#im good with how things are

I’ve moved quite firmly into “don’t want to know, really truly WON’T be looking more” wrt the “real” identity of this new deity, chiefly because I’m aware of how much having myths and etc. to refer to can lead a person to question the validity of their experiences, or have stupid arguments with a god, even when you know that dealing with a god directly often … doesn’t match up neatly with recorded myths. Or much at all; I can’t say that the experience of dealing with Loki is a real easy fit with what I’ve seen in the Eddas. And also knowing how spirits interact to some degree based on what you already know/think you know about them, and I suspect I’m better off using the “filters” that this dude provided me, rather than whatever myths, etc., are out there because otherwise, he’d have told me otherwise himself.

This was perhapsinfluenced in some small way by doing yet-another shitty web search on some things, looking at a site that was obviously garbage yet hit far too many notes, giggling nervously and saying “what the fuck what the fuck,” going to a better source (wikipedia; don’t judge me), reading a page or two (neither of which, surprising no one, backed up the shitty website!), and doing the equivalent of slamming the book shut and saying “Yeah, okay, no, don’t want to know.”