Right now Jonghyun is teaching all the celebrities in the sky how to dance view, Prince is shaking.

Jonghyun

Dec 18th 2017

Today we lost our Jonghyun of Shinee. That doesnt mean much to people here in America but it means alot to me. Not only have we lost one of the most talent men in the world but his family and friends have lost someone who lights up their lives. I am so very sad about this mostly because i feel so deeply for people and i have been there. Suicide is no joke. Depression and any mental disease is no joke. I have been to that place a million times. Its the scariest most lonely, oddly peaceful place i have ever been. Thank goodness i never went through with it and thank goodness i had my support system to pull me out but some people just don’t. Jonghyun never had any intention of hurting anyone else he just wanted the pain to stop on the inside of him. Life gets hard sometimes and especially in the K-Pop world its very hard. I mean can you even begin to imagine some of the things they go through. Not seeing family having very little to no one who understands the way they live or hell even knowing the real person inside. They can’t even date without a little 15 year old girl whining and complaining that its not them or how they were suppose to marry them. Is it not enough to just be happy for them as people? They still have feelings they still hurt and love just like you. Is it not enough to just let them be human? People have to understand that LOVE is the answer. UNCONDITIONAL LOVE. Not the love where you love someone one minute and then they do something or say something to piss you off. You don’t have to like what someone says or does but you can still love them. Some people say i take things too hard that i care too deeply,even my own mother, but I can’t really find where that is exactly a bad thing. So i care and love people that doesn’t make me weak. No i didn’t know Jonghyun personally and i don’t have to know him at all to hurt for him and them. I wish i could hug every single one of his family and friends and tell them he didn’t want to hurt them! He just wanted the pain inside him to stop! I wish i could tell every single person in this world that has to suffer with mental diseases face to face that i have been there and i don’t judge you. the battles are very real and you are stronger and more loved than you could ever imagine even if it is just me that loves you. I would give my own life if it would make someone else happy. If it would make it where one family doesn’t have to go through this. My life is so little and your life is so big. K-pop or no K-pop idols, actors,actresses,normal human beings, We all have to stop being so self absorbed and love and care for others. I’m not saying don’t care for yourself but do both. Its possible i promise. The signs will never ever be there when it comes to suicide. You will never be able to tell if someone is thinking those thoughts because we hide it well. Those of us who have been there have learned to hide it so well you will think its just another day in the life. Well thats not always the case. We just want the pain to stop inside us. We hide it because socity and people in general look down upon mental diseases. Yes it’s getting better but still you can’t look at someone casing a scene in public and think the worse of them. Sometimes the struggle inside is harder than anything we ever face outside. So i’m telling you right now. If you need someone i am your person. I have been there and i know the feelings. We can do this together with love and i will never ever judge you. I love you all my sweet K-pop fans no matter the fandom we are family.

Another Letter For You.

December 18, 2021.

Four years have passed in a heartbeat. Four years from the day it changed everything in my life. The world continued on its course, but a part of my heart had been stolen from me. The moment I knew you were no longer here was one of the most painful of my life. I didn’t know what to do. Despite everything, I got on with it. I enrolled in college, I reflected my love for you in my art. Every time I needed you, I just listened to your songs. Listening to you comforts me… However, the day I listened to Blue Night again, I cried. And a lot.

This year, it was one of the calmest for me. That doesn’t mean that it has stopped hurting, but I have been able to take things differently. What if I cried? Of course. It was barely twelve at night, and reality hit me. Another anniversary of the day I lost you forever. I have not wanted to do anything but remember you in the best possible way.

Like this:

You, happy. Doing what you loved. Being on stage, singing, dancing, enjoying your music and your art with shawol. This year, I chose to leave out the bad comments from people who have no idea who you are, I chose to remember you happy, without reading anything sad or distressing. I chose to remember you with a smile on my face, even though the tears are still in my eyes.

