We Belong Together || Soft Yandere Jungkook

♡ Pairing: Soft Yandere!Jeon Jungkook x fem reader

♡ Word count:5.8k

♡ Genre: Angst (m),  Soft yandere! Jungkook, smut, toxic relationship.

♡ summary: Your boyfriend cheated on you, when you confront him about it you didn’t expect to see him so broken.

♡Trigger warnings: soft yandere Jungkook, abusive behavior from readers part (physical and psychological), intercourse, blood, oral sex, suic1de attempt, manipulation, noncon, age gap of 5 years.

♡Song- JK POV: The Neighbourhood – WDYWFM

♡ a/n: I hope you enjoy it, this one has to be the most toxic dynamic I ever written, the ending was going to be so fucked up, but I changed it, anyways, please comment and dm for feedback, or Im also accepting REQUESTS, xooxox.

“Don’t touch me Jungkook!” you yelled at the teary face of Jungkook that was at the edge of a breakdown, you felt nothing but pity and disgust for the man the once made you laugh and feel heaven with his touch.

“Nuna, I just want to talk, please” he begged crying his eyes out, while instinctively getting closer to you, you stepped back unconsciously.

He started to panic more, his eyes swollen and red full of tears, Jungkook was shaking and started to slur the words that came out of his mouth, he was distressed and broken, no much time he has left until he can no longer keep it together.

There it was, your cheater boyfriend before your eyes begging for forgiveness, Jungkook could not keep his dick in his pants the time you spent apart, you had a one-week trip to Jeju with your friends, you weren’t expecting to fight the night before you went, but you also didn’t expect the way you boyfriend broke your trust and slept with someone else. You also were confused when you heard his sobbing at the other side of the line when he called you the third day of your trip, he made you abandon your friends because he was worrying you so much, the bitter truth later came out when he confessed the seconds you entered his apartment, he just immediately admitted what he did completely regretful but too late to mend his mistake.

Why he did it? You weren’t sure if you cared for the answer, infidelity was a boundary that was unbreakable for you and him too, and you promised yourself every time you started a new relationship that you won’t tolerate that shit to anyone, not even your perfect boy, Kookie.

It was a shock for you, Jungkook was the most dedicated boyfriend that you ever had, he always put you first, was the most eager for the future of your relationship, could not spent more than two days without calling you to tell you that he misses you and want to hang out, he was sweetest to you, constantly demanding the affections that the lack of could be the death of him. Men are all the same, you could only sadly conclude, you wished to notice the red flags.

Oh wished you did.

“Nuna, please, I was confused and blackout drunk, I hate myself so much, please forgive me, please, please!” he cried babbling, he was definitely upset about his actions, but you could not forgive his lack of self-control, you didn’t care for his instant regret and his immediate action after the treason, the damage was done and you could not see him the same way never again, trying to fix this mess only make you insecure of your boyfriend actions for the rest of the relationship, you would be better if you move on as quickly as possible.

“Jungkook, I don’t fucking care, while I was upset because of our fight, during my whole trip I felt awful, but you were getting drunk and fucking other girls!” you spatted at him, admitting out loud what he had done hurt you so bad, your decision of leaving him seen as the correct one.

“I just did it once, I hate myself so much for it, nuna, I was going crazy with you far away, I was so-“ he had to pause to sob “I was so fucking sad, you said a lot mean things, nuna” he tried to explain while crying his lip quivering “I’ll do anything, please, I’m so-rry”

The only thing you could do was shook your head disappointed in him, because it did not matter how upset you ever felt after a fight, cheating was out of the question, he only seamed to get more desperate.

“Nuna～” he begged trying to control his sobs.

“Jungkook, I just simply don’t want to continue listening to you, I just need to get out of here” you said to him cold as ice, while walking to his room to collect your stuff.

“You what?” he asked confused while following you, he found you packing some of the clothes you left at his house, after all you spend a lot of time together, you staying even weeks before going back to your own home. “WHAT ARE YOU DOING, NUNA?” Of course, at his altered state he tried to stop you from packing your stuff violently ripping it out of your hands, you wanted to scream out of frustration, but the best you could do right now was to leave.

“I’m leaving you, I can’t continue this after what you did” you tell him trying to get your bag back but he throw it at the other side of room in panic.

“NO! no, no, no“ he tried to calm himself to talk properly “Nuna you promised me-, you promised me you’ll never leave me, we promised we would overcome any trouble TOGETHER!” he screamed  “I love you too much, I can’t-“ his speech was fast so you almost could not make out what he was saying.

“I said that, but both made clear that infidelity was a line that could never be crossed!- He dropped to his knees grabbing you by your waist his hands latching to your clothes ”Jungkook calm down, jeez” you could not help but to worry at his state,.

