I’m Feli, a film and digital technology student in Pittsburgh (not an artist as you can probably tell)! I’m making this post because my girlfriend and I made a pretty last minute decision to attend Katsucon this year! I’m very excited, and want to use this as a launch point for my own cosplay photography!
If you are upset, angry or uncomfortable with me over the clothes I choose to wear…
I am not the one who needs to change. But perhaps you need to reevaluate your feelings and why my personal style is contributing to your own dissatisfaction or discomfort.
Do not chastise me because I like to wear skirts and make up. Do not rebuke my existence because I look damn good in a dress. Do not reproach me with your concerns over my wardrobe because I do not get dressed for my day with you in mind.
You can berate me as much as you like, but I wont change. There was a time when I had no choice but to conceal my true self to continue living alongside someone or multiple people. Thankfully, I am past that point in my life.
If you have yet to reach a point in life where you feel 100% free to be yourself, now is the time to figure out how you can change your life in a positive way that allows you such freedoms. For younger individuals, this is the hardest because all you can do is wait it out until you reach an age where your parents can no longer control you and society can’t stop you. I know what that is like, I have been there! Remember, I am only 22 years old! It wasn’t until about 3 years ago when I obtained such freedom for myself.
Never give up on yourself though. Never forget the person you want to be when you finally get the chance to. I sure didn’t.
[shaky off-tune kazoo version of the jaws theme playing in the distance]
Hello, everyone.
First of all, I’m so incredibly sorry for just vanishing for more than half a year, especially because I realized my last post was about a hospital stay (which I did mention was harmless, but probably still looks pretty ominous as a last post.) I feel terrible for making people worry, especially since there’s already enough upsetting stuff happening :c
To be honest I’m a little nervous writing this post right now after being gone for so long, but I really wanted to give a life sign! This weekend I finally checked my inbox, and I was incredibly touched by all the sweet messages. I can’t get back to everyone so let me just thank all of you who sent messages or replies, or even just thought about me! I cannot put into words how much it means to me ;-; It made my heart hurt in a good way, and I hope good things happen to you!
(Personal stuff behind the cut)
Now, to give a little summary; my hospital stay went very well, and rl things have been slowly but very steadily improving! I have been at pretty low point in my life last year, so being able to achieve things and having stuff to look forward to, no matter how small, is huge! It wouldn’t have been possible without help, however, and while the realization that I absolutely needed help made me feel like a failure at first, I’ve slowly been able to accept it, and noticed that getting help also means I’ll have enough energy to help others and get more things done in turn! Of course, this is just the beginning of my path to (hopefully!) recovery, so more stuff is going to happen soon. I’ve got another hospital stay coming up sometime next month (this time for 3 months, though I might go home on weekends), and I will try to make a post when it’s time. Again, nothing to worry about, I promise! I was actually supposed to go years ago, but unfortunately I’m a dumbass. Also, I’m gonna get a root canal soon because years ago I broke off a bit of tooth and was too much of a weenie to go to the dentist ;_; Don’t be like me, friends!
Bad news is that I have barely drawn anything since about a year ago, which is another reason why I avoided Tumblr. I know people wouldn’t be mad at me for a bad art block, but still feel guilty for not being able to post original content :c The problem is that I’ve come to dislike my art more and more. Whenever I start out actually liking something I’ve drawn, it doesn’t take long until I keep noticing mistakes while other people’s art looks so beautiful and lively to me. I didn’t want to talk about this issue because I worried about coming off like I was fishing for compliments when in fact, nice comments made me feel worse. Whenever someone wrote stuff like “I like how you draw noses“ or “I like the colours“, I always felt like those comments were secretly making fun of my art and pointing out how bad I am at drawing noses or picking colours. I know that’s extremely unlikely to be the case, and I felt really guilty about thinking stuff like that when people meant well. My brain can be a jerk :T I am working on getting back into the groove though! I really want to draw again, but I’m taking things slow.
