#gustavo santaolalla

buckleymecca:

I still remember the first time I saw this film. I remember I haven’t seen the trailer or any idea about the movie. A good friend just recommended this to me and so I went to the nearest cinema and watch this.

The whole film is a moving art in all forms, shapes and sizes. It’s beautiful. It hasn’t sunk in yet to me at the time that I am experiencing a masterpiece before my eyes. The whole experience as the story progresses was so heavy and sad. The unspoken words, the longing, the betrayal, the fear, the stigma, the love.

I feel sorry for Alma (Michelle Williams). Though it was short, her performance left a mark on the film. Very well acted. Kudos too to Anne Hathaway. From Princess Diaries movies to flashing her boobs on this film was just a smooth yet daring transition to me at the time. Jake Gyllenhaal was amazing. Very relatable character. Great performance and I mean really great.

But this film belongs to Heath Ledger. His take on Ennis del Mar was something I haven’t seen for an actor for a very long time. His facial gestures, mannerisms, the way he mumbled his words when he speaks. I felt his pain and his baggage all throughout the movie. His performance was perfection. He isn’t Heath. He was Ennis del Mar.

The final minute of the movie on his trailer alone was already building up all my emotions. When he opened his closet to reveal his and Jack’s shirt along with The Brokeback mountain photo above and Ennis’ teary eyes just had me bawling like a child in the cinema. I have never felt something so gut wrenching like that. Ennis’ eyes speaks so much love yet so much regret and sadness. The amazing Gustavo Santaolalla’s guitar strings made it even more heartbreaking. I remember I didn’t left the theater right away as the credits are still rolling. From coming in to the theater excitedly to enjoy a movie to coming out of the theater with baggy eyes and felt like depressed your whole life in just a span of 2 hours lol.

I cried not only for Jack and Ennis’ love story. I cried for myself. The emotions on this films reflects of my own emotions in the world. Some may be happy, some are regrets.

I will never ever forget this film. After all these years, this scene never fails to make me not just cry but feel so deeply with gut-punching sadness.

Thank you Heath Ledger, Jake Gyllenhaal and most especially to Ang Lee for this masterpiece.

I will forever treasure this, I swear!

Brokeback mountain 2005