“You don’t understand, I don’t want to live without you, nuna- If you leave me, I prefer to be dead” he sounded so broken that it almost made you cry, somehow you did not react fast enough when he reached under his bed for his handgun, the one he told you he only keep as a memory of his late uncle.

Panic and shock impeded you to move of your tracks, he took the gun and pointed it to his temple without hesitation. You felt the blood leaving your body and how lightheaded you suddenly became.

“Jungkook, sweetheart, put that down” you manage to said as docile and complicit as you could, but he shook his head closing his eyes with force,

“NO!” He exclaimed unlocking the trigger, you felt your soul at your feet ”I swear to god I will do it, life doesn’t makes sense if we can’t be together”

“STOP! Kookie please! I-“ your first tears fell “I forgive you, baby, I forgive you” he opened his eyes looking at yours in search for hope “please, baby, give me the gun” you plead to him.

“Are you going to stay, nuna?” his pouted lip still quivering.

“Yes, I’ll stay here with you, we would find a way to overcome this” at this point you could say anything, whatever it took to keep him and you safe. He slowly pulled away the gun from his temple, and with shaky hands he handed it out to you, with equally shaky hands you took the gun and right away you emptied it’s whole capacity, bullets falling to the ground, while you put the weapon far of his reach. Jungkook right after jumped to your arms sobbing some more while apologizing repeatedly.

“Good boy, good boy” you whispered to him brushing his hair softly with your fingers, his jet black locks smelling so good like baby shampoo and little bit of him, you hold you both in this vulnerable moment.

His face in the crook of your neck hot tears wetting your shirt, his far stronger arms locked in very tight hold of your waist, your hands also caressing his back to get him to calm down, he breathed a few more times, relaxing at your touch, in this position you were not be able to notice the little winning smirk on his face.

“I love you so much, yn” he said to you in a voice so sweet like honey. ” You could change me, babe, I know I did wrong” you stopped caressing his back, realizing that you have to stay like this until he’s stabilized enough.

“Hmm” you hummed, without being convinced.

“Say it back, baby” he urged you separating and looking at your eyes, still fragile.

“I love you, Jungkookie” you felt like crying some more, but you repressed your tears.

“I love you too, nuna, I will always love you” he said to you hugging you again, this time in a more interesting position, he made the bold movement of kissing your neck, which took you by surprise, he pressed his body against yours, kissing your neck nearer to your face, and taking your hands putting them in his abs and finally laying them on his chest.

“Kookie, what are you doing?” you said nervous, started to feel aroused and confused at the other intense emotions.

“I want you, nuna, right now” he said, his hands pressing your waist, you almost let go a moan “You wouldn’t reject me, right?” he said this time kissing you, his tongue sliding inside your mouth making lewd noises he letting out a small whimper. Inside his mind, he was happy you fall into his helplessness gimmick; at the end he would get what he wanted.

“Wait, Jungkook, I don’t think we should-ah” you moaned when he grabbed your ass while biting your neck, you were so confused, but he was being so tempting…

“Nuna, are you wet?” he asked innocently, while sliding his hand in your pants, you felt his cold fingers make contact with your underwear rubbing your clit over the fabric of your panties, confirming your wetness “Are you getting off of this, huh?” he asked smiling so mockingly “You saw me crying for you, on my knees so desperate and you felt turned on by that, nuna?” he move skillfully his fingers through your slit “I almost kill myself for you, and you liked that” he chuckled “You are so sick, nuna” he whispered winning smile on his face.

You suddenly felt the contains of your stomach coming to your throat, no longer feeling any pleasure, you saw the full picture, the manipulation, the execution, everything.

Jungkook was fucked up in the head.

He continues to pleasure you while kissing you, so he was surprised when you pull him apart.

“Baby?” he asked confused, big doe eyes blinking.

“Shut up, and on your knees, now” you ordered him, he hesitated at your instructions” Now!” you repeated and he obeyed.

“Face me” he looked at you immediately, you proceeded to hit his face as hard as you could, you knew he could take it. The dry sound of the slap echoed through the room as the face of Jungkook turned by force of the hit saw you disconcerted.

“Nu-“ another slap as hard as the first one arrived to his other side, this time a string of blood descended from his nostril.

“What the FUCK is wrong with you, you damn creep!” you hit him again and once more, just to grab his now again tearful face and spit with disgust. He cleaned the saliva mixed with his tears with his shaky hands, no smile on sight.

You sighted and put your hands on your hips, desperate to get out of that situation.

“You could have only…” he started to say with the most softspoken voice.

“You can stand up, or whatever” you interrupted him with a gesture.”Ahg you’re such a mess” you watch the shocked figure of Jungkook standing before you, blood reached his lips, his eyes wet full of tears and some of your own saliva, down in his sweatpants a big hard erection.