I miss you, I love you and that will never change. No matter the years that pass, you will always be in my heart, in my mind, in my art and in the tattoos that I chose to wear on my skin in honor of you.

I love you, JongHyun. Thank you for being part of my life ❤️

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JongHyun — Solo Debut Stage on Music Bank ♡

January 09, 2015.

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JongHyun — Blue Night Update with Nine.

September 08, 2016.

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JongHyun — SHINee’s Vyrl Update.

September 07, 2016.

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JongHyun — Instagram Update.

September 09, 2017.

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JongHyun — DMC Festival 2015 MBC Radio DJ Concert Rehearsal.

September 09,2015.

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JongHyun — Lucifer Teaser Picture.

July 18, 2010.

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Jonghyun — Instagram Update.

May 21,2017.

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Jonghyun — SHINee Vyrl Update.

June 16, 2016.

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Jonghyun — Instagram Update.

May 24, 2017.

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Jonghyun — Blue Night Update.

May 18, 2015.

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JongHyun — Naver Starcast Update.

May 14, 2015.

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Jonghyun — Instagram Update.

May 12, 2017.

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JongHyun — upthere91’s instagram update.

May 03, 2017.

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Jonghyun — at Emok Cafe.

May 01, 2012.

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Jonghyun — Etude House Minime Be My Princess poster.

April 28, 2013.

JongHyun — SHINee’s Vyrl Update.

April 26, 2017.

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Jonghyun — Itunes digital Booklet for Story Op. 2.

April 24, 2017.

Let’s start by remembering your childhood. You were a precious baby, who soon grew into an adorable child.

That adorable child soon grew up and transformed into a charismatic teenager, with several dreams to fulfill.

Shortly after finishing school, your big break came. Time to start building dreams!

Over the years, you grew up as one of the greatest artists in the industry, along with your group: SHINee.

Special Section: Artist of the Year, 2013.

And then, that small space appeared that so comforted us all. Blue Night, that special, cozy and warm place, where we all felt understood, thanks to you.

It’s time to leave the continent! SHINee became known all over the world, which embarked them on a world tour where I had the opportunity to attend a concert that I never thought I could go to, to fulfill my dream, to finally have you close, and most special of all, celebrate your birthday with you.

The best moment of my life:

The greatest dream came true! One day in October, in 2014, we found out that it was finally time to walk through the doors of the Tokyo Dome and show everyone, once again, that perfection exists.

After years of hard work, came the most important reward: recognition as a soloist. Your first solo album arrived, you gave us your art, your songs, your lyrics, your music.

Mini Album Vol.1: BASE.

After the success of Base, it was time to include your songs entirely on She Is, in my opinion, the best album of your career. She Is has completely your essence, it describes you perfectly, it screams “Jonghyun” in each of its lyrics. Is my favorite and will be forever. Thank you for giving us this jewel.

1st Album: She Is.

Your compositions were a complete success, so you could continue giving them an art that belongs to you completely, without any kind of foreign retouching. Small fact: Story Op 1 arrived on my birthday, one of the best gifts you could give me.

The Collection: Story Op 1.

The Collection: Story Op 2.

Along with your albums, came your solo concerts, the space that you shared with shawol, with those people who were with you from the beginning.

At a certain point, someone noticed … And your beautiful tattoos came to light!

At the end of 2017, there was a resounding change in the lives of all of us who love you. You decided to spread your wings too soon, but before you left, you made sure to leave us one of the most beautiful comforts and gifts we could have imagined.

Maybe we couldn’t walk our whole life together, but I can proudly say that I grew up with you. Every word, every moment, every tear and every smile. Everything was worth it and is still worth it. I had to let go of your hand too soon, but that doesn’t mean you’re not still with me, with us. In the hearts of all of us who love you, of those who knew your art, your life, your passion for music.
Thank you for being part of our lives. I assure you that we will love you forever. Happy birthday, Jonghyun.

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Jonghyun — Twitter Update.

March 09, 2015.