#haikyuu x yn
square ; akaashi keiji
warnings implied cheating
genre angst, fwbs
word count 0.6k
inspiration square, mitski + wonder what she thinks of me, chloe x halle
synopsis you never were going to be able to fit in the structure of akaashi’s life, no matter how much he wanted you to
author’s note this certainly hurt but this is an old draft ‘cause i’m still in a slump :/
You heaved out a sigh as Akaashi rolled off of you. Immediately he covered you up with newly pressed sheets. Your head lying on his matching pillowcase. Together, you stared at his plain ceiling, like always. There was no creases, no dents, no marks.
Nothing.
Akaashi was the first to shift around, opting to having his back face you as he checked his phone. Like always. You spared him a quick glance before following suit. Nearly wincing when you were met with a nicely framed picture of him and her.
The one this side of the bed rightfully belonged to.
Swallowing your guilt, you let your eyes drift. Akaashi’s room was clean, like always. His wall art were even, his desk area was neat, his closer was even neater. Everything was orderly. Everything had a place. Then there was you,
It wasn’t like it was your first time picking up on this. You made note of this the first time you stumbled into Akaashi’s room. Messily making out with him amongst his spotless room. Even with your head in the clouds you knew then that you didn’t fit.
How could you when the spot you wanted was already taken? There’s never really any room for someone who’s usually just a late night call. No room for someone who’s just supposed to fill a space temporarily.
But for some reason Akaashi kept you around. Maybe it was because you both were— and still are good friends. He tried to make space for you. Yet, in the end you knew it would never work.
“Hey,” almost on cue, Akaashi called out for you. You didn’t look at him, bringing your attention back to the nightstand that belonged to her.
“Are you alright?” The bed shook slightly when Akaashi turned on his other side. You nodded. She was so pretty, and so sweet. So talented, so smart, so… perfect.Why would Akaashi want to sacrifice this perfect fit in his life to have something with you?
He sighed, the air meeting your back. Following was the pressing of his chest as he reached over you to lay down the frame. You frowned.
“Don’t worry ‘bout her, ‘kay?” Akaashi draped his arm over you, his lips meeting your neck.
You gulped. You couldn’t take this anymore, you couldn’t take being a burden. The words hurt you more to say than Akaashi to hear, “We can’t do this anymore.I, can’t do this anymore…”
You could feel air get caught in Akaashi’s throat. “What do you mean?” He knew what you meant, obviously.
His arm fell from your body as you sat up. “I don’t fit here, Akaashi. I should just go.” Your eyes started searching for you clothes that were thrown and scattered across his flawless carpet. No spots, no trash, nothing.
Akaashi sat up with you, a look of confusion twisted on his face. “What does that even mean, ___?”
You bit your tongue and proceeded to climb out of his bed. Taking your clothes into your hands and shuffling them on.
“___, I want you to stay.” Painfully, those words made your heart skip a beat. Of course, you had to fall for Akaashi and his routine. Even if it didn’t make anything special of you.
You inhaled deeply, slipping into your shoes. “Just— keep things strong with her, okay? You guys are meant to be. You’re a really good guy, sorry for causing so much trouble.” The last sentence was muttered while you made your way to Akaashi’s bedroom door.
You heard him shuffle on his own clothes, exclaiming a wait at you. But you were already out the door.
Silently, you said goodbye to Akaashi and his perfectly square room. Where there was no longer any confusion, any intrusion, and no you.
three step plan—3.29 (live = love)
— With Kodzuken’s fans speculating about his relationship status, his friends start shipping him with Y/n. Falling in love is a three step plan, right?
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