“I-I couldn’t  help it, nuna, I…” he stuttered, again the pity took over you, also the horror, you don´t feel safe with such unstable individual and gun nearby, the next steps were crucial.

“It’s ok, just do something about it” you managed to say, he looked so lost.

“Can you help..me?” he bitted his blood tinted lip “Can you take care of it, n-nuna, please?” he said softspoken.

You didn’t want this situation to escalate but also you didn’t want to lose control, he could turn around at any moment.

“You are not allowed to touch me while I do it” he laid on his bed and pull his sweatpants off, leaving you to it, his long cock jumped to almost reach Jungkook’s bellybutton pre seminal liquid on the tip, not enough to lubricate, so you spited on his cock making him pant, you started pumping it, there is no way you give him oral after all the shit that you just went through.

He was enjoying it, moaning and moving his hips while you pump his cock.

“Feels so good, nuna” he said breathing heavily, with a little more pressure and with a faster pace you knew he was about to cum, soon enough he could not resist to take your hand to add more speed while he reached his orgasm, white spurts of his cum landing on his stomach. Your hand was covered on it too, on his face pure bliss.

“Clean yourself, I’m going to get me a glass of water” you said to him, he nodded and cleaned his semen with some wipes he had beside his bed, you went to the kitchen after washing your hands looking your reflection on the mirror, the dreaded look in your eyes made realized that you needed a plan.

You drink fast the water thinking, thinking and thinking.

You knew Jungkook had sleeping problems, sure there is a prescription pills somewhere on here, if you can manage to make him sleep soundly, then you could remove yourself from the situation without resistance. But the figure of Jungkook appears all of the sudden, interrupting your thoughts.

“We both are on edge, but it’s ok babe, soon enough everything would be just as before” he kissed your cheek missing out how you flinched.

“Yeah” you replied. “I actually was going to suggest that both rest separately to process what just happened, I’m gonna prepare some tea” you said trying to sound convincing, he nodded and went to his room.

You search through the cabinets looking out for the sleeping pills, you were about to give up but at the last attempt bingo!

The chamomile tea mixed with the drug was unsuspecting resting on a mug that you later extended to Jungkook that drank it without second thoughts, you waited 40 minutes and there it was Jungkook resting face, so perfect.

Who would suspect of his bunny like features? 

You got no time to lose, you searched for the number of Jungkook’s brother and give him instructions to take care of him, you packed you stuff and took away the gun and bullets, with hurry you left everything behind.

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A couple of months had passed since your dramatic break up with Jungkook, you had to block him and rent in another place, you wanted as much distance as possible, it made realized your relationship was never a healthy one, though Jungkook appeared as the perfect boyfriend, you noticed that his attachment was excessive and there were several behaviors that you took as he caring about you but in reality he was controlling you and manipulating you, but are not going to confuse love with fixation anymore.

You did a lot of growing and processing the very tragic way in how things ended between you and him, he did try to go after you, of course, but you did your best to have a low profile, putting yourself on hermit mode until you moved on, wishing Jungkook could do the same.

But he actually did the exact opposite.

At your residential flat, in a relaxed Friday night, all the university students that lived in there were out partying, you preferring to slug on your couch watching some movies instead, you were so immerse that you did not hear the door opening and how Jungkook approximated near you, it was until he presented himself before you that you almost feel your soul leaving your body.

And boy, he changed, the fragile looking self was gone, instead this stoic tough exterior took its place, he dressed all black, he was wearing a trench coat as well, leather gloves, he looked terrifying in fact.

His dark expression glaring back at you, making you shiver of fear. What in the world could he be doing in your flat, in the middle of the night dressed like that?

Looking so good but also like the devil himself.

“Goodnight, yn” he spoke, tone low and playful.

“Jungkook?, what the hell are you doing here? How did you enter the house?” you questioned while sinking in your couch hoping to be teletransported to another place.

“Are you serious? Five months playing cat and mouse with me and still have no clue, silly nuna” he mocked you taking a seat in the chair next to you.

“I wasn’t playing anything, I left you and move on” you told him, as you saw how he crossed his legs, he was amused.

“It’s that so?” he chuckled; you were starting to get pissed off.

“Look Jungkook, I got time to think and I came with some conclusions that would be more than appropriate that you listen to” you said, he didn’t fail to notice your condescending tone.

“I’m listening, nuna” he said to you getting comfortable in his chair.

“What just happened the last time we saw each other was just proof that this relationship was doomed from the very beginning, to start I’m convinced that you are not necessarily in love with…me” you said pointing at yourself, he raised an eyebrow his expression remained dark and unreadable.

“What are you even saying” he scoffed bitterly.

“I mean that, you were clearly going through some stuff and I happen to be in the right place and time, but if i weren’t available at that moment it would be another girl that would be at my place!” you accused.

