you done?” Grayson was yelling now.
“Avery was dying, and you couldn’t run toward her.”
“What do you want from me, Jamie?”
“You think I didn’t fight the same fight? I halfway convinced myself that as long as Avery was just a riddle or a puzzle, as long as I was just playing, I’d be fine. Well, joke’s on me, because somewhere along the way, I stopped playing.”
I can hear you. I can hear every word. I’m right here—
“What do you want from me?”
“Look at her, Gray. Look at her, damn it! Est unus ex nobis. Nos defendat eius.”
She is one of us. We protect her. Whatever Grayson said in response was lost to the sound of a crashing wave.
Grayson’s POV in The Hawthorne Legacy bonus chapters
Grayson flew back. He landed hard. Pain surging, he tried to sit up. He couldn’t breathe, and Avery—
Avery.He staggered to his feet. He didn’t see her, not at first, but then he saw Oren, standing over something.
Someone.
He had to move. He had to get to her. He just couldn’t keep standing there. If only he could get her, then—
What?a voice whispered deep inside him.What do you think you can do, Grayson Davenport Hawthorne?
It was a girl’s voice. A familiar one.
You can’t save her, Emily whispered. Just like you couldn’t save me.
WHEN HE FELL THE FIRST THING HE THOUGHT OF WAS AVERY.
HE KNEW HE WANTED TO DO SOMETHING
he couldn’t let go of the failure he was for not saving emily not because he still loved emily. grayson never wanted to “stay safe on the other side”
and basically the conversation between grayson and jameson that avery heard was a part of the catalyst that led avery to choose jamie.
AND THUS
Of the first day I’d met him. How arrogant he’d been, how sure of himself and his place in the world. I thought about the first time I’d caught him really looking at me, and the way he’d told me that I had an expressive face. I thought about bargains struck and promises made and stolen moments and words spoken in Latin.
But mostly I thought about the ways that the two of us were alike. “I had a dream,” I told him. “When I was in the coma. You and Jameson were fighting. About me.”
“Avery…” Grayson lowered his sword.
“In my dream,” I continued, “Jameson was angry that you didn’t run toward me. That I was lying there at death’s door, and you couldn’t move. But, Grayson?” I waited for him to look at me, with silver eyes and the weight of the world on his shoulders. “I’m not angry. I’ve spent my entire life not running toward anyone. I know what’s it like to just stand there—to not be able to do anything else. I know what it’s like to lose someone.”
I thought about my mom, then Emily.
someone give me the third book already. i cannot handle this pain.
I WILL N E V E R let go of the fact that
In the bonus chapter under Grayson’s POV
“She’s not yours to protect,” Jameson repeated. He tensed against Grayson’s hold for only a second or two. “She’s not mine, either.” Jameson tapped out.
Grayson stood and reached a hand down.
Jameson took it. “She’s her own damn person, Grayson, and she can make decisions for herself.”
And then we see Avery’s POV in THL
Grayson stepped between the two of us and past Jameson—and kept on walking. “I’ll leave you three to it,” he said. Near the doorway, he paused. “But, Jamie? You’re wrong.”And then Grayson said something in a language I deeply suspected was Latin.
Jameson’s eyes flashed, and he responded in the same language.
[…]
“Est unus ex nobis. Nos defendat eius. As I’d suspected, it was Latin. An online translator told me that it meant It is one of us. We protect it.Jameson’s response, Scio, meant I know. It only took me one more search to realize that the same translation would hold if it was replaced with she. She is one of us. We protect her.”
long before Jameson nor Grayson could voice or accept their feelings GRAYSON ALREADY INGRAINED IN HIS MIND THAT AVERY WAS ONE OF THEM
HE MEANT EVERYTHING ABOUT PROTECTING HER BUT HE HAD TO KEEP HIS DISTANCE BECAUSE HE KNEW HIS BROTHER LIKED HER TOO
i will die on this averygrayson hill.
