#heartwrenching
I still remember the first time I saw this film. I remember I haven’t seen the trailer or any idea about the movie. A good friend just recommended this to me and so I went to the nearest cinema and watch this.
The whole film is a moving art in all forms, shapes and sizes. It’s beautiful. It hasn’t sunk in yet to me at the time that I am experiencing a masterpiece before my eyes. The whole experience as the story progresses was so heavy and sad. The unspoken words, the longing, the betrayal, the fear, the stigma, the love.
I feel sorry for Alma (Michelle Williams). Though it was short, her performance left a mark on the film. Very well acted. Kudos too to Anne Hathaway. From Princess Diaries movies to flashing her boobs on this film was just a smooth yet daring transition to me at the time. Jake Gyllenhaal was amazing. Very relatable character. Great performance and I mean really great.
But this film belongs to Heath Ledger. His take on Ennis del Mar was something I haven’t seen for an actor for a very long time. His facial gestures, mannerisms, the way he mumbled his words when he speaks. I felt his pain and his baggage all throughout the movie. His performance was perfection. He isn’t Heath. He was Ennis del Mar.
The final minute of the movie on his trailer alone was already building up all my emotions. When he opened his closet to reveal his and Jack’s shirt along with The Brokeback mountain photo above and Ennis’ teary eyes just had me bawling like a child in the cinema. I have never felt something so gut wrenching like that. Ennis’ eyes speaks so much love yet so much regret and sadness. The amazing Gustavo Santaolalla’s guitar strings made it even more heartbreaking. I remember I didn’t left the theater right away as the credits are still rolling. From coming in to the theater excitedly to enjoy a movie to coming out of the theater with baggy eyes and felt like depressed your whole life in just a span of 2 hours lol.
I cried not only for Jack and Ennis’ love story. I cried for myself. The emotions on this films reflects of my own emotions in the world. Some may be happy, some are regrets.
I will never ever forget this film. After all these years, this scene never fails to make me not just cry but feel so deeply with gut-punching sadness.
Thank you Heath Ledger, Jake Gyllenhaal and most especially to Ang Lee for this masterpiece.
I will forever treasure this, I swear!
Brokeback mountain 2005
You were once the most powerful villain. You retired early and are engaged to a minor super hero who isn’t aware of your past. They are about to be killed right before your eyes..but you step in.
She asks him why maybe a dozen times before they decide to get married. It’s not hard to figure out where he goes in the little hours of the morning, not hard to follow him to the edges of forests and abandoned towns and deserts, not hard to smell the spandex, blood and sweat that he wears home. He’s always got bags under his eyes and dirt under his nails and the blood that stains their welcome mat is more often his than not.
So she asks him why before they decide to get married because for all her mysteries, she can’t have him be one.
(Hypocrite isn’t the worst name she’s ever been called.)
He hardly looks surprised at the question, lips quirking as his fingers find the condensation on the glass in front of him. He runs his forefinger up the side, the move thoughtlessly seductive, before drawing it away. The water follows, a thin stream of twisting molecules for a long moment before the tension snaps and it forms a circle hovering above the pad of his finger.
“I may not be a Superhero,” he says, “or even a hero. But when I needed someone, when I reallyneeded someone, a superhero was there. It’s an amazing thing to experience. The rescue. The salvation. It’s…indescribable. It makes you thankful in way you didn’t know you could be.” He allows the water to drop to the diner table and gives her a warm, nostalgic smile. “I want everyone to have that, even if it’s just some guy in a mask with a spray of water at his command. I became Zone for that and I’ve never regretted it. Not once. ”
She’s surprised by the moisture gathering at the corners of her eyes. She hasn’t cried in public for years, normally doesn’t even have to worry about the possibility after years of being on guard. That’s what’s special about Gannon; he makes her feel vulnerable and safe all at once. Comforted. Able to exist within herself, at peace.
She reaches past her empty breakfast plate to cover his hand with her hot palm. The smile she returns is new, her most precious treasure and something she’d never think twice about giving him.
He’s the one who helped her find it after all.