“Bullshit, I could NEVER love anybody to the extend I love you; you clearly can’t even comprehend it, you abandon me after all” he spitted to you, resentment noted on every word he spoke.

“That’s the thing, whatever qualities you attribute to me are not REAL, Jungkook, I cannot save you, I am not made for you, you don’t need me, and I don’t need you, whatever happened to you, there are better ways to cope, I can even help y-…” you stopped speaking when Jungkook took out of his trench coat and took a new gun and pointed it at you, he unlocked the trigger.

“Ugh you are so annoying sometimes” he said with a gesture “thinking you talk so eloquently, rambling about how I have this and that, but you don’t see yourself in the mirror, nuna” he said with defiance.

“Jungkoo…”

“Shut the fuck up” he demanded with a yell standing up “You are a sadist, with your fucking gaslighting and lies, you are also refusing to believe that i love you, rationalizing my behavior so you can only conclude that something in not working right in my head” he touched his temple with the gun but pointed it back at you again “But I mean it, when said it, you are a sick fuck.” And he laughed manic at his accusations. 

You were fucked, there it no way you’ll make it, he was completely lost of any salvation.

“Don’t you see it?!” you sobbed desperate “This is not love, you just have to-“ a slap hit your face, it was not that hard but it made your face burn.

“I had enough of your shit talk” he grabbed your face “If you keep saying the same bullshit, I would made sure you cannot talk back at me never again” you stopped sobbing and nodded numerous times. “Kneel” he demanded and you obeyed, now with the exchanged roles as the last time you saw each other.

He grabbed your face once more so you could saw him. He took off his trench coat, he was wearing a suit without the jacket beneath the piece of fabric, he looked so powerful and contrasting with the usual sweet image that you were accustomed to, with one leather gloved hand he took out his cock through the zipper of his pants, flaccid but still big.

“Suck my cock, slut” he demanded grabbing your hair and pulling closer to him pointing the gun to your head making you flinch, your shaking hands took his dick and you look at him once again. “Don’t act innocent now, whore, put it in your mouth and suck” he instructed you with impatience, you put his cock in your mouth and he grabbed your head forcing all his length to your throat making you gag when after a few trusts in your mouth he was fully erected, he was watching closely your tears and red face completely overwhelmed, he was getting off of your condition.

He wanted to humiliate you, sink your dignity, reducing you to a pathetic object for his pleasure that he can use and toss aside.

But you could not simply succumb to his petty games to break you, something inside you was fighting and screaming.

He was almost lost in his pleasure, breathing heavily and occasionally moaning on a low tone cursing at the movements of your mouth.

You pull his dick out of your mouth, look at him with a smile on your lips catching his attention.

“You are pathetic, Jungkook” you said  masturbating him. “You cannot resist the temptation of reversing the power dynamic, can you?” liking the tip just as he likes it, making him moan. “No, your ego is too fragile for that” you took his cock in your mouth sucking and masturbating with your hand, you knew what bottoms to press to make him worked up.

“Watch your fucking mouth” he said thrusting his hips, fucking your mouth and you take it looking at his eyes. You knew he was close, so you put your hand on his abdomen grabbing his white button shirt for support, he left a heavy sight while you feel all his body tense.

“Fuck, yeah” he grunted leaking his cum inside your mouth, you felt the hot liquid but did not swallow it, at his shock you spited his seed to the ground, wiping your mouth and making a disgust expression.

“I should had called the cops when I could” you added, before your eyes was a disconcerted Jungkook which expression darkened once more, he zipped his pants, dropped the gun and lifted you with ease, he hold you in his arms while waking to your room where he gently drop you on your bed sitting beside you, looking at your eyes, lost.

“What now? Are you going to rape me?” you questioned, he could only lower his gaze.

“Nuna, please, I could never…” he spoke…soft.

“Shut up, Shut up!” you exclaimed indifferent “If you are going to do it, do it fast” you sentenced.

He just hugged you, hard, you wrapped your own arms around him, you felt his tears wetting your clothes, you closed your eyes holding him while he quietly sob.

“Nuna, I’m sorry so much” he said to you hugging the life out of you.

“I know” you said to him.

“Why it’s so difficult to understand that I’ll do whatever it takes to be by your side” he confessed “these past months felt like already pull the trigger, you are my only happiness, only you”

“Right now, it’s not the time” you said to him trying to convince him.

“What do you mean?”

“We are both not ready to be with each other we need to heal first, Jungkook” you told him pulling apart to watch his expressions. ”Can you do that, darling? Can you wait for me? Can you change?” his eyes blinked away the tears full of hope, he nodded while wiping his face with his fingers.

“I can do everything for you, anything you ask me” he said with firm tone, you smiled at him and leaned over to peck his lips, he was smiling too.