Also, a big reason I needed to avoid Tumblr was how aggressive and cruel so many fandoms have become. I had to choose between my mental health and fandom (as I’m not really active on any other social media sites and Tumblr is pretty much my main fandom outlet). It’s really depressing that something that used to make me feel better and cheer me up has become such a source of stress and anxiety, and I didn’t even have to deal with anywhere near as much drama and shit as many of my friends did. The first time I logged into Tumblr after I returned from the hospital, I felt this really uncomfortable sinking feeling in my stomach just from seeing the dashboard layout and decided to avoid it and wait some days until that feeling goes away. I suppose “days“ was a tiiiny bit too optimistic of an estimate. To be honest, I was kind of hoping that the whole callout culture and anti shipping trend would have mostly died down by now, or at least a little bit, but at the moment it looks like The Discourse is here to stay for a while :T I’m a lot more stable now so hopefully it won’t bother me as much any more.
I’m also not sure what I want to do, now that this stuff seems to be part of the fandom experience on here. On one hand, I want to stay out of it when possible and only reblog the occasional good post I agree with. On the other hand, I want to speak my mind. I know that many nice peeps feel too afraid of backlash to say something, and seeing others openly pushing back against antis and purity crusaders can help them see that they are not alone. Some of the messages I got during my absence were people asking me for my opinions because they felt guilty about liking certain things in fiction, and it makes me so sad to see clearly thoughtful and kind people worrying that they are somehow bad or evil for liking something ~le problematique~ in fiction. I’m sure many of you would rather not see any more discourse on your dashes, though :c I don’t really want to make a “discourse blog“, because I’m still clinging to the hope that this trend of grilling hobby artists and writers over their niche works as if they had any societal power will stop soon (also, I really suck at keeping up multiple blogs >:U) I guess we will see.
Well, this was quite a lot of text! Thank you so much for reading! Anyway, I hope you peeps have been holding out okay! This is ridiculously late but: thank you for all the birthday wishes, Merry Christmas-es, and Happy New Year-ses, and a very belated merry birthday year to everyone as well!
I missed you guys ;c; *awkwardly clammy shark hugs and/or smooches for everyone who wants them*
I made the cover to my mix! …included the alternate title because. it’s funny.
reminder not to repost my art anywhere. thank you!
[id: two versions of an illustration of amity and luz. the two are facing each other in profile. pink fire is spreading from luz’s hands to curl up around amity’s shoulders. amity is reaching out to curl her hands around luz’s wrists. they stare at each other with quiet surprise, cast in shadow but illuminated by the pink glow of the flames. in the first version, “magic” is written above them; in the second, “ha ha… gay” is written above them. /end id.]
Days 12-15 with Zelda and Link stuff with the other days being mini turnarounds/refs!
Listened to that buzzfeed unsolved stuff again and I was like “what if that but LoZ??” I def think Zelda would have major cryptid/ghost hunter energy and Link would be cool for the ride up until Zelda starts acting out
[id: a series of illustrations of zelda and link, first a set of comic panels and then reference sheets. both are depicted as black; zelda has dark brown skin and her dark hair in braids, and link has medium brown skin and his hair in curls, half-tied back with two braids framing his face. the comic panels show them in the cave of the breath of the wild sequel trailer. zelda, her hair about shoulder-length, has a torch raised and her face lit with a bright grin. she yells, “demons! show yourselves!” link, beside her, yells in shock, “zelda!” zelda raises both of her fists and continues, still shouting, “plunge us into darkness!” and link hurriedly reaches for her, saying, “zelda chill.” the third panel shows link with the torch, calling, “oh ghouuuls~ the boys are here!” while zelda stands to the back, fists clenched and mouth in a cat-like smile. the reference sheets show illustrations of zelda and link each from the front and back, then two profile headshots. zelda’s is captioned, “botw2 (trailer), short braids look.” /end id.]
I was gonna make a post earlier about how its weird that just a few yrs ago i wld openly talk about harmless, innocuous nsfw stuff openly but now I cant even say anything baguely nsfw bc i get panicked and scared ill be hurting or scarring someone, somehow.