“Then it’s a deal” you said to him, he out of excitement pull you to his lap to hug you again, he do it so quickly that your core made friction with his thick thigh, you felt the familiar pleasure on your lower stomach, well it would be only fair since the fact that came and you didn’t, let’s take advantage of your poor situation as well, you positioned yourself better on his lap his bulge directly aligned with your core and you rolled your hips he looked at you this time.

“Yn?” he asked confused while you kissed his neck.”Babe…”

“Jungkook, touch me, please” you pleaded while grinding on his lap, he moaned at your request and immediately took your shirt off (the only piece of clothes that you had on) and warped his mouth around your nipple sucking it soundly, you whined. Did you forgot to mention the incredible skill that Jungkook possessed?, while stimulating your nipples he slided his long fingers  through your underwear, introducing it to your pussy, one became two then three, he was driving you crazy.

“Ah Jungkook, yes” you moaned feeling your orgasm arrive, head in the clouds, you laid on bed, ripping off your panties, while he took his clothes off to be fully naked, he was hard again. “Wait, in my wallet there is a condom” you instructed him while he looked at you raising his eyebrows, you rolled your eyes “I always have a condom on my purse, I did this even when we were together” he found the condom and put it on placing himself at your entrance quickly introducing the tip, your pussy reacted sucking him in, making you both moan, soon all his length was inside you, he took a moment to make eye contact with you.

“I missed this so much, nuna” he said to you, giving you a peck before starting to move, he was doing a stable pace than he later slowed to pull out and get back inside, you were a whining mess and he was proud of it, whispering sweet nothings in your ear, you felt your high near and started to get needier.

“I need to- I need too…” you couldn’t speak properly, so you took action flipping yourself over getting on top of Jungkook ridding him fast as the waves of pleasure were closer and closer. Jungkook moaned your name repeatedly while you both came, exhausted you collapsed on top of him, full of sweat, he caught you and pull you to his side, and cuddling you while yawning, falling asleep in each other arms.

Of course you said whatever it took to gain his favor, he had a gun for fucks sake! You will eventually call the cops but only after he goes away as he promised, harsher measures need to be taken for your own well being, at least you could say you had a proper closure with your psycho ex boyfriend.

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A year and a half passed since the last time you saw him, when you ended the most toxic dynamic you ever had, you had to call the cops eventually and get a restraining order, it was the best option available and until now it has worked pretty well, though the fear of him coming back is still engrained in you like a burn scar.

You had to find another place to live, change jobs and get accustomed to your new reality in a very short time, but it worked out. You now had a job in the flowershop and a small and cozy apartment downtown, you live a quiet live without much stress and you were looking forward to try dating again, maybe this time you could be happy.

So one day, during your shift at the flowershop, you saw how a very expensive car parked outside the store, and the figure of a young man in suit came out of the car, your curiosity banished replaced as horror when you recognized the man that you had put an restraining order. Jungkook walk to the store looking his best self, with a confident pace he went straight to the counter to be face to face with you, he took a few seconds to stare at you and then he smiled looking absolutely stunning with his wide grin and soft features, but you could not let yourself admire him because you know his true nature.

“Hello yn-ie, long time no see” he said to you as it was so natural for you both this reunion.

“Jungkook, you know I got an order against you, so I’d be nice and not call the cops but you have to go now” you said very fast before the nerves attack you, he chuckled and shook his head as he was hearing the rambling of a child.

“Oh yeah, that little trick you pulled on me” he added “I came here to buy some roses, didn’t expect to see you at all” it didn’t sound convincing.

“If you only want the roses that’s ok, but you have to leave immediately after” you said to him but he looked away, you asked for specifications and he instructed you to give him a rose bouquet, you quickly did what he ask you and when he received the roses his hands quickly brushed yours

“That would be 10 thousand won, please” you said to him, he pulled a 100thousand bill and hand it out to you, he insisted to you keeping the change. As you suspected he didn’t leave.

“Okay I may have lied, I do want something from you” he said to you.

“No” you responded without hesitation.

“I want to have dinner with you, there is a place I want you to know” he said to you ignoring your previous response.

“I said no” you sentenced.

“If you don’t want to see me ever again after this, I would gladly comply but you have to go with me first and just talk, there is something important I have to tell you” he said to you serious, it was so weird to see him after all you went through, he was a stubborn bastard and you knew there was no way he took a no for an answer, so you accepted to just get over that, you hoped, forever.

He took you to a exclusive restaurant that just opened recently, you felt so out of place with your casual work clothes you were wearing, but Jungkook pay no mind and insisted to take you there, besides you he looked like he is worth millions, you two look like a mismatching pair.

During dinner the conversation was superficial, he mostly talking about his new career path and trivial stuff, you silently nodded and made occasional commentary, getting a little impatient at his anticks.

“It’s nice to see how you have grown, I’m glad you been doing ok, I really do” you said to him, he eyes sparkling at your praise.

“I had to step up, nuna, i never forgot what were your conditions to get back together, I did my part” he said to you, you sipped your wine.

“I put a restraining order, Jungkook” you said to him serious.

“You did it impulsively, I will forgive you for that” he said sipping his wine too “Now we are different people right?” he added, you looked to the ground, your instincts are telling you that he didn’t change at all, a year could not possibly be enough for him to recover from his issues.

“I don’t know” you honestly responded.

“But you see me in another light” he said “And if you don’t, I can prove you I changed” he said.

“Jungkook, I’m not sure” you told him but he didn’t change his expression.

“Let me please prove you, yn, give me a chance” he looked at your eyes “without pressure, let’s know each other all over again”

You agreed, and for the past weeks Jungkook and you hang out casually, he did seam different but he there were still some characteristics that never changed, fortunately only the good ones remained. Jungkook had better economic position, he no longer had a regular lifestyle, so your hang outs were in places you never been before. Overall you knew what his ultimate intentions were, he always was upfront, and made you clear with actions that he want you back, but you were confused, he did change but you still cannot forgive the things he did in the past, a year ago you may have considered it, but maybe it was time to move from this.

Well your constant contact with Jungkook eventually lead to you getting drunk one night, he kissed you and you let him, not sure why. He always was a good kisser, you just let yourself go in the moment, little by little you two started behaving more and more like a couple, you did let it go that far when you shouldn’t, so one day when you were having dinner in a private room, he handed you a check, when you saw the ridiculous amount, you saw him with a confused expression.

“What’s this for?” you asked him, he smiled and the responded.

“It’s for you” he simply said.

“Are you trying to buy me?”

“I’m just showing you that I can take care you, princess”

“You don’t need to take care of me”

“But nuna, of course I need to” he said to you serious “You don’t have to work anymore in that shop, I’ll pay all your bills from now on, let me provide for you” he added.

“I did not ask you for money, and why do you have to provide for me?”  he rolled his eyes.

“Fine, stay in your little job, but when we get married I don’t want any protest” you reacted immediately.

“When we get married?” you repeated.

“Yes”

“Jungkook, I…” 

“Yn, where is this heading? You like me again, you kissed me and I bet you miss how I fuck you too” he started to say “Then we get back together, the next step is obvious”

“Marriage?” you scoffed “I think you need to calm down, you act like the past two years never existed”

“There is no use into bring the shit we went through” he added sipping his glass of whiskey.

“I’m thinking this better, we are like magnets we attract each other so easily but maybe we just don’t work in the long run, that’s it”

“Nuna, I thought that we making progress, why you can’t have faith in us?” Jungkook exclaimed “There is nothing more real than the love I have for you; my change is the proof”

“But I hurt you and you hurt me”

“That’s the past”

“I cannot go through another tragic situation, where we both are get traumatized, I just want a healthy relationship” Tears escaping your eyes, he got up from his seat and sat beside you pulling you close.

“We can be healthy; I know we can” he said kissing your forehead “I love you”

“Jungkook, should we try this again?”

“Of course, princess” he said to you sweetly “We belong together”.

The End.

Nineteen | JJK (m.) | series masterlist

Do you remember? the heat of summer? you said forever

pairing:fuckboy!jk × reader

genre:college!au, fwb!au, angst, smut

rating:18+

warning:fuckboy!jk(this should be a warning.), angst. HEAVY FUCKING ANGST. lots of drama, toxic relationships, manipulation, tons of drinking and parties, drugs, toxic friendships, anxiety, panick attacks, explicit smut, everyone is an asshole. crying, throwing ups, making bad decisions, regretting said bad decisions, oc being impulsive, misunderstanding, lots of arguing and fights, physical fights. brief fluff.

synopsis:just like the moon changes it’s phases, you see jungkook change himself. but unlike the moon, you don’t see him come back to the way he was before.

wordcount:3.8k

update:unpredictable but hopefully on mondays

p.s. the warnings for each chapter is individual.

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Nineteen | jjk (m.) | Chapter 1

do you remember? the heat of summer? you said forever.

pairing:fuckboy!jk × reader

genre:college!au, fwb!au, angst, smut

rating:18+

warnings:public fingering, use of the word slut. Jungkook is a real asshole here. manipulation, hickeys.

wordcount:2k

a/n:finally. it’s here. after so much anticipation, nineteen is here!!!! this chapter is short but i promise the next chapters are gonna be longer. shits bout to gown down bitches. also, the last part after summer 2019, guess where that is from?