But after seeing last reblog and the tags i remember its because at one point whenever id post anything even vaguely risque (think like. A nude anatomy practice drawing with censored bits that wasnt even explicitly nsfw. Or a guy showing his midriff) there would be this one anon that wld come into my inbox every time like “thats literally so fucked up of you to be posting that where children can see you’re sick in the head delete it NOW❗❗❗” etc etc HRJAJFJSK
So on one hand i do think its dumb to be #minors dni on some post when as a teenager its like what else do you do but talk ab nsfw shit w friends LOL but on the other hand there are ppl that will attack you into tagging all your posts that cld be vaguely nsfw as every possible thing for safety, if you even post anything vaguely nsfw ever again at all lest you potentially hurt somebody…ykwim
disgustingly cute domestic scenes to imagine your otp in:
getting slightly too drunk in the middle of the afternoon and slow dancing to dumb cheesy old music and kissing in a way that’s more laughter than actual kissing, mouths clumsy and hands gripping tight and sunlight slanting over them as they move lazily together
curling up on the sofa together, feet tucked under thighs and arms around shoulders, watch the kind of crap tv that only airs at 3am because they don’t want to go to untangle themselves to go to bed
hectic mornings when they each need to be somewhere and they’re rushing around each other, ducking into bathrooms and bedrooms and kitchen cupboards, pausing to straighten tops and press kisses to cheeks
going through old photos together and collapsing into laughter every three pictures, and zooming in on ones where they’re pulling awful faces or ones that were taken at just the wrong moment
getting ready for nights out together, standing shoulder to shoulder as they brush their teeth or get their faces ready or style their hair, knocking elbows and hips as they try and hog more space
standing quietly together in the kitchen after long, exhausting days, leaning into each other for support, breathing in the smell of home, fingers carding through hair and stroking down spines, until they feel like they can relax and smile properly again
We’re receiving reports that the final Shifty Station stage in Splatoon 2 will be titled MC.Princess Diaries! We also have unconfirmed reports that the stage might feature an in person appearance from Pearl and Marina themselves…
Additionally, with over 20 returning Shifty Stations in the rotation for the Final Splatfest, we’ve been given a look at the schedule for the Final Splatfest: Sets of the existing Shifty Stations from past Splatfests will appear in 2-hour rotations during the first 48 hours, and during the last 24 hours, the new Shifty Station for this Final Splatfest, MC.Princess Diaries, will appear. Mark your calimari-endars accordingly!
Here’s a list of the previous Shifty Station stages for your records:
taken from the 2019 the music-based action game created by Swedish developer Simogo ( as always, feel free to tweak things such as pronouns and titles as needed )
the end of love doesn’t happen this way.
don't you know how it goes?
i have tried to forget all the pain and regrets.
can you tell? does it show?
i’m alone in a city of ghosts.
i’m the only one alive in the dead of night.
we prefer the masquerade.
i’m too young to remember when the world was alive.
how long have we been talking?
you should try to close your eyes, though.
‘cause funny you should mention that place, i used to go there all the time.
we should go together someday.
hey, this is not you sleeping by the way.
this is not how it ends, this is not goodbye.
what’s the word, does that thing have a name? when familiar surroundings just don’t look the same.
some of the mod’s favorite quotes from the gay mod / rom hack for fire emblem: fates. tw: implied / referenced violence ( as always, feel free to tweak things such as pronouns and titles as needed )
❝ You’re awfully timid, aren’t you ? ❞ ❝ It’s just, you’re always trying to cheer me up. You kind of remind me of an older brother. ❞ ❝ Ugh… FINE, here you are. ❞ ❝ So… you came. Thought you’d chicken out at the last minute. ❞ ❝ It’s fine, no harm done. ❞ ❝ Picking me up like this is probably even more embarrassing… ❞ ❝ It’s asinine. _____, don’t let those fools rattle you. ❞ ❝ Here, take my handkerchief. ❞ ❝ I know. I’ve always been pretty bad at talking to people. ❞ ❝ Forget I said anything. Just… please, do your studies for once. And leave me in peace to do mine. ❞ ❝ Because I get it now! I get why you’re so obsessed with all these boring books! ❞ ❝ Everyone knows you work really hard, but sometimes you work TOO hard. ❞ ❝ No matter how many mistakes you make, you pick yourself right back up and try again. ❞ ❝ We don’t see eye to eye on a lot of things. ❞ ❝ Don’t think I haven’t noticed your lack of work ethic. ❞ ❝ You’re a little cocky for a brat with her back against the wall. ❞ ❝ You wouldn’t believe the type of stuff you can get away with using the right words. ❞ ❝ I suppose the less I know, the more chances I’ll have to claim plausible deniability. ❞ ❝ Did they confiscate your candy stash? ❞ ❝ I’ll explain everything in time. Do you trust me? ❞ ❝ Huh, guess we’re tied for family disappointment, then. ❞