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To say you were not surprised would be an understatement. You’ve known him for two years and in these two years you’ve known a lot. But you couldn’t say it didn’t hurt. It did. It hurt a lot. Everytime you saw him going around the campus, the girls in him arms parading around, showing everyone they won “the heartthrob”. 

Everyone knew Jungkook was the biggest fuckboy on campus. But that didn’t stop anyone from wanting to get laid by him. And that didn’t stop you from having a sour taste on your tongue. You knew you didn’t have the right to have a ‘sour taste’. Not when he wasn’t yours by any means. Even if he’s told you that he is in fact yours. 

When you felt a sting in your lower lips and the taste of iron sat on your tongue, you realized you’ve been biting your lips. A very bad habit you acquired after getting to know Jungkook. The back of your eyes stung as you turned around and excused yourself, not before letting Jungkook see you. You swear you saw his eyes glint when he saw you, but that didn’t stop him from leaning down and grazing his teeths along the ear of the girl he was with. 

“Having fun, Y/N?” Sol passed you a plastic cup, which you took with all the enthusiasm left in you. “Yeah” you chuckled humorlessly. Sol frowned at your response and then nudged you, eyes focused behind you. “Looks like someone’s looking for you." 

You turned around and your breath got stuck at your throat. He wore a black silk top paired with black jeans. Hair messy and sitting on his neck were the purple-bluish bruises that you gave him 4 hours back, when you rode him in your robe while he clicked your pictures. A smile graced your face automatically, at him or the hickeys, you didn’t know. 

He pulled you by your waist, body flush against his, as you felt your boobs press against his chest, the thin silk material of the dress you wore and his shirt not helping. "I missed you,” he murmured, “you’ve been biting your lips." 

"You saw me a few hours ago, Kook.” you said, hands pressed against his chest. “I missed my girl” he said, voice low but you could still hear him through the blaring music. 

His tongue swiped across your bottom lip, doing a double over your fresh cut as a sting shot through. He pulled your lips between his teeth and sucked on it like a baby sucking milk, all while maintaining eye contact. He left your lower lip before pulling you in for an actual kiss. His hands held your waist as he rubbed his thumbs in a circular motion. 

“I’ll see you in a bit, yeah?” he said, mouth next to your ear. Pressing a kiss on your right cheek, he left. And just like that, you forgot that he was the reason you were lying to everyone. Yourself and him included. 

“Hi babe” Yura hugged you from behind, before sitting in front of you. “Yoongi was looking for you.” you said, a knowing smile on your face as Yura’s face turned a bright shade of red. “You should just confess, you know? I mean judging by the way he’s always looking for you, man’s not gonna reject you babe." 

"You know what? Maybe I will. Yes. I will. Today.” she stated with a newfound confidence. You laughed at the way her face changed. “Yeah? While you’re at it, tell that asshole to bring me my headphones back." 

You felt your phone vibrate as you took it out of your pocket. 

kook <3: you free tonight? 

you: no. have plans :(

kook <3: oh. with? 

you: wouldn’t you like to know? 

kook <3: come on im just asking 

you: taeyeon 

kook <3: you know i can fuck you better right?

you: are you serious right now?

kook <3: you’re meeting him at night right? 

you: oh my god jungkook

kook <3: ykw? forget i asked. have fun.

You groaned lowly, rubbing your face. All you felt was rage. Who did he think he was, telling you what to do and what not to? After he walks around campus proudly knowing his reputation? After he encourages the girls who are lined up for him to be there? Maybe you should actually fuck Taeyeon. He was cute. You heard he had a big dick. So where’s the problem? 

You put on the lip gloss and checked yourself out at the mirror. The notification on your phone indicated that Taeyeon was waiting. Putting your heels on, you grabbed your keys and made your way out. 

You wore the flowy black dress that had been sitting at your closet for the longest time. Most of the times, when you’re out with Jungkook, you go with pants, jeans or shorts, knowing fully well that a dress would not help you on the back of his ducati.

"Wow” Taeyeon breathed as you walked towards him. The minute your eyes shifted from him, your eyes scrunched before your face morphed into a frown. Maybe the dress was a bad choice after all. There stood Taeyeon, on his bike. Next to him stood a couple of guys, whom you recognized were from your campus. But amongst them, you saw him. 

“Hey, I’m so sorry I forgot to inform you, but the guys wanted to go to the club. So I figured we could go there as well.” Taeyeon said, sensing your frown. You smiled and walked up to him, placing a peck on his cheek. 

From the corner of your eyes, you could see Jungkook poking his cheek with his tongue, eyes staring right back at you. “Uh, how do I get on tho?” you asked, looking at his seat. 

“Y/N can come with me.” you heard that oh, so, familiar, voice. “You have to pick up some stuff too, right Taeyeon? I don’t think Y/N can sit with all that.” he continued. 

“Yeah, he’s right. Y/N why don’t you go with him? It’d be a problem for you to sit with the stuff here.” Taeyeon said, eyes apologetic. 

“That’s fine.” you smiled sweetly at him, although you felt anything but that. 

You made your way towards Jungkook, who leaned smugly against his bike. “I guess you’re back to me afterall.” he said, the smirk not leaving his face. 

You rolled your eyes and got on his bike, legs either side with your dress scrunched up in the middle. Jungkook handed you a stole which you recognized as yours that you used to wrap around his neck when he was sick and still riding his bike. 

“Why did you bring this?” you asked, taking the stole from his hand. “Knew you’d need it." 

Before you could speak he grabbed your hands and wrapped it around his torso making you lean on him due to the high seat of his bike. A familiar feeling hit you when he revved up the engine followed by that familiar disappointment of knowing how many girls have done this. 

You really were ruining yourself. 

As the wind hit you, you felt free. You always did. Jungkook knew how much you loved the bike rides. He started taking you on them more after he learned about your love for rush and thrill. Halfway through the ride you realised that you were not on the way to the club but to a different direction. A road you knew too well.

"Where are we going?” you asked, voice loud so that he could hear you. When you didn’t hear him back you drew his name out “Jungkook." 

"Shh.” he said, holding your wrists and pulling you more towards him. 

He parked his bike next to a tree and then intertwined your fingers together. You liked to think you had Jungkook all figured out but times like these, when he acted as if you’re the only girl he looked at, as if he wasn’t fucking some other girl a few hours back, you thoughts are proven wrong. 

He wrapped his arms around your torso and rested his chin on your shoulder, your back pressed against his front as he walked you both towards the edge of the park, tiny twinkling lights of the entire city in front of you. 

“What are you doing, Kook?” you whispered , bur he hears it anyway. 

You feel his breath on your neck. “You know, I hate how you run away from me.” You could scoff at the irony, but you wouldn’t want to ruin the comfortable environment. “Why do you hate it? I’m always there.” you say lowly.

“I know, baby. So am I. Always there for you. Always will be." 

Tears welled up in your eyes but before they could spill Jungkook turned you around and pulled you in for a kiss. The tears fell anyways. Slowly dragged down. Jungkook wiped them using his thumb. 

Times like these, you wished he meant all his promises. 

He turned you around to your previous position, leaning to leave wet kisses down your neck. His hands traveled the expanse of your chest, one hand catching the hold of a breast while the other reached down to cup your sex. 

"Tsk, so wet.” his hand went further down as he pushed your panties aside and drew a long line on your wet slit. “You were gonna sit with these soaked panties behind him?” he asked lowly, voice dropping several octaves. “Answer me.”

“Y-yeah”

“Yeah?” he pinched your clit, as a loud groan left your throat. He pushed two of his finger inside, slowly scissoring them. Your hands reached up to his hair, pulling the roots and he continued to suck on your neck. “You like it?” he asked.

“Mhmm. Want mo-more.”

“Such a dirty little slut.” his finger picked up its pace as you pressed your thighs together. “For you. Just for you.” you said, voice sound nothing more than a breath. 

As you felt your climax hitting you, your body collapsed on his, as he wrapped his hand around your waist, the other one still inside your panties, fingers deep in. You both looked towards the city, wishing you could stay like this forever.

“Just for me.” he said, thumbs circling your clit as you closed your eyes, a second hit of tears coming in. 

You were maybe crying too much nowadays.

You both went back shortly after. You got down his bike, the slick feeling inside your thighs making you feel uncomfortable. He gave you a smile, bunny teeths popping out, hair messy and your underwear peeking out his back pocket. You hands reached out to fix his hair as he closed his eyes and leaned to your touch. 

“I’ll see you in a bit yeah?”

Except you didn’t. You went back to your apartment. When you scrolled through your phone, snap stories of his friends, where you saw him with some girl on his lap as she giggled. You knew you were not going to see him in a bit. You would, but that would be somewhere around 4 in the morning, when he would knock too loudly at your door, drunk. His friends would tell you he gave your address. You would usher him inside quickly, hoping not to wake the neighbours up. 

He would smell of some cheap sweet perfume, the smell would make you want to vomit. He would guide himself to your room, take out his clothes from your closet and put them on. Settle himself between your covers and then pull you on his lap. Kiss you like his life depended on it. Sneak his hands under your shirt and play with your boobs and you would sit on his lap. He would tell you how you were the only one. 

You knew it all to well. It was a routine. He was your habit just as much as you were.

You wondered how you reached this place. 

Summer 2019

“Fuck!" 

You were in the wrong building, on the wrong campus. And not only that, you were late. To your first day of uni. Sure you let yourself sleep 10mins more in the morning. But you didn’t know it was gonna result in you being late. 